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This book is autobiographical in nature. The author is in the opinion that it is necessary that all the love stories are not fortunate to met their goal. Author uses this this book as an opportunity to relate his own life and love story to the readers. Key To My Heart is a romantic saga of the two people belonging to the the modern day world of Internets and gadgets. The story begins with childhood of the author and his life during early age. The story tells about how he went under a crush and finally loved a with a girl Divyanka during his intermedetiate. As their discussion becomes casual and move to their plans for their partners, they got separate from rumors and lack of contact. Later on he came across two girls shital and nisha who he got relationship with, bypassed his feelings and but couldn’t manage to be with them because of his past memories. After a long period of time, finally, he met with her love and got to knew about her life and the boy whom she was relationship with, from herself only. The author told explained the way of how the girl started loving him and finally got intimate with each other again. The author beautifully portrays the emotions and feelings of these two people in love, waiting for each other messages and phone calls. The reader can relate to their everyday life as they indulge in late night conversations and each other’s grief, joy and sorrow. The author shows how small incidents brought these love birds closer. The author puts in words the apprehensions, curiosity and excitement that siddharth feels before his first meeting with divyanka. Written with a touch of light hearted with humor, the story is loaded with all sort of emotions that have power to touch the heart of the reader, However the story takes a sharp turn when their love is put to the ultimate test. What happens to Divyanka? How does Siddhartha deals with new situation? The book answer these questions and much more.

Submitted: January 14, 2017

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Submitted: January 14, 2017

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“Don’t accept other’s definition of life. It’s completely yours. Define it, define it by yourself, the way you love it to be. Be purely yourself because nobody knows you better than you.”

When defining life, is pounded off great back to back experiences and several memories. Every man over this piece of land has the potential to script his own definition of life according to him. Love is only just a word until someone comes and gives a true meaning of life. Their is a great relationship between love and life. Love makes life worth living. The emotional state of love is complete happiness. Love is one of that immense feeling of life which leads you to get high off as narcotics does. 

So finally, After wasting a long long time for thinking and collecting my ideas, One day I decided to script my own life and memories into words. It has been said that the best part of life is childhood. True, but what makes your life more memorable is your 20’s. 

My childhood has also been one of the most memorable time of my life. Being the first child, I was loved so much by all my family members, grasped almost all their love. It has been a long time now, but even today also I had all those moments inside my heart. Whenever I cried for anything, My parents always fulfilled that wish by selling their dreams, They waken themselves the whole night to make me fall sleep. Whenever I have to make a visit somewhere to my relatives, they always used to take great care of mine. My family was actually not just good but truly excellent towards me. Every man dreams to have a nice family and I have always been walking over the head of that dream.

It is not the thing of praising myself, but from the very beginning of my age, I was very intelligent and sincere for my studies.

Though of being bit silent and introvert, My friends were never being more in number, they were fewer, But whoever linked to me and was my friend, was special to me and I for them too. They always tried their best and helped greatly in my difficult times for getting me out off those stuffs. From my point of view, My life had always been very special and memorable to me.

It was the time when just two or three months were left and my board exams were approaching towards me like a super fast bullet rain with a great speed and were seeming to crush me. I was preparing very well for my exams. I used to wake up daily early in the morning. I was very sincere thosedays . Ultimately, I passed my boards with a good score and made my family prouder. During 11th, and from its very starting, Everywhere I always just kept on listening that 11th year is the rest year. When I started my tuitions, Like every teenager, I made several bunks of my schools and classes, used to keep myself far away from homework, listened to teacher’s anger. All it was like, A job assigned to me by my surroundings. I was going totally distracted from my studies. Routine was getting fully set. 

One day, when i was attending my coaching classes, my eyes sticked over a girl who was newly admitted in my institute. This girl was actually my classmate who was studying with me since the beginning of my education. In school we were just casual friends who ever talked rarely. As she was my classmate, I started helping in arranging and getting class notes for her. We talked in a nice manner. The bond between us was getting enough stronger than before. But as days were passing, A unknown feeling was taking birth inside me. I started thinking for her in a different manner, was actually confused about all of that, followed her many times after the coaching classes use to get over. I was totally destructed by all that. It was the peak time of mine. I just wanted to get rid of all those stuffs. So one day I decided to get away from all this stuffs and concentrate only toward my studies. I started preparing for my final exams which were going to arrive just after two months followed up by old schedule of getting early in the morning time and devoting it only for studies, sleeping not much late during night and attending my classes regularly. All was going perfectly fine, but suddenly one night I thought of contacting and explaining her all about the situation which i was going along. I finally set up a plan. Next day, I approached a boy who was also one of my classmate and requested him to get me up with the personal contact number of that girl and also told him to pass her a paper in which I described my situation, feeling towards her and asked for the reply too. Two days later, Boy called me and provided the contact number of a girl to me, but additionaly told me that it was not the number of that girl whom i was thinking about. Actually, she was one of the friend of my girl. But after all, I thanked the boy and moved away. I thought of calling that other girl and dialed her number from my phone. The conversation was like….

Me : Hello(Girl’s voice).

Girl(other): Hi, who’s this??

Me: This is your class mate. Hope u remember me??

Girl(other): Ok. So what can i do for u?

Me: Not much, but only provide me the number of a girl as she took away my notes and her number was deleted from my phone.

Girl(other): Ok(Number was been provided.)

Me: Thanxx a lot.

Girl(other): Ok, Bye.

Me: Bye.

I was very excited as I was having her number in my hand. So without wasting any more minutes, I called her.

 

Me(In original voice): Hello.

Girl: Hi

Me: I am *****. Today, I passed u a letter with something written inside it.

Girl: Yes, I remember.

Me: So, what to do think about??

Girl(confused): I will be thinking over that. Just wait for few days.

Me: Ok. Have a nice day.

Girl: Same to u. Bye

Me: Bye.

Fours days passed, One night, I finally decided to call her. She picked my call just only after one ring. 

In a warm voice, Hello..!! How are you?? I asked about herself and showed a bit of care and asked for her reply. She only ended by saying hmmm..yes..! and putted off the her phone.

I was very confused now, but took peaceful breathes as the reply was positive. But, my luck was going very bad. Actually, The person with whom I talked was the not the person whom i was thinking about. Unluckily it was her mother who was talking just as her daughter. Next day, I don’t know how, Her mom called my mom asking about me, giving complains for me. As I came to know about the whole issue from my mother, I was just totally shocked after hearing about all this shit. My mom told all this to my father, they started scolding me for the activity I performed.

Finally i realized my mistake and said sorry to all for what i did. But the matter still haven’t gone silent. After few days, One day, when i was in school, attending the lectures, I saw the girl and her parents inside the school campus. I got bit frightened that time. As minutes passed, I heard an announcement calling out my name and requiring my presence in principal’s office. Now I was completely shivered and thought of myself to be undergoing in a great risk. I immediately scratched my bag pack from the desk and ran away from the campus without informing anyone. Actually it was the last day of my school before the preparation leave for my final exams. Now leaving all, I got busy for my exams and started following my old schedule. Finally, exams got over and I passed my 11th class with a good percentage of marks. One day again, I thought of calling her. But this time, Her phone got switched off. I tried calling her again and again, started enquiring for her and later on came to knew that she along with her family have left the city permanently. I felt very sad after knowing all. But soon after sometime, I realized that the unknown feeling which was prevailing inside me for her was just a simple attraction, nothing more than that.

For the beginning of a new chapter, Old chapter needs to get end. Weather was changing now. Winter days with foggy surroundings were moving towards a new season. Leaves were falling out of their branches and a new chapter of my life was going to be scripted. School was going to open within few days. One night, an idea stroked my mind and I thought of calling and thanking that other girl who provided me the number of my girl. I called her. This time she identified me instantly just by hearing me. I explained her the whole scenario from starting to end and finally had a nice conversation. Now almost everyday, We started calling each other. All was going good, A month passed, and we were as in the beginning. This time it was something like different. I was happy from all. Actually this girl was also in my class, but I never tried to talk or even think about her. One day, Finally I saw this girl in my class and realized this is the girl whom I was talking with since one month. I found her a bit cute. Time was not going to stop. Days were passing and we were talking more and more frequently. Now all this stuff was transforming into my requirement. I was getting addicted to all this. I started missing her. Actually it was the first time when i realized that may be, it could be the feeling of love. I was totally confused because of my recent experience. One day, with a great sense of dare I decided to describe her about my feeling towards her. I called and told her that Dear it might be silly to tell u, but everything between us is not running perfect. My heart and mind now are not under my control. I think I loves you. 

But she took away this as a joke and wondered how could a boy be in love just after liking an other girl and ended the topic. Now I started thinking the ways to let her understand the thing is not going all fair, I was getting really intimate for her day by day. It all acted like a misfortune for me because she was totally a fun loving girl. Love and all was piece of shit for her. She had never been got serious with me till that time. To her, It was all like playing a game and useless for her. I was totally disturbed by all. So, I started doing some really stupid things for seeking her attention. During the end of classes, I started following and roaming around her. Maximum time I use to keep myself busy in such stuffs at that time. Pick and drops became the favorite game of mine. Gathered and contributed many of the ways for being with her. During that time I met with the two boys which were unknown to me from the very beginning. Actually the boys were senior from me but soon became very good friends of mine. I started to be with them for the rest hours and they were acting like my left and right hand of support. One day I decided to provide a cellphone to this girl so that we could talk more frequently and conveniently. Now everything was going very perfect for me and her too. But actually my luck was not too good. I remember, it was near about 11 pm midnight when we both were talking on phone. Suddenly the phone got cut and I was very confused. Next day, during classes, she told me about the last night, last incident that her phone was ben caught by her mother. But next day I told her to have an excuse of having her mate’s phone by mistake and next day finally she bought me that phone which was being caught by her mother. I was happy now. In this way the phone was caught many times. Actually as like the mentality of small town boys, many of them tried approaching her, contacted her, following her. There was nothing much between us. But many times, I saved her from many such incidents. During those days we became very popular among the teenagers. Almost everybody was knowing her and especially for me. It was a very virtual feeling at that time. Days passed, one day phone got caught again. I was extremely irritated this time and finally decided to get rid of the whole situation. I started planning of a hypothetical family and a girl which were going to work as defensive weapons for us and finally managed to do it.

It was the first time when she told me about that she also loves me too. I was happy and founded the life being turned on. A sense of trust was now developed between us. Life was totally changed for me. I initiated securing us from all raw busters harming our relationship. Even I changed my tuition classes so that I could be with her, I want to see her almost all the time. We were enjoying those days greatly. There were many people creating misconceptions in between. Some them used to create misunderstandings in her mind and some for me. But, we were strong as drilled pillars. 

