suicide

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i used to contemplate self harm and suicide but now i know it is not the answer

Submitted: December 17, 2016

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I sit in silence here by myself

contemplating self destruction

I saw no reason to stay around

I had fallen into the bottomless pit of depression

In desperation, I called out

Hope answered, she heard my voice

She found me, though I don't know how

but it opened my eyes and removed deaths shroud

 

I was on the verge of suicide

standing on the edge of that cliff

ready to leap and prepared to die

hope was the fear that kept me from jumping

holding me back from taking that final step

it was my last resort

and she has helped me help myself

 

Depression was a scorpions tail

but its venom I was stung

I always thought I was alone in my struggle

but now I see I am not the only one

The fog was so thick, so dark I could not see

the demons in my head

made me into someone that was not me

But Hope was there

she carried the load I could not bear

I always thought suicide was the answer 

but now I see I was wrong

 

I had been clinging to hope

it was dangling by a thread

though i needed it desperately, it filled me with dread

I was almost giddy for the rope to break

even if it broke, I would be dead

Suicide is never the answer

it is not the easy way out

it never solves your problems

or calms your stormy weather

suicide is permanent, and once commited

you are lost forever

there is no chance of life ever getting better

 

Depression was a scorpions tail

but its venom I was stung

I always thought I was alone in my struggle

but now I see I am not the only one

The fog was so thick, so dark I could not see

the demons in my head

made me into someone that was not me

But Hope was there

she carried the load I could not bear

I always thought suicide was the answer 

but now I see I was wrong

 

Even when the loneliness closes in

even when the silence screams out your name

and you feel broken within

you are stronger than your pain

so stand in the rain

let its refreshing rivers overtake you

and let you know that somewhere, for someone

you are hope for something

 

Depression was a scorpions tail

but its venom I was stung

I always thought I was alone in my struggle

but now I see I am not the only one

The fog was so thick, so dark I could not see

the demons in my head

made me into someone that was not me

But Hope was there

she carried the load I could not bear

I always thought suicide was the answer 

but now I see I was wrong

 


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