a moment of enlightenment

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Submitted: November 21, 2016

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I had a moment of enlightenment, indeed, the scariest thing that has ever happened to me, happened this week, but what about that, what if I make it mean something more than empty and senseless fear, parasites are also amongst the living, in fact, I’ve had plenty of them throughout my life, but what made this one different, goes beyond its paranormal nature, it showed me how the world works, since I was a child I’d considered this one of greatest fears, I always thought it would be something loud, something out of a horror movie, but really it wasn’t, I can’t even remember feeling fear at all, it was slow and quiet, this made me think that perhaps that’s how happiness, love and light work as well, this was an awakening, this was a calling, a calling to rise up, take control and reach for what I want to be, to fiercely defend what I am and reach for the future I so longingly desire,  I have chosen this woman as my spiritual guide, I need a lot of work in that area,  I have to cleanse myself, I have to take the poison out of my life, I have to make up for the time I wasted wallowing and drowning in self-pity, yes I have bulimia, yes I want to lose weight, but I have to stop, I have to be the bigger person and stop thinking that just because I’m me, I’m immune to all kinds of shitty stuff, I’m human, I’m exposed to this shit, and by shit I mean everything, I have to own up to my mistakes and fight my fears, I can´t let things like this paralyze me, I can’t sit on a bed all day and pray, waiting for the answer and the wisdom to pour down on me, praying works when you show commitment, when you’re awake to see the doors of opportunity opening up just for you to cross, be wild, be creative, it’s perfectly ok to be scared, as long as you don’t let that fear become a restraint for your dreams.


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