There was a girl named sujata. she was actually her best friend, always used to be with her during her school times, tuition days and evenings. Soon she became a very good friend of mine too and we started going through talks. she was a perfectly good, descent and innocent girl. These two guys i.e sujata and one of that senior guy always support us in sorting out our misunderstandings. Sujata’s brother always used to pick her sister and my girlfriend after their tuition classes. His brother was kept in misconception that I used to follow them during evenings. It was around the time of november, one day what happened I was going somewhere with one of my friend on his bike. My friend was driving and I was sitting on the backside. we were in a crowdy place. After some minutes of traveling what i saw was bit surprising for me. His brother along with the two girls was following me. But the unmight situation was, he started hitting our vehicle from backside with his bike. I got confused and told my friend to change off his way of going as he was doing an unusual activity. But instead of changing of our way, he doesn’t stopped. He pushed off the girls from his bike and again started following us cruelly. He was shouting with abuses but we were ignoring and not listening to him. After a long distance of driving and confusing him with many streets, I finally decided and told my friend to stop at a point. Just a minute of rest and I saw that he was standing behind and shouting my name. This time he pushed me and scratched my shirt cruelly. That time, my mind got totally stroked. I turned my myself and slapped him hard and gave rise to a fight between both of us. Yet I dominated him. A large number of people gathered and separated us. Seeing that crowd all around, police came along to know about the matter. They ultimately took us to the nearest police station in their jeep. Situation was going tough to worst. it was a feeling of guilty for me. I was feeling like to be the first in my family going to police station without being the culprit. I felt so bad that time. The girls were searching us all around. After half an hour, I saw my father coming there with great anger in his eyes. I was feeling ashamed. Few minutes and I was released from there over a call. My father told me to come with him. It has been the worst time of my life. His brother was a kind of hypothetical person. He created a hypothetical situation to my girlfriend’s and his family just for seeking their attention. Actually he totally wanted me to get proved wrong in front of their families and he proved that in absence of me.

Various competitive examination forms like IITJEE, AIEEE etc were released and I was looking forward to a chance of a visit to my girlfriend’s home. One day I went to my school for getting my form attested by officials. Suddenly I called my girlfriend at the time and asked her if she was alone and could meet me in her home. Her parents were actually out of town and his brother was busy in school time. She agreed. I along with my friend turned my way towards her home. I ranged her doorbell. She was standing in front of me and told us to come inside. We were welcomed. I told my friend to go if he was getting late. He went off. Now we both were alone inside and were staring each other. she was bit confused for when I told my friend to go away. she asked me to wait for a while as she went to kitchen for doing something. I was getting amazed. She asked me if I was getting bored. I doesn’t replied. she got confused by the silence. I was hearing to her footsteps. Actually I was going to hug her for the first time surprisingly. I pushed her to the wall and holded tightly. The moment was mesmerizing. I was excited to my upper energy level from ground level. We started hugging her un-abruptly. I told her that, if we kissed, I would have to sit over my feet to equalize our height difference. Now it had been the first time when i kissed her. we sticked together for a couple of minutes. Truly saying, the feeling was unique. She told me to go as soon as possible, as his brother was going to arrive. I went away saying her bye. It was the time which led me to get intimated with her.

Diwali was arriving. All was going very good between us. It was actually the day of karwachauth where the married women used to have fast for the sake of their partner’s life. We were in the same tuition classes as i told above. On that day, I was told about that my girlfriend was on fast for me. It made me totally amazed and surprised as she was not been such a type of girl who could follow such rituals in teenage. Coincidently she was dressed nicely which made me confused. I finally decided to enquire her about the whole scenario. But all it were just rumors. 

We were almost in a commited relationship and started meeting in a lonely place which was nearby from my address. 

it was around the time of midnight 11am, when talks were going in-between. She told me that a boy named, Amir was repeatedly calling and disturbing her. I asked her to provide me with the contact number of that amir. I dialed his number and warned him brutally not to disturb her again. All was now quit. Next evening, As i came out of my coaching institute, I saw him waiting for me with many boys. He came decided to give me the answer for my warning. He was walking towards me and suddenly scratched my hair in front many of the people with his hand. That time, I thought of the crowd being so stupid, of not having any dare to save me from those vultures. He slapped me, kicked my thigh. I was only defending myself. After sometime they left me away with pain in my eyes. Now a fire of revenge was burning in my bloodstream. I was in a great anger but confused. I told some of my friends to just stand for me during the next evening. I was now going to give him a tough reply for his activity. After my classes, I caught him sitting outside the gate with his one or two friends. Instantly seeing him, I picked up a thick wooden rod with iron nail from the road and approached towards him. Without wasting any single minute. I smashed his face with that wooden stick and started kicking and beating him badly. Many people gathered to see the drama. After some time I stopped myself from hitting him and we went away from there. I took my revenge which relieved my fire inside. Like thus ways, I started protected her from other elements..

But the people were not still gone silent. some of them started setting fire in her brother’s mind too. Many of them pretended rumors. The fire of our relationship was spreading unstoppably. One evening I received a phone call. it was my girlfriend’s mother’s call. I got surprised as it had been the first time when she called me. she invited me to their house. Fine, Decided to go there. At that time, I was with two of my friends and told them to come with me. As we reached to our destination, I sawed her mother standing at the main door of their house. She told me to come inside along with my friends. I touched her feet to express my feeling of gratitude towards her. We were welcomed and I was behaving in nice way.  My girlfriend was standing and starring me from a corner. Her mother was actually discussing the whole scenario with me and asked if I was having any problem with his son. I also explained her the about the whole hypothetical situation being created in the town and ultimately proved myself right. 

It was nearly around the time of my uncle’s marriage. My parents left me in the house alone, our pre boards were approaching within fewer days. One of the most complicated duration for me. On one side, I was struggling for my exams but on the other side it was all totally going different. Feeling of love were pressurizing my mind. I was missing her more and more frequently which were blurring the concentration towards my studies. We increased our calling over phone more n more and talked for hours. It was like that all has been set aside. I was unconcerned. During those days, Some misunderstanding was going on between me and my girlfriend. One evening I went for attending a marriage ceremony. I was there with some of my friends. Suddenly something hit my mind, I decided to call my girlfriend for sorting out the things and came to know that she was also attending any marriage ceremony. I told her instantly that dear I m coming there to see u, to meet u. She agreed. Without wasting any single minute, I along with my friend drived towards that resort where the ceremony was holding on. I sawed her. She was looking pretty. I was also very happy to see her. After sometime, me and my friend left and returned to our occasion. it was late night. The time was getting around 11’O clock. We all friends were enjoying a lot and after that we all decided to enjoy the cold weather with the charm of vodka. It was the first time when I was heavily drunked. It was midnight now. I told them to return now as it was so late. Next day I was having my maths pre board exam. I was drunked so high that I slipped along with my scooty on the road, But I was lucky , I slipped over sand. Finally without going through with no more accidents, I reached my home safely. I was 2 am late night. I turned my alarm on and slept over my bed. But after some minutes, I saw myself missing her and started feeling so much unconsious. The feeling got worst now. I was even not able to sleep properly. Around four hours passed, but was crying from severe headache. The point to be concerned i.e, My headache was not because of getting being drunked. I was actually missing her to such an extent that, It ultimately drowned me in pain. It was nearly 7am morning. I called and told her about the whole last night scenario that how I was dying to see her.

After some minutes of talking frequently, I drove towards her house and told her to come over her terrace so I can see her. She got amazed by seeing this behavior of mine. I sawed her and instantly got away from there as I was having my exam. I returned to my home and got ready, prepared my lunch and finally departed to my school. When I was solving the question paper, My mind initiated getting unconscious and again I started missing her. After coming out off the examination hall, I realized my condition of being low and undying love towards her. It was like something stopped me, not allowing my soul to leave anywhere, not able to concentrate. I started suffering so much. I wanted to see her, listen to her, be with her almost all the time. That was really one of the most memorable time of my life. 

One day, when we were in maths coaching, my girlfriend told me that she was leaving the school and was getting transferred to an other school. I thought of her playing a joke to distress me. But no, she was not faking. She was speaking truth. I felt like I would get alone after her and forced her not to go anywhere as it would go difficult for me. But she told me that she has gone through the admission into the other school and would be joining that as soon as possible. I led my head down and got upset covering my eyes. She was trying to talk me, to smile me. I wanted to see her but I said nothing and ultimately left.

Almost a year gone. One of those two senior friends started being very familiar towards me. I also felt very good to see his feeling of respect and affection towards me. Actually there was a lacking point of that boy. He was of backward class due to which my parents never allowed me to be with him, but I was not damn concerned with all this. They both were acting as left and right hand for me. Almost everyone among the youth of my town was knowing me. The feeling was great. No place of our town was left, where the youth were not concerning me. After coping up with several incidents and fights, atmosphere totally got changed. Nobody was daring to see her or even to  lean a step towards her. It was like peace build up everywhere. One day, she told me that it feels very alone and terrible for when she founds me absent over the complete day.  

After some days, My girlfriend started complaining me for the above described friend. she told me all about how was disturbing and irritating him, But I was unconcerned to her, disbelieving her because this boy was among that two seniors to whom i was blindly trusting. she told me that the boy has referred my girlfriend as her girlfriend to her sister. But all it was like childness for me. I just told her to ignore all. 

Because of being any unknown reason, some sort of matter prevailed between those two guys. Now the boys who were being friends since many years, whose friendship was counted among youth got distracted. They got jealous from each other. Instead of defending each other, they offended each other. All was worsening between them. Soon they started bitching each other. I was confused of them, couldn’t get to the reason which led them to this extent. But the other of the two described friends was constantly getting more n more dearer to me. He described to me about the whole scenario which led to all this dictatorship. Totally it was all about their familiar matter. But I was still confused off what to go with and what to choose because both of them very very close to me. 

Nitin, was the name of the boy who got dearer to me over recent days. One day after leaving out from coaching , I called him to meet, to have a party that night. I ranged him three-four times but he didn’t received my call. I decided to leave from there. As I turned my vehicle on, My phone got ranged and it was his call. I removed the key and received it. But, he shocked me by saying that he slapped my girlfriend’s brother in the nearest city mall, which made me really shocked. He told me that how her brother was saying something wrong and warning me uselessly. I told him to leave her brother and deal up with the complete situation and reach me as soon as possible. All got silent now. Nitin was with me now. But I was wrong. After some minutes of leaving her brother, I received a call from him. He called me somewhere along with nitin. I turned my way towards him. I was driving my vehicle and my friend was sitting behind me. Ultimately as we reached to their location, What i sawed was a bit confusing for me. Her brother was waiting for me along with that lower boy. I left my vehicle along with my friend to know about the whole matter. I walked towards them. I was calm. It was the great turning point of my life. It has been said na if you are a friend of any person who is the enemy of any third individual then ultimately you will also be referred to as enemy for that third person. This was what which exactly happened here. That senior boy slapped me. He slapped me in such a manner that throwed the glasses off my eyes. This behavior of him for me was like floor slipped from the bottom of my legs. I got numb with tears in my eyes, extreme upset and greatly untempered. I was greatly depressed off what my friend did to me. Even nitin was greatly surprised by him. Without wasting time or speaking anything, Nitin told me to soon leave from there and never get return to him in future. I moved out from there. I ranged my girlfriend to meet in nearby street. She was with sujata just got free from their classes. I was driving in tears and told her to never trust others. No body is yours. Anyone could betray you. Saying this I left her. After that I always trusted her and listened to her complains.

I always wanted to be with my girlfriend, to see her, to talk her, to listen to her and such related things. That time I was having a wish, to go over a long drive for some kilometers with her. I told her many times for this. I wanted her to be with me or to go somewhere away for a drive with her atleast on the day of my birthday. I always expressed my feeling of devotion towards her I just always wanted to touch her not to get more than that. But she was totally opposite from me. Totally uncaring and less intimate. She never expressed to be with me either to have a visit somewhere or like anything else. We were talking since a long time, even a typical relation was also going along between both us. But it was a something different from normal. Her behavior was very familiar but also very cold towards me. I was not much concerned with that and never tried of saying her or complaining her for anything. I never forced her actually. 

Me and one of my friend use to go IT tuition classes those days. Those days were also being very memorable to me. Our teacher used to give separate time for us at 9pm daily. The bonding between two of us was very good. We always helped each other. It was also being the peak season of marriages. After getting out of our classes, we used to have our dinner in one of the best ceremony going on of our town, but the thing which made it special was, we were being uninvited. We used to have our dress code in such a way that nobody was able to identify that we are or we aren’t. Someday we even attended two to three marriages a day. Even after that my freaky mind doesn’t allows to me get return to my home. I was totally behaving like stupid those days. Every night I don’t know but why I used to take a round to her address just in the hope of seeing her for a while.  

Love makes you blind. “Love has always been nothing for the some of the people. Love is very difficult to understand.” When I was normal i.e, I was not under this feeling, even I was also untouched to the things like god, love, freakiness, the feeling of devoting your life for any other unknown person just for the sake of his/her happiness. 

Actually my life went so memorable with each and each passing day. What it made so, were all those dramas and traumas which I remember even today also. Now It was my birthday i.e, 28 April. I was very happy that day and obviously its the day of totally yours. Its the day when your all friends and relatives wishes you, calls you, and blesses you and so does your special one if any. After being with all my best friends and getting out off the tuition classes I called her. I was driving very excited and crazy because It was going to be the first time of my life and my first birthday when I would be going for a drive to spend some pleasant time and precious time with my dear girlfriend.

I was unwillingly waiting for her. She got out for her tuition classes and wished me happy birthday dear. My wait was over. I asked her to tell me the location where she was currently walking. She told me and I turned my way towards her. At some place on road, I found her. I asked her that when she would be getting free.. and her reply was very cold. Why?? I was surprised to see her behavior. I told her about what we were talking for my birthday since many days. We were planned to go for a drive. She started behaving totally like an unknown and unkind towards me. Started putting up Wh-questions- where..?? when..?? why..?? Explained me with a silly excuse that how could I behave with her like that over this special day and how could she go with me for a drive. I got extremely angry from this behavior of her and left without saying anything to her. She lied me. I went to my tuition which I bunked to be with her. After coming out I saw those two girls i.e my girlfriend and sujata walking here n there on the road. I starting following them but because of getting stucked in traffic, I lost both of them. My phone got ranged. It was my friend’s call. He shocked me by saying about the two girls sitting and chit-chatting with any guy in one of the food court. I disbelieved him, but he told me to check either he was saying right or wrong. I reached to the referred location by him. I was betrayed. The boy was true. They both were really with some one. Now my eyes were shining in anger and I was warming. After waiting outside for a couple of minutes they both came out. They were surprised to see standing me outside and waiting for them. My girlfriend started with her silly excuse that the boy was following him continuously from many days and asking them to meet just once. Listening to her that silly excuse I shouted over both of them and left insulted. It was more than anything for me for my day. I was depressed very much. I thought how a girlfriend who say that she loves me, could do so. How she can say clearly no for being with me for even some minutes and the most worst thing how can be she with any other guy for even any reason on my birthday. Now my birthday was wasted. Everything got worthless for me. After going through all, I returned to my home and celebrated my birthday with my parents. 

After somedays everything got fine and we were as normal as before. Our relationship had completed its one year. Our boards also got completed. We passed our intermediate. Now the time was getting close when would have to go for our further studies. During those days we started talking of our future days, our past days and all sort of relation talks. I always wanted to be unique and do something unique and ultimately planned of gifting a ring to her for expressing my love towards her. But the main problem was of money and knowledge regarding it. I started making the arrangements. During that time, money was being a big issue for me because during those days, I was getting pocket money for wearing my personal expenses but not for others, so that I could buy such precious items for my girlfriend. I was pre decided to design the present by my choice. I discussed about the whole scenario with one of my friend. Days passed on and I started cutting off my pocket expenses and initiated collecting some bucks, left the coaching for a month, picked some money from my parents by giving them some virtual excuses. I knowed that I was doing wrong and betraying others but their was no option left to me to manage for the present. 

Ultimately after some time, I managed to arrange 4000 bucks and brought a silver-cum-gold ring for her. I was now very happy, thinking of the dream which was going to be true. One day, I ranged my girlfriend and told her in meet me in a restaurant. She again started making those excuses but forcefully I managed to do it. Next day, She came there with sujata and called me to report there as they were sitting alone in restaurant. On reaching, I was initially shocked to see my girlfriend with her because I told her to be alone. But I said nothing. I sat over the sofa which was in the opposite side of them. Now I was smiling seeing both of them and still they were still confused of what made me to call them like this. We ordered few sandwiches and cold drinks. I told my girlfriend to sit near me. After spending some nice time with them, We were leaving from there but I still didn’t exposed my surprise. I was actually feeling a bit shy. I told my girlfriend to stop for a while. I took out that ring from my pocket and told her to show his hand. This made her totally surprised because she didn’t expected any thing from me like this. I told her about all that how she got special for me and how was I loving her madly. This made her felt special and finally took that ring with a couple of thanks and left.

Days passed on and we were getting close to get separate. We always talked during midnights for a couple of hours. A week was only left for us and again something was not going fine inside me. I remember a night, it was the time of around 11 pm and I was walking over my terrace. We were keenly talking and having our conversations. It has been truly told by someone that every man is not lucky that they could get their desired love and I was among one of them. That night the girl who was loving me and gone through our critical relationship since a year, shattered me.

I cant never forget her wordings of that night which were like i.e, Might be a mistake or just attraction or simple affection but the thing from my side was not the feeling of love. After some time, we would be getting busy in our personal life and not finally be able to get time for each other. You are going to have the girl who would love you more than me and somewhere someday our faces would clash each other and would be meeting definately. 

I was totally heartbroken and shaded in tears. I cried for the first time in front of her. I got numb and felt like betrayed by her and was hardly depressed of knowing what to do and what to not. Days passed on but still It was all same as before. After some days and before the day of leaving I informed her that I would be leaving after tomorrow, she got upset hearing this but provided me with the best wishes for my future and shutted-off the call saying the line i.e, we would surely meeting after sometime, somewhere and someday. It was the last time when we talked. Next to next day, I finally left my town and moved on towards shaping my future.

Now it was all like going to enter a new world, but I was not having any feeling of excitement or happiness for. 

The days sat very normal. I moved on and went outside for my further studies. I met with many new people and got friendship with them. I was really trying to forget her betrayal, but it was a very slow process. One day I got introduced to a boy. Soon we got very good friends. We studied, watched movies, visited malls , played football, tripped and were enjoying life. Weekend fun got very normal to us. I was like very sophisticated and calm. I believed in love, But he was totally different from me. He was funky, a bit moody and never believed of love. I told him about my past and all the regarding situations. Their had always been a very good understanding within us. He taught me many things, facts about girls and life. He told me to forget all my past and wear some attitude inside me. After some days I met with two more other boys who also became very good friends of mine. All was going very good now. I almost crossed one more year with those friends and returned home finally.

It was march 2012 now. One evening my phone got ranged with an unknown number. I was little bit confused of being long of ranging up from an unknown number on my cellphone. I picked the call. She was my girlfriend actually. The conversation was like…

She : Hello.!

Me: Ya. Who’s this?

She: Get me.

Me : Sorry.

She : Hey.! Get me. I am your *****(girlfriend).

Me : Wow. Nice to hear you.

She : (Told about where she was, preparing for competitions, living with her relatives and enquired me for having any other girlfriend).

But after that I don’t wanted to get into the relationship with any other girl. She told me of getting into the college after some time and contacting me after four months. Our Conversation got continued for few minutes and ended up after sometime.

Fours months passed, but still I didn’t got any call from her. 

After sometime, I decided to drop my upcoming year for the preparation of IIT-JEE and AIEEE and was selected to vibrant academy(Rajasthan) which was been the best coaching institute of our country. I was living in a boy’s pg there. Facebook was becoming very popular among youth those days. One day, I got a friend request from a girl over facebook. She was completely unknown to me but I excepted her request. Her name was shital. We started chatting. She was three years senior from me and was from chandigarh, pursuing btech from the same city. We exchanged our phone numbers. On evening, I received a call from her. Till that period of time, sense of attitude and confidence was developed inside me. I talked her politely in a nice attitude and behavior. She was actually very much impressed by me. We talked frequently. After going through long, I told her an evening to stop our calling for two days. Actually I wanted to see how patient she was. She also got agreed to this happily. That evening, I made my mind of not calling her for two days whatever may the situation be and put away my call after saying this. Next day what I observed, was not like I expected. It was just 9 am morning, I saw 18 missed calls from her number on my phone. I was very much surprised after seeing this. But as per resolution I was not going to call her for two days. I ignored them. My phone was ranging up hour to hour but i remained unkind to her. The day was going to get end and but she was still not stopping and was continuously calling me. This was making me to lose my patience and finally decided to talk her. I left with my resolution as I was not able to see her like that. After a long time I picked her call and the conversation was like…

she : U merciless.!

me : Why?

she : why didn’t u received my call?

me: As per our resolution.

she : (Teasing) Get it lost.

me : why?

she : I can’t be like this. Can’t be more conserve.

me : It has been only a day and you are behaving like gone through a week.

she : Doesn’t matter. Get it lost.

me : ok.

After hearing to her, I was confused of what she was doing. It was all making me realize clearly that something is not getting fine with her. How could one behave like this..?? I called her again to know about the whole going scenario.

She told me that no matter what it may be, but she can’t get separate from me. I told her about my past and thought may be this could put her into the right way. That second, I collided with that memory of my girlfriend when she told me of meeting with a girl who would be loving me more than anyone. That girl was shital whom she was taking about. 

I went home during my dusherra vacations and started looking for my girlfriend. I enquired with many of the girls and boys but nobody was knowing of about her. I dialed her old number but unfortunately it was bypassed to someone else. I got very disappointed that time. One day, after going through all, I was collided with the news that she met with an car accident and got died.  It was a very big thing for me. This news of her shaked me from the deep inside of my soul. My eyes got wet. That news was spreaded in the whole city. Many of my friends asked me about her as she was totally linked with me from a year. But this time, Even i was not able to answer them all. I was confused of what to tell them about, so I also bypassed what I listened about.  

I called shital and told her that I dont want to be in any relation with anyone. Still, she was behaving like totally unaffected. Eventually she only requested me to just talk her nothing more. I agreed. But for me, she was nothing more than a friend. We were talking frequently. Her behavior was never being normal towards me. One day she did a very unusual activity. She posted of being in a complicated relationship with me over Facebook. That evening I surfed my Facebook account and gone shocked. I was greatly angered by her post. Immediately, I looked up to my cellphone and called her. I started reciting her for what she did. Instead of saying sorry, She proposed me and told that she couldn’t do anything in that and can’t imagine herself without me, but expected nothing from my side. she told me that it is not always necessary that what we dreams about, it owns.  There are many people over this earth who never get to their desired once. I did not told her anything and behaved nice. She was dreaming her life with me but on the other side my heart was still engaged about my girlfriend’s news. 

I never wanted to break her emotions because I have also gone through the situation when a person breaks your heart whom you love the most. I didn’t cared for what I was doing with her. I got very confused those days of knowing what to do and what to not. The situation actually trapped me. But finally decided to move on with the flow.

I never expected that a small mistake mine of just contacting her to would change her life. I never wanted to be of her, never expected this situation. But all it got just in a while that I couldn’t change or put an end to that. 

Love comes in so many different levels, that it doesn't appear to be the same emotion at all, but it is. Friendship starts this list off. Yes, it doesn't seem like it, but we do feel love towards our friends, this is what helps us get along so well, and why we miss them when we don't see our friends for a long time. It's also why we hold certain friends over others no matter what happens. Sometimes, the bond between friends deepens to the point where a stronger bond of love is made, making them family.

Another level of love, are for our siblings and other family members. Even though we do things to our family members, and sometimes we don't like some of our family, that bond is still there. It's this family bond level of love that brought about the phrase, blood is thicker than water. We will do things for our brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, and children before we would even consider doing them for anyone else. Many wars have been started because of this family level, brother avenging brother or father, father protecting his wife and children, or even vice versa. This simple family bond can even extend to include our pets, amazingly enough, and that is a good thing.

A third level to love, is the bond that brings man and woman together. This level is among the strongest of them all. It is this level of love that has brought together kingdoms into nations in the past, and ended many great wars. It's is also for the love of a woman that has started a few of our well-known wars, like the Trojan Wars of ancient times. It's brought together families that have argued for years and years, such as in the Shakespearean play, Romeo and Juliet. Even though the two mentioned killed themselves in the end, it still brought their families together.

After sometime all it went a great tension for me. She wanted me to talk all the time, to see her texts, to think about her. Number of times, she told me just to pick up her call when I couldn’t talk her in presence of my parents so that she could listen to my breathes and conversations with others. Days were passing on and the situation was getting worse. She started sending me essay-like-messages ending up to many lines daily over facebook. I told her many times of not doing such juliet type activities but she continued as she was. One evening she called me and told that she sold her earrings which were made up of gold just for the sake of arranging money to put some balance to her phone. It is obviously very tough to believe that a girl could do such things for a boy. But it was all real for me. 

I was realizing her situation but doesn’t have any answer to her activities. It was getting close towards my exams and I was focussing towards my studies and examinations. I put all it aside and started revising all my syllabus. I started ignoring her calls because I knowed if I received her call then she would not be allowing me to go anywhere atleast for an hour. Yet she didn’t stopped, same as before. Sending long-long messages over facebook were her routinize activities. She was loving me blindly without thinking of anyone. Love blinded her mind from thinking logically and concealed the flaws of the one she loved. Sometimes the blindness of love is beneficial to the couple, when two people love each other for truly what is on the inside and connects with them in a more in-depth level rather than just on look, but at times blindness can cause one to over look and let things such as aggressiveness and abuse go unnoticed.

I just cleared my entrance exams and was now waiting for their results that would ultimately stepping me to move forward in one of the best engineering reputed colleges of country. VITEE exam result was announced and I was called for counseling there in chennai and was very excited to have a visit there. My father looked up for some train reservations. Me along with my mother and maternal uncle decided to go and finally reached there after traveling a long distance of about 3000 kms. It was a two-day and a two-night journey which we enjoyed a lot. Reaching to chennai was like entering into a new world. Everything was totally different. Their climate, language, culture, tradition, lifestyle was exceptionally new to me. After one day, we finally reached to our destination. The huge and stylish infrastructure of the university took away my mind. Everything was greatly attracting me. I got counselled and was getting the branch of my choice. But the culture and lifestyle of that city was not suiting me. So we decided to drop the the college there and putting it in the waitlist for some period. So after exploring withering southern heat, roaring traffic, sand of the seas and scarcity of outstanding sights, We returned from the city known as ‘capital of the south’.

After going through many counseling processes as like and visiting colleges from different parts of our country, I finally took admission in Jaypee Institute of information technology in Noida. It was being among one of best reputed engineering colleges with impressive infrastructure. The ideal college lifestyle dissipates quickly once the reality is reached. Many young adults imagine vivid pictures of what college might be like for them. However, once these young adults mature into independent men and women, and enter into the school of their choice, they soon realize the reality of the college lifestyle. Many young adults seem to believe that college life is filled with parties and typically a laid-back lifestyle. These students believe that, much like high school, classes will be taken during the day and filled with all their friends. They imagine a lifestyle with no other worries besides an occasional essay or lab. It is often said that college is the greatest time of one’s life; many high school students believe this and look forward to it. Some enjoy the idea of being able to come to class late, leave when they want, and pretty much have say-so of their own lives now that their parents are out of the picture. The majority of college freshmen enter into school picturing an easy, fun-filled ride. But my college life went as a very memorable part of my scrapbook.

All was going very good, and her madness for me was not ending got but messing up with my lifestyle. At night Shecouldn’t Sleep.., She was sitting in her Room Crying, ‘n It was then that She Realized how much I Meant to Her.. I was not knowing of what to do. One day she told me that she wanted to meet me and told me to come to chandigarh as she couldn’t take leave from hostel without informing to her parents. That time I got agreed listening to her, but after some days of thinking of the whole scenario, I realized that , We had not even just met once and she was behaving like never being normal. How would it be if I really met her. Thinking all about this I told her of postponding the plan for sometime just before the day the meeting her. She thought me joking with her but I was serious for that matter, I was really not going to meet her. Hearing that she got very disappointed and started crying. But seeing her, I finally decided of getting into relationship with her. 

I requested her to stop crying and explained of the plan only been postponed for sometime only, but not cancelled and confronted herself. Days were passing and I started forcing myself to develop some feelings towards her. But my mind was only enchanting about the fact, my girlfriend told me of getting the person who would be loving me the most that no one could. Her fact was continuously proving itself. I wanted to love her, was not able to wipe away my first love. The feeling was like, if I had  loved someone and was loyal then how could I cheat my memories, my loyalty. The memories of my first love never allowed my heart to love any other girl. Life was trapping me. So, I got left only with two options, to leave her forever and never return to her or either to love her which was not getting possible for me. One day I finally told her of the whole situation and conciliated herself that I was not for her. I tried, even forced myself but couldn’t love her, as I lefted myself somewhere else and told her not to call me or either message me. She respected my feelings but was shading. I wanted to help her, but all those situations made me helpless. At the end she only told me that someday I would surely regret of not loving her. Whatever may be situation, whatever might be the reason and whatever would be the conclusion, our memories would always be lying in her. After that, all her dreams and expectations got ended with us.  

Throughout our lives, we meet with many people and problems that have helps us to gain experience and change the way we think. Some lessons are learned through trials and tribulations. Some are learned through experience and seriously I was now been transformed to a men of experience. No matter how we’ve learned our lessons, they will stay with us forever, and help us through life. People wonder if they are important to anyone. We may never know at all if we are important to anybody else, but the question will linger in our minds no matter what. A lot of people will spend their whole lifetime looking for what they think is important and never find it. There is never a long period of rest and peace. we should always be aware of everything preventing ourself to live an easy life. Moments of sadness and misery are much more frequent than those of happiness, filling our head with indescribable madness. Life is not only black and white, but is different shades of grey. No one is really right or wrong. Every person you trust may suddenly be gone. Now u wonder if every choice you make in life is a bet. What you can only do is to trust your instincts and prepare for the worst. Despite the dark side, life can be full of excitement and surprises. As long as it is interesting and fulfilling, this world is no longer cruel and cold. Warmth and smiles still exist. Although there can be many bad times, never give up for a moment until your last breath. As there is a saying that every cloud has a silver lining.

Life was presenting several chapters in front of me and teaching with many experiences. My days went back normal. Its was the beginning of my Btech 2nd year. I was living on my flat in noida since starting. That time I actually got my campus shifted due to which I left my flat and started living in a boy’s pg. There were very few people around us and the location was not much posh. Their accommodation was huge. Near about 50-60 boys were living in that building. I met there with many new faces and a number of them became my friends. Life was going good, I again got sincere for my studies. Our college campus was at a very little distance from my pg. Days got very normal again. I starting waking up at 7 am early in the morning, gymming after and afterwards preparing myself for the classes. Workload got much heavier and more intense than I ever experienced before. The major challenges of college work were the large volume of reading, the short deadlines, and the writing, writing, writing. A related effect that can be brought on by the workload is doubt, frustration, and possibly loneliness. Day by Day I got away from the comforts and friendships that my home provided for me over the previous years. But still on accepting all, I was enjoying rest. We played football during those days and never took much interest for it. I realized that it was only the time when I could adopt trends and fulfill my satires . I started screwing my fingers on guitar those days and never got it learnt from experts but only listened to youtube and moved on for a new experience of music. Badminton was the other thing that I always loved to. I was good for it. After the college times, We go to our college campus and played badminton for more than hours. My friend’s group was actually bit big. We used to play counter strike in a group of more than 10 persons after making LAN servers in our free times and hide n seek, ice-pice and football during midnights. My routine schedule was so good. 

When I was during my first year. Two more friends were living on my flat with me. Their was a girl, Nisha who visited our flat many times as she was friend with one of them. She was a model by profession. she was very beautiful, pursuing her graduation in fashion designing from pearl academy, Noida. She was from pauri, garhwal in Uttarakhand. After frequent visits of her and talks, we soon became very good friends. I got introduced to her through one of my flatmate but soon our friendship leaded them. Now it was my college life and seeing other people of the city I often want more. It was going through the last months of the year, When I was going somewhere with my flatmate in his car. Suddenly, Nisha called him and told that she was going to her hometown for two days. She asked him if the boy could be with her as the journey was 12 hours long and would be having its way through mountains and hills. But the boy refused and made a false excuse. Now she got alone. After having our dinner outside, we both returned our flat. After some minutes of reaching to my flat, My cellphone got ranged. it was her call and asking me if I could be with her for the next day, I told her to give me some time to think about so that could I look up for my upcoming schedule. I was not in the mood going somewhere that time but thinking of her way I changed my mind and got agreed. She told me that she had hired a SUV car and would pick me up from my flat at 8 am next day. Now It was left very less time for preparing my bag before going to the bed. I informed my friends of going out of station for 3-4 days and getting my proxies. Next morning, because of being sleepy, I waked at 10 am. Immediately, I checked my cellphone which was left with some calls and whatsapp messages of her. Without wasting my time or thinking of anything else, I called her and regretted for what I went through and asked her if she could return. I was happy now because as per the situation she went away and I did the formality from my side too after calling her. But my happiness only ended for a few minutes. After an hour, she ranged up and told me to get ready within some minutes as she was reaching my location in just 25-30 minutes. Now I was left with no other options of making any excuse to her. I turned my geyser on and got ready in a very less time. After sometime, Our flat doorbell got ranged. I know that I was her only, so I opened the gate and asked her to wait for five minutes. Finally after getting my bag, earphones and aux cable we left from that place. Since from my childhood I always had a deep attraction towards mountains and hill stations. It had been for the first time when I was travelling so long with a girl in car. We were going through different planes and serene views. All the way, we went talking so crazy, listening music, bitched about friends, ate fantastic food in roadside hotels. Her kid-like-activities were making me to like her. As we were getting closer to our destination, sun was shading its way off to clouds and it was getting too cold. She got a blanket with her that we putted that over ourselves and enjoyed our traveling. We finally reached there at 9 pm evening. It was too cold. Foggy surroundings and lights hanging in air was attracting me a lot. She took me away to our home and introduced me to her family members. They welcomed us warmly and served with dark chocolate and dinner. We got very tired after being getting through that long journey. Her parents went away to their room after wishing us good night. After that we had our conversation for some minutes and she told me to sleep in her room. Next day we visited a hindu shrine temple and its main market and a place chaukhamba point. She introduced me to her many friends. My trip went very good. Just before the night of returning back to noida, We went to a church on the ridge point and had a nice walk. I was liking her actually and finally proposed her for being in a relationship with me. She got surprised hearing me and gone silent for some minutes, speaked nothing. It was a calm moment for me. We went back to her home. After exploring all, It was the time to leave. Next morning we threwed our bags inside the car and got ready to get back. We went back on the same roads, but now the destination was different. Passing through those roads she suddenly proposed me back and kissed my cheek. From that day our relationship got active. Everything started going to be perfectly nice. We started meeting frequently. Attended many occasions in the city. Our relationship went for months. All was nice.

If anyone lives inside your heart then we dont need to miss it out. At one moment suddenly my mind reflected some past memories of my ex-girlfriend. Yet my fifth semester was approaching its end but the situations were always being there in my mind. The feeling which gone silent through years overcamed me. I wanted to find her anyway. I called to a friend of mine. She was from my hometown. I told her about the whole rumor spreaded to solve the mystery and get me with the contact number of my ex anyhow. After a week around, she ejected out her number for me. I told my friend to call her once so as to get verified. It was her number. I went thinking of how and where she would be, of her behavior towards me. One evening I finally called my girlfriend introducing myself. Her behavior went so normal, but surprised me by telling to not her call again. I got moody to see her behavior. I told my friend to enquire about and tell her just to talk once. After sometime I called my girlfriend again and asked about the matter and why she behaved like that even when we talked after years. She accused me as the culprit for spreading the false news of her accident. I was shocked after hearing that. I explained her myself of being not the type of guy who could rumor about the girl whom he loved before. It was totally her misconception. News got rumored so unstoppably that even I couldn’t end it. She was pursuing her graduation from kanpur, Uttar pradesh and an year senior from me. She told me about being in a relationship with a boy of her college.

That time I was also undergoing to a relationship, still it pinched me somewhere, but I expressed her nothing. I told her about my life and my relationship too. We both have left our relation somewhere. I offered her with a new proposal of our friendship but she refused and told me of that evening call to be the last one between us which wasn’t an issue for her and even for me that time. We both got agreed. More than two months passed away, but we never tried to contact each other.

“The definition of destiny is an unknown and unpredictable phenomenon that leads to a favorable outcome.” I dont know what was my destiny all about. It was the time for my vacations and was going my home to spend those holidays with my family. I was in a bus and listening to music. Suddenly my phone got ranged. Its was my girlfriend’s call. I got astonished for a while but picked the call. She wondered about me, told me sorry about her behavior gone wrong during my call. We talked for few minutes and told me to remain in contact with each other. Days after days we went to chatting on our phones. The bond between me and her was growing steadily. I started expressing my love for her. One day, I finally proposed her and wondered if she loved me in the same way as I. We went underneath through this for some days and ultimately she replied me back with what she felt. She told me about her initial college life that she how she missed me and wanted to be with me. She was all alone those days and it had been the first time when she realized her love towards me and loved me truly and how it led to lose our contact because of that hypothetical rumors. Time started healing everything and making us closer. After returning from home, we talked frequently for hours and shared each other photos. All was going perfectly nice between us. We started making plans for meeting each other. I was thinking to meet her in her city. She was living a typical student life. As she was an year senior from me, she was busy for her placements. A number of companies were approaching their campus, but unfortunately, she was getting rejected simultaneously. I always wanted to be tension-free and can’t see herself underlying below the burden of tensions. I started motivating her every night, giving advices to her, or any relative support from my side. It was near about the time of extreme winter and I was with some of my friends outside. She called me suddenly and told that she was coming for an interview in gurgaon. It was the first time when we were going to meet after a long period. We were very excited to meet each other. I told her to stay with me whenever she come. She agreed, but imposed a condition that she would be coming with that boy whom she was in relation with and told me to hide my identity in front of him. It faced very unusual, but I agreed. 

It was the day of her arrival now, she called me and informed of their arrival at delhi station. The station was nearly around 60 kms away from me. I didn’t owned any vehicle till that time, so I took a vehicle of my friend and departed towards station to pick her. Being hooked in traffic and more than an hour of driving I finally reached there and called my girlfriend to look me out. It had been so long, when I saw her. She was with him. We both boys just got handshaked and without wasting much time I told her to sit behind me. We moved on. The feeling inside me was very unusual. It was the first time when she was with me on bike. We were discussing about their journey, pre-interview posts and such related things. That day was one of the most memorable day of my journey. We tooked around more than two hours to reach our destination. I visited most of the parts of delhi, but never being by my own. We hindered in the nasty traffic and curved roads of the city. I finally to took her a place where we had some really tasty momos. I was living a boy’s pg and bringing the opposite gender was against their rules. So took her to one my friend’s flat nearby.

We finally reached their flat. I offered her water and told her to get some rest and wait for me for sometime, so that I could return the vehicle to my friend. After getting late for half an hour, I returned to the flat. She was feeling awkward as I went for so long. I confronted her with the situation and told her to be relaxed as I was with her now. We talked long and she told me of the interview which was on the next day. There was only one bed in that room and we both have to sleep on that. But, We didn’t slept for the whole night. It was 4 am early morning, when she slept after going through some cuddling. I thought of me that, if I slept It would become difficult for us to wake and her to reach to her location on time. So I decided to wake myself for the whole time and layed with my eyes opened. I was starring her and she was looking very pretty in the moonlight which was coming inside from the window. 

It was 6 am now. I leaned up and told her to get ready for the interview. I went to other room to bring some hot water for her as it was too cold. Before I could brought some hot water for her, She took shower under cold water and shivering in cold afterwards. Seeing her in that condition, I felt like mercied and hugged her. She was in a formal dress code with a grey coat over. We clicked some photos and left from there. Everything was totally new for her. I told my girlfriend that I will be with her for the whole day. We went gurgaon through metro. Her campus was even far away from the main city. We hired an auto to reach that place directly. During the whole time, She went preparing for the interview with myself holding her hand. We finally reached to her campus and she told me to wait for four hours as the process of recruitment has always been time-taking. I gave her with the best wishes and she went inside. Now it was time when I have to make a choice of either to have my way towards main city or wait for her without going anywhere. I finally decided to be there only because I don’t wanted her to get lost somewhere in the area. But the main challenge for me was to survive for those hours . It was purely a corporate area and there was not a even single place nearby where I could get some rest. I was feeling very tired and restless due to last night wake. I looked up for an some area and sat under a tree nearby waiting for her. It went around 3 hours and she called me and told of getting free from there. I put some water over my face and walked for her location. Both of us were dying in hunger and were extremely tired now. We hired an auto which could took us to the nearest metro. I finally decided of taking her to India gate. There we ate some street food which relieved our body for sometime. I told her to get some rest on the ground. We went talking about each other and such other memories. It was getting evening when she told me of dropping her to the railway station. She didn’t get selected for the job for which we came which made me worried if she would be returning after or not. I wanted to spend some more time with her but can’t. We got up and walked holding each other hands for crossing roads. We got a bus which was directly going to drop us to our destination. We stepped inside it and seated. After going through some tragedy of charging money by the officials, we finally reached to railway station. I don’t want her to go back but was helpless. She was speaking but was going blank from inside and thinking if we could ever met again. I dropped my girlfriend to her reserved seat with gifting her a box of chocolates and got out of the station. I was feeling very upset and missing her badly and so lost like after spending my last 24 hours with her. Finally I returned to my pg and got back before.

She again got busy in her placements. Day by day she was losing her patience but I kept encouraging her. One evening, I went out with some of my friends. Suddenly she called me and told me of getting being selected in an other company and wondered to have my eyes over her joining mails. It was now different from before as she was now coming to join the company. Their were no sort of interviews and such related things. I visited my home those days when she came back again and lived in a pg. The distance between mine and her pg was quite more. I never restricted her for anything. I always wanted herself to live in the way she like the most. We met on weekends because it was not possible for her and specially me to have more than that. One evening, I told her to come with me in my pg. I called one of my friend to make all arrangements so that I could make her inside from the main gate of the building in the late night hours. We succeeded and after going through all and was able to take her inside without informing to any other person. Now It was the first time when she was with me inside my room. During that evening we hanged out a lot. She had never been normal those days, always worried and frustrated of the boy, never been answerable and reasonable to him. That day, he was calling her from evening hours and she doesn’t answered him for the same fact of being unanswerable. I was confronting her for the whole time. As we reached my building, It were more than many calls and text messages over her cellphone. During those night hours, that stupid boy called her parents, accused and violated her in front of them by lying about her for spending that night with any boy. It was not just the matter that he accused her, but he lied to her parents. He doesn’t knowed about us but still created a hypothetical situation. It was being for the first time when my mind created his inferior image. I was wondering about how could a boy go to such extent. I helped her in confronting with the situation and took out from that stress. Challenges were always been there with us. But we always enjoyed. Being true and confident ever, she never faced her situation to him. He treated her like an animal tied from his neck by a rope. Never taught her anything like how to survive in practical world and many related things. One day I asked her all about, why she have been suffering so much and what was making her to do so. She was feeling embarrassing from me and of what would I think of her but told me all about. She briefed me how he bounded her from everywhere. She trusted him and what he did to her in return. He had all her account details and kept on handling her gmail, facebook, college kiosk portal from a long period of time. If she ever gone against him he used to make severe transactions from her account and she couldn’t even tell about the scenario to her parents of the fact what they would be thinking about her. It was really a very tough situation for her. They went in a relationship of three years, so it was very obvious to me about the attraction between both of them that surrounded them. She told me of ending everything between them after her graduation course gets over as he was handling her major project. I got compensated with the situation and supported her for her truths and lies. Now she was undergoing two relations, was talking with me and him too. All it was much irritating for me but my I manipulated myself.  

During those days, everything was getting disturbed between me and nisha. I was not able to give her time that she deserved from my side. Problems were repeatedly arising. One day she asked me about the truth behind, my changed attitude towards her. Even I also doesn’t wanted to keep her in darkness. I put forward the whole situation of mine in front of her. Since from the very beginning, Nisha knew well about me and my love. I told her. She was distressed of all but expressed nothing much. I expressed her, my love towards the girl whom I loved from my childhood and would love till its end. I promised nisha about the loyalty and faithfulness of that girl. I referred me and my girlfriend as “soulmates” in front of her. It was the last day of relation between us actually. I Finally left her because I knewed ultimately that, “I can’t be fitted with anybody else.” 

One evening, me and my girlfriend again planned to visit india gate. We went there through metro train and had our one of the best camera selfie. It was very cold and we had enjoyed it even more with some ice-creams and momos and being there for more than hours. We was getting late to return from there so we hired an auto which dropped us my location directly. It took us around an hour to reach there. That evening got one of the best memory of that time. After having our nights together, I used to drop her in the foggy mornings to her address. But we doesn’t met much during those days because we fighted more than we went together, for that other relationship issues. The company under which she worked was manipulating her and making some serious payment issues regarding her salary distribution. In other words, they were making fraud with her. She worked there for almost more than 45 days but that company provided her with the payment of less than a month. Finally after getting much frustrate, She finally decided of leaving that company after some days. Now the next headache for her was to find the other company in which she could seek a job. It was the day of her leaving now. She stayed with me for the whole time and Next morning, I sawed her off and and told her to return soon. 

That time I just passed my sixth semester. Day by day we were getting close and intimate for each other. She was now at her home and keenly looking for a looking for job so as to come back as soon as possible. Her course of engineering was over now but they were still talking and texting each other. It was time of her birthday when we were in different cities those days. I was very excited for her birthday and thought of getting to be first person for wishing her. I was waiting from an hour with my cellphone to wish her. Finally it went 12’O clock midnight and I dialed her number. What was sawed was totally unpredictable  and unmiserable to me. She was busy with that other boy. I was calling her continuously she was not receiving my calls even when she was seeing my number waiting over the screen of her cell phone. It was a very unusual thing of me. I been trying for previous half an hour but finally got much upset and angered and ultimately turned off my cellphone for few minutes. After I turned my cellphone on, she called me but instead of wishing her I told her not to have conversation with me. She deeply regretted for doing that and explained me how was forcing her to talk. Everyday, Many times we got quarreled over the scenario. I always gone arguing her over the matter of being clearing and sorting it out whatever she wanted. I told her of choosing a person at a time for whatever the matter may be. I always remained untouched of her feelings towards me. Everyday the things were now pinching me. She finally told me that she wanted to be with me and continue our relation but imposed a condition that she couldn’t leave him totally. They would only be going through friendship and would be talking occasionally as friends. I trusted and agreed her again.

We made several plans for our future and initiated implementing them one after one. We were actually moving towards a live-in relationship and decided to have our own flat over rent. But the main problem was for her job. She was still at her home for so long. Trusting and getting totally dependent over her, I refused all the offers that my friends gave me to live with them. One day she told me about a company who recruited and were now called her for joining. Now it made a hope again for her to get back soon. The company officials were asking her to submit with all the original documents before the joining could be processed which was making us suspicious for them. I suggested my girlfriend to make a set of her documents just as originals. After going through a depth, she finally agreed upon that and requested me to meet so that we could speed up the process. I was first time in my town, when we got together like that. She told me of renting the flat after a month from her arrival as she would be adopting paying guest accommodation to deceive her parents for the initial days. But it was now very difficult for me to manage the accommodation for the initial months. I was even not able to get any pg nearby to my college for one or two months as they were charging me with the security due to which I would be locked in for a minimum for six months. Now I was truly with no options left of what to do and what to not. 

The college was opened after somedays. It was time of my departure but still I was not in the mood of returning noida due to my accommodation issues. I decided to take help from my friend. I called him and requested him to arrange my living in his flat. But unfortunately his grandmother died those days which made him helpless as he was in his hometown. So I called other friend of mine who was living in hostel of our college, I informed him about my arrival on the next day and take care of my carry bags for two days. Next morning, I reached noida and handed him over with my bags and went hurried to college for my registration. After getting out from there it was now a really difficult time for me. I called one of my known who was living far away from my college and spended ten days there. It went very tough to me travel to college and vice-versa. It wasted more than hundred bucks a day in just traveling to and from. Me and my girlfriend decided to keep our savings for renting the flat and collecting some funds. So, I started cutting all out from my daily expenses and sometimes from fooding. I was going through my worst days. After ten days of been accommodating there I decided to get shifted with that friend who I called previously. The company was shifting my girlfriend’s joining day after day. Many times I visited and requested them to make her joining as soon as possible. Those days, I doesn’t have any vehicle but still I used to travel that long distance for making their manager manipulated towards the joining. After struggling a lot though food and money for 45 days I finally owned a flat at some distance from my college campus. The flat and society was really being good. Since it has a drawback, I was locked-in for four months. But being after moving in my new flat, It faced several problems in traveling. So I thought to get my old bike from my hometown after sometime. I was settled now and everything was going happily. 

One day, My girlfriend told me about her joining being sured and her arrival too. My efforts finally made results for her. It was now finally her time to come back. It was about the day when she came noida. AIESEC i.e, An Non governmental organization whom I was working with. I had an important conference over that day. She finally came to noida from bus and I went to pick her. It was morning when she came. I took her to my flat. I was very happy now to see her after a long time. She offered me with some food which she brought from her home. She told me to come with her. I questioned myself but agreed. she also told me of an interview that was scheduled that day. I left her siting over a sofa and went my room to take bath. After getting ready, We got our essentials and moved towards her destination. We finally reached the company where recruitment was undergoing. The atmosphere of that space was bit calm. Their were some more people sitting and waiting for their sessions. The officials were explaining to her about the rounds of that complete process. The first part was screening under which she had to solve an objective paper. There was being a positive point for the screening that the familiars could sit in front of the applying candidate. But I was now left with only two options of either to go and hurry for my conference or to be both her. I got confused but finally decided to help her in solving that question paper. My paper was now distributed, she was not prepared much for the exam as it was not pre-decided. I confronted and helped her in solving the exam. The time was getting now to over. We submitted her answer sheet to the officials and after sometime we were informed of her clearing that round and was called for the personal interview now. Our efforts resulted in colors and she got selected there. I was very happy for her. She now had two options for her, but finally decided to join one of them. The officials told her to join after a week and provided her with the offer letter. We were now free from all hactics and were walking through roads. We were talking of each other and our further plans about the way she would be working, about her job and accommodation. It was getting evening now. I asked her to stay on my flat for the day but she refused and greeted me by saying- “ It has been left very few days and after that I am coming to be with you dear, to live with you and only you”. Listening to her, I got happy and agreed to her. But the issue was she got so late and I was not allowing her to go alone so, I decided to be with her till her home. We went to our flat, took some nice rest and arranged my carry bag. After spending some moments with each other, We left from there and finally moved to our home. We were jointly going our home in bus for the first time. During that journey, we stopped just before reaching to our city near a roadside hotel. The people inside the bus lifted out, but we were still siting inside the bus and were talking of each other. Spending sometime there, the bus driver called the passengers and we again moved. Finally we reached our home during the late midnight hours. 

After staying for two days at home, I got returned and got busy in my routined schedule. I was waiting for her arrival. She finally came but this time with her father. She informed me of staying with her friend for two days to deceive her father. Two days passed and I took her to my flat and she stayed there with me for upcoming days. Our bond got much strong till that time. We were enjoying those days so much. She was with me for the full days. Finally next-to-next evening we went out to look for her accommodation. It was totally mine responsibility to get her settled now. We were wandering there without any fixed destination. After going thru all, we finally searched a pg and got her settled. The pg was not up to so good. She got bit disappointed but finally compelled with. Everything between us was now going very good. Many of the times she visited my flat and we stayed together for days. Day by day we were approaching towards extreme familiarity. She was good in cooking. Sometimes we cook food for each other. Every weekend, we use to live with each other. I loved her so much. To me, her priorities were the most. I tried to give her everything for whatever I was able to. After sometime I brought my bike from my hometown to increase my convenience. Every monday, we wake early in the foggy mornings and I used to drop her to office. Those days were so memorable. I introduced her to many of my friends. But some issues of her and that boy had always been there between us, but she always commited that she always loved me much and will love me forever. I wanted to get this matter solved but always feared of her, feared if the boy did anything to her. I had no options left instead of surrendering. One day, she told me of living happily with me leaving all behind before she go married. That was the day when I completely trusted her love towards me. We were very close of the time of taking our residence. It was about the evening when she was on my flat. Suddenly that boy called and told her that he had deducted certain amount from bank balance just because of the fact she didn’t receive his call. That point was too much embarrassing for me and her too. I got fired of thinking how could a boy be so cheap and ridiculous. A boy who always did worst to my girlfriend even when I was with her. She was crying in front of me because of that and I was paining from inside to see her like that. At that moment of time, I decided to end up the matter whatever may be the conclusion. Many times, I tried to change her gmail and facebook account password, But because of account creation from his side, All my efforts got wasted. One day I remember It was my exam next day, when she girlfriend provided me her passwords to change and get rid of the boy.. I was busy in changing her passwords but she was busy in talking with the boy with giving me an excuse of just managing that situation. I finally decided to get rid of the whole situation. That night I called her brother informing him about the whole scenario. I did it for the beneficiary of my girlfriend. So that, if anything happens with her in her upcoming days, atleast her brother should know about the cheap mentality of that boy. Her parents came there after somedays, and took away her debit card to end the situation. But I never knowed that, doing good for someone will ultimately proof me wrong. My girlfriend started blaming me for the whole situation of why I created that whole scenario. Her thought pinched me. It was like she was blaming me for his sake who did wrong ever to her. But for me, I was now happy for her. She was now tension free. 

It was the time when demonetization took place. Financial problems were arising much for all. All were seeming cashless. whenever I called, she gone busy. Every second was now irritating me. The situation got even more worst when one evening I called her for my arrival, I want that day to meet her with a surprise. After some minutes of driving my bike, I called her of enquiring her for something mandatory. I was calling her again and again, and the girl was talking with that boy keeping my call under waiting. I always loved her but I always wondered why It happened to me only. I was getting frustrated day by day. I never wanted to spoil her in so I kept myself silent. But one night, when she was in my flat. I finally called the boy informing him about the whole matter. Our conversation changed into abuses. I really wanted to sort everything out. I finally asked my girlfriend to choose between me and him in front of both of us. She never wanted to leave me but that day, everything got changed. she decided to be with him. I got speechless that time. Next morning I left her. After somedays, she again called me telling she can’t live without me. Again, one evening she told me of there breakup and wanted to continue with me. All it was going very unsorted. My semester got over those days. I wanted to be with her only now as I was going home next day. I called her to my flat. Everything was going fine. I only ever wanted to be with her. We were going to have our flat. I enquired her all about but everything got wasted when she refused. She doesn’t wanted flat anymore just because of that boy or might be any other excuses. She told me about going to be married. That time, I was like hurted from everywhere. I felt like she totally betrayed me. I got mad that time and did the biggest mistake of my life. I tortured her. It was the day when both out cried a lot, but in different ways. She was crying in pain and me because of what I did. Might be, it went the biggest point. After that I went home to spend my vacations. The days were extremely worst. My vacations were ruining day by day. I finally thought of lefting her for whatever she want. I told her to provide me with some days so that could prepare for that. I gave her a date but got late due my late arrival in noida. One morning I called her from the bus and requested her of visiting somewhere to spend the remaining days between us. That day was very cold. I took her somewhere to spend some decent time. We travelled in metro that day. We again visited india gate that day. I keep every recent thoughts, Everything what happened between us, every matter in my mind but didn’t expressed her anything because I wanted now to end up everything decently. Every second of that time she was with me, but I was missing her. She was so dearer to me. Next day also, I took her for shopping. Same like before all it was going. We decided now to move to my flat for some hours but she doesn’t wanted to be with me there. she refused me but I manipulated and agreed her. I shared my snacks and sweet dishes with her which I brought from my home. It was so pleasant. I was getting with her intimate. We were cuddling a bit but she refused for it and cried. Now it was the time, I didn’t wanted to spoil her or to do much with her. So finally I stopped my self. It was around 10 pm night. We left our flat to drop her. Whenever she rided with me, I shared my feelings with her. It was too cold, I provided her my jacket to get her comfortable. Even that night also, I told her about the real image of that boy whom she was in relationship with. Now It was something different from me. Everything inside me was changing due to the news of her marriage. She was really going to be married soon after some months. I wanted her to just go with what she deserve the most. I always knew that she has a beautiful heart. 

It was late night now after dropping her to pg, I was just returning when the fuel of my bike went low. I greatly got depressed of knowing that. So I finally decided to leave my bike near her pg. I called her to explain about the whole situation. I got 30 rupees only from my pocket. Also my phone battery was going down. It was the time when I was so helpless. I was calling her from so long time still she was getting busy with him over phone. I waited and waited for so long but she doesn’t helped me. I doesn’t even slept that night and suffered a lot. I got frustrated and decided whatever the matter, would leave her for what she wanted. Next Day I went to where she lived, to take my bag and clothes and meet her for the last time but after providing my items she left saying returning after some minutes. I waited and waited, called but she didn’t picked my call. I was so tired with my legs paining much. I stepped towards her room and scratched her from here. Now again It was worsened. But even after all, I was teaching about all, about him, about me but still she was ignoring me. I narrated her, with the complete story of us from our very beginning and left saying goodbye to her finally. I hurted the most that day. After five days, I called her and told to end the relationship between us in a nice way. My thinking was like, “if we originated with love and intimacy”, “walked throughout our journey with love and intimacy”, its the “right to both of us to end it with love and intimacy.” So often, we could respect each other’s love.

What is Love? I know this question exists in each human being's mind. The word is only made up of four alphabets but it has the worth of “complete world” inside it. With love, One can accept a person's imperfections without any condition, and able to transfer the way of how he/she love themselves to another person who they are fancy at. What has been the importance of love? The importance is so great in a nutshell. “Love teaches you life”. How to live, How to survive with one. “Love can change one’s life or can even destroy it.” It was the last day when we met. I missed every moment from the very beginning and finally gifted my girlfriend who I loved more than me to that boy because I wanted her to see happy for what she wanted. I provided all our photos we clicked together, every memories to her. I provided her my life story that I wrote keeping myself awake many nights. Finally I wished her with some love words and left kissing her on the forehead and finally left her forever. I knew that she loved me much more than the boy. She was hurting that time but I ever wondered why “she took a turn”, “why she broke my dreams”, “why she bulleted and left” even when “I loved her the most” and more than anything. Today I know, there would definitely a day when she will soon realise what she lost, when she will worth my every feeling towards her, when she will value my love the most, but that time I will not be the man as I am today. There would surely a day when we will meet in future, would clash to each other faces. She will love me more than mine’s love.

For me, love did a lot. Love taught a lot to me. It made me strong from inside. It is very beneficial to love one. “Today, I don’t know whether I won or lost but this can only be the love which makes a man alive”. “May be, this was only the love which made me to do, as I did ever”. 

 

………Love is not lost…Its purely a life. Long life………

 

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“Don’t accept other’s definition of life. It’s completely yours. Define it, define it by yourself, the way you love it to be. Be purely yourself because nobody knows you better than you.”

When defining life, is pounded off great back to back experiences and several memories. Every man over this piece of land has the potential to script his own definition of life according to him. Love is only just a word until someone comes and gives a true meaning of life. Their is a great relationship between love and life. Love makes life worth living. The emotional state of love is complete happiness. Love is one of that immense feeling of life which leads you to get high off as narcotics does. 

So finally, After wasting a long long time for thinking and collecting my ideas, One day I decided to script my own life and memories into words. It has been said that the best part of life is childhood. True, but what makes your life more memorable is your 20’s. 

My childhood has also been one of the most memorable time of my life. Being the first child, I was loved so much by all my family members, grasped almost all their love. It has been a long time now, but even today also I had all those moments inside my heart. Whenever I cried for anything, My parents always fulfilled that wish by selling their dreams, They waken themselves the whole night to make me fall sleep. Whenever I have to make a visit somewhere to my relatives, they always used to take great care of mine. My family was actually not just good but truly excellent towards me. Every man dreams to have a nice family and I have always been walking over the head of that dream.

It is not the thing of praising myself, but from the very beginning of my age, I was very intelligent and sincere for my studies.

Though of being bit silent and introvert, My friends were never being more in number, they were fewer, But whoever linked to me and was my friend, was special to me and I for them too. They always tried their best and helped greatly in my difficult times for getting me out off those stuffs. From my point of view, My life had always been very special and memorable to me.

It was the time when just two or three months were left and my board exams were approaching towards me like a super fast bullet rain with a great speed and were seeming to crush me. I was preparing very well for my exams. I used to wake up daily early in the morning. I was very sincere thosedays . Ultimately, I passed my boards with a good score and made my family prouder. During 11th, and from its very starting, Everywhere I always just kept on listening that 11th year is the rest year. When I started my tuitions, Like every teenager, I made several bunks of my schools and classes, used to keep myself far away from homework, listened to teacher’s anger. All it was like, A job assigned to me by my surroundings. I was going totally distracted from my studies. Routine was getting fully set. 

One day, when i was attending my coaching classes, my eyes sticked over a girl who was newly admitted in my institute. This girl was actually my classmate who was studying with me since the beginning of my education. In school we were just casual friends who ever talked rarely. As she was my classmate, I started helping in arranging and getting class notes for her. We talked in a nice manner. The bond between us was getting enough stronger than before. But as days were passing, A unknown feeling was taking birth inside me. I started thinking for her in a different manner, was actually confused about all of that, followed her many times after the coaching classes use to get over. I was totally destructed by all that. It was the peak time of mine. I just wanted to get rid of all those stuffs. So one day I decided to get away from all this stuffs and concentrate only toward my studies. I started preparing for my final exams which were going to arrive just after two months followed up by old schedule of getting early in the morning time and devoting it only for studies, sleeping not much late during night and attending my classes regularly. All was going perfectly fine, but suddenly one night I thought of contacting and explaining her all about the situation which i was going along. I finally set up a plan. Next day, I approached a boy who was also one of my classmate and requested him to get me up with the personal contact number of that girl and also told him to pass her a paper in which I described my situation, feeling towards her and asked for the reply too. Two days later, Boy called me and provided the contact number of a girl to me, but additionaly told me that it was not the number of that girl whom i was thinking about. Actually, she was one of the friend of my girl. But after all, I thanked the boy and moved away. I thought of calling that other girl and dialed her number from my phone. The conversation was like….

Me : Hello(Girl’s voice).

Girl(other): Hi, who’s this??

Me: This is your class mate. Hope u remember me??

Girl(other): Ok. So what can i do for u?

Me: Not much, but only provide me the number of a girl as she took away my notes and her number was deleted from my phone.

Girl(other): Ok(Number was been provided.)

Me: Thanxx a lot.

Girl(other): Ok, Bye.

Me: Bye.

I was very excited as I was having her number in my hand. So without wasting any more minutes, I called her.

 

Me(In original voice): Hello.

Girl: Hi

Me: I am *****. Today, I passed u a letter with something written inside it.

Girl: Yes, I remember.

Me: So, what to do think about??

Girl(confused): I will be thinking over that. Just wait for few days.

Me: Ok. Have a nice day.

Girl: Same to u. Bye

Me: Bye.

Fours days passed, One night, I finally decided to call her. She picked my call just only after one ring. 

In a warm voice, Hello..!! How are you?? I asked about herself and showed a bit of care and asked for her reply. She only ended by saying hmmm..yes..! and putted off the her phone.

I was very confused now, but took peaceful breathes as the reply was positive. But, my luck was going very bad. Actually, The person with whom I talked was the not the person whom i was thinking about. Unluckily it was her mother who was talking just as her daughter. Next day, I don’t know how, Her mom called my mom asking about me, giving complains for me. As I came to know about the whole issue from my mother, I was just totally shocked after hearing about all this shit. My mom told all this to my father, they started scolding me for the activity I performed.

Finally i realized my mistake and said sorry to all for what i did. But the matter still haven’t gone silent. After few days, One day, when i was in school, attending the lectures, I saw the girl and her parents inside the school campus. I got bit frightened that time. As minutes passed, I heard an announcement calling out my name and requiring my presence in principal’s office. Now I was completely shivered and thought of myself to be undergoing in a great risk. I immediately scratched my bag pack from the desk and ran away from the campus without informing anyone. Actually it was the last day of my school before the preparation leave for my final exams. Now leaving all, I got busy for my exams and started following my old schedule. Finally, exams got over and I passed my 11th class with a good percentage of marks. One day again, I thought of calling her. But this time, Her phone got switched off. I tried calling her again and again, started enquiring for her and later on came to knew that she along with her family have left the city permanently. I felt very sad after knowing all. But soon after sometime, I realized that the unknown feeling which was prevailing inside me for her was just a simple attraction, nothing more than that.

For the beginning of a new chapter, Old chapter needs to get end. Weather was changing now. Winter days with foggy surroundings were moving towards a new season. Leaves were falling out of their branches and a new chapter of my life was going to be scripted. School was going to open within few days. One night, an idea stroked my mind and I thought of calling and thanking that other girl who provided me the number of my girl. I called her. This time she identified me instantly just by hearing me. I explained her the whole scenario from starting to end and finally had a nice conversation. Now almost everyday, We started calling each other. All was going good, A month passed, and we were as in the beginning. This time it was something like different. I was happy from all. Actually this girl was also in my class, but I never tried to talk or even think about her. One day, Finally I saw this girl in my class and realized this is the girl whom I was talking with since one month. I found her a bit cute. Time was not going to stop. Days were passing and we were talking more and more frequently. Now all this stuff was transforming into my requirement. I was getting addicted to all this. I started missing her. Actually it was the first time when i realized that may be, it could be the feeling of love. I was totally confused because of my recent experience. One day, with a great sense of dare I decided to describe her about my feeling towards her. I called and told her that Dear it might be silly to tell u, but everything between us is not running perfect. My heart and mind now are not under my control. I think I loves you. 

But she took away this as a joke and wondered how could a boy be in love just after liking an other girl and ended the topic. Now I started thinking the ways to let her understand the thing is not going all fair, I was getting really intimate for her day by day. It all acted like a misfortune for me because she was totally a fun loving girl. Love and all was piece of shit for her. She had never been got serious with me till that time. To her, It was all like playing a game and useless for her. I was totally disturbed by all. So, I started doing some really stupid things for seeking her attention. During the end of classes, I started following and roaming around her. Maximum time I use to keep myself busy in such stuffs at that time. Pick and drops became the favorite game of mine. Gathered and contributed many of the ways for being with her. During that time I met with the two boys which were unknown to me from the very beginning. Actually the boys were senior from me but soon became very good friends of mine. I started to be with them for the rest hours and they were acting like my left and right hand of support. One day I decided to provide a cellphone to this girl so that we could talk more frequently and conveniently. Now everything was going very perfect for me and her too. But actually my luck was not too good. I remember, it was near about 11 pm midnight when we both were talking on phone. Suddenly the phone got cut and I was very confused. Next day, during classes, she told me about the last night, last incident that her phone was ben caught by her mother. But next day I told her to have an excuse of having her mate’s phone by mistake and next day finally she bought me that phone which was being caught by her mother. I was happy now. In this way the phone was caught many times. Actually as like the mentality of small town boys, many of them tried approaching her, contacted her, following her. There was nothing much between us. But many times, I saved her from many such incidents. During those days we became very popular among the teenagers. Almost everybody was knowing her and especially for me. It was a very virtual feeling at that time. Days passed, one day phone got caught again. I was extremely irritated this time and finally decided to get rid of the whole situation. I started planning of a hypothetical family and a girl which were going to work as defensive weapons for us and finally managed to do it.

It was the first time when she told me about that she also loves me too. I was happy and founded the life being turned on. A sense of trust was now developed between us. Life was totally changed for me. I initiated securing us from all raw busters harming our relationship. Even I changed my tuition classes so that I could be with her, I want to see her almost all the time. We were enjoying those days greatly. There were many people creating misconceptions in between. Some them used to create misunderstandings in her mind and some for me. But, we were strong as drilled pillars. 

There was a girl named sujata. she was actually her best friend, always used to be with her during her school times, tuition days and evenings. Soon she became a very good friend of mine too and we started going through talks. she was a perfectly good, descent and innocent girl. These two guys i.e sujata and one of that senior guy always support us in sorting out our misunderstandings. Sujata’s brother always used to pick her sister and my girlfriend after their tuition classes. His brother was kept in misconception that I used to follow them during evenings. It was around the time of november, one day what happened I was going somewhere with one of my friend on his bike. My friend was driving and I was sitting on the backside. we were in a crowdy place. After some minutes of traveling what i saw was bit surprising for me. His brother along with the two girls was following me. But the unmight situation was, he started hitting our vehicle from backside with his bike. I got confused and told my friend to change off his way of going as he was doing an unusual activity. But instead of changing of our way, he doesn’t stopped. He pushed off the girls from his bike and again started following us cruelly. He was shouting with abuses but we were ignoring and not listening to him. After a long distance of driving and confusing him with many streets, I finally decided and told my friend to stop at a point. Just a minute of rest and I saw that he was standing behind and shouting my name. This time he pushed me and scratched my shirt cruelly. That time, my mind got totally stroked. I turned my myself and slapped him hard and gave rise to a fight between both of us. Yet I dominated him. A large number of people gathered and separated us. Seeing that crowd all around, police came along to know about the matter. They ultimately took us to the nearest police station in their jeep. Situation was going tough to worst. it was a feeling of guilty for me. I was feeling like to be the first in my family going to police station without being the culprit. I felt so bad that time. The girls were searching us all around. After half an hour, I saw my father coming there with great anger in his eyes. I was feeling ashamed. Few minutes and I was released from there over a call. My father told me to come with him. It has been the worst time of my life. His brother was a kind of hypothetical person. He created a hypothetical situation to my girlfriend’s and his family just for seeking their attention. Actually he totally wanted me to get proved wrong in front of their families and he proved that in absence of me.

Various competitive examination forms like IITJEE, AIEEE etc were released and I was looking forward to a chance of a visit to my girlfriend’s home. One day I went to my school for getting my form attested by officials. Suddenly I called my girlfriend at the time and asked her if she was alone and could meet me in her home. Her parents were actually out of town and his brother was busy in school time. She agreed. I along with my friend turned my way towards her home. I ranged her doorbell. She was standing in front of me and told us to come inside. We were welcomed. I told my friend to go if he was getting late. He went off. Now we both were alone inside and were staring each other. she was bit confused for when I told my friend to go away. she asked me to wait for a while as she went to kitchen for doing something. I was getting amazed. She asked me if I was getting bored. I doesn’t replied. she got confused by the silence. I was hearing to her footsteps. Actually I was going to hug her for the first time surprisingly. I pushed her to the wall and holded tightly. The moment was mesmerizing. I was excited to my upper energy level from ground level. We started hugging her un-abruptly. I told her that, if we kissed, I would have to sit over my feet to equalize our height difference. Now it had been the first time when i kissed her. we sticked together for a couple of minutes. Truly saying, the feeling was unique. She told me to go as soon as possible, as his brother was going to arrive. I went away saying her bye. It was the time which led me to get intimated with her.

Diwali was arriving. All was going very good between us. It was actually the day of karwachauth where the married women used to have fast for the sake of their partner’s life. We were in the same tuition classes as i told above. On that day, I was told about that my girlfriend was on fast for me. It made me totally amazed and surprised as she was not been such a type of girl who could follow such rituals in teenage. Coincidently she was dressed nicely which made me confused. I finally decided to enquire her about the whole scenario. But all it were just rumors. 

We were almost in a commited relationship and started meeting in a lonely place which was nearby from my address. 

it was around the time of midnight 11am, when talks were going in-between. She told me that a boy named, Amir was repeatedly calling and disturbing her. I asked her to provide me with the contact number of that amir. I dialed his number and warned him brutally not to disturb her again. All was now quit. Next evening, As i came out of my coaching institute, I saw him waiting for me with many boys. He came decided to give me the answer for my warning. He was walking towards me and suddenly scratched my hair in front many of the people with his hand. That time, I thought of the crowd being so stupid, of not having any dare to save me from those vultures. He slapped me, kicked my thigh. I was only defending myself. After sometime they left me away with pain in my eyes. Now a fire of revenge was burning in my bloodstream. I was in a great anger but confused. I told some of my friends to just stand for me during the next evening. I was now going to give him a tough reply for his activity. After my classes, I caught him sitting outside the gate with his one or two friends. Instantly seeing him, I picked up a thick wooden rod with iron nail from the road and approached towards him. Without wasting any single minute. I smashed his face with that wooden stick and started kicking and beating him badly. Many people gathered to see the drama. After some time I stopped myself from hitting him and we went away from there. I took my revenge which relieved my fire inside. Like thus ways, I started protected her from other elements..

But the people were not still gone silent. some of them started setting fire in her brother’s mind too. Many of them pretended rumors. The fire of our relationship was spreading unstoppably. One evening I received a phone call. it was my girlfriend’s mother’s call. I got surprised as it had been the first time when she called me. she invited me to their house. Fine, Decided to go there. At that time, I was with two of my friends and told them to come with me. As we reached to our destination, I sawed her mother standing at the main door of their house. She told me to come inside along with my friends. I touched her feet to express my feeling of gratitude towards her. We were welcomed and I was behaving in nice way.  My girlfriend was standing and starring me from a corner. Her mother was actually discussing the whole scenario with me and asked if I was having any problem with his son. I also explained her the about the whole hypothetical situation being created in the town and ultimately proved myself right. 

It was nearly around the time of my uncle’s marriage. My parents left me in the house alone, our pre boards were approaching within fewer days. One of the most complicated duration for me. On one side, I was struggling for my exams but on the other side it was all totally going different. Feeling of love were pressurizing my mind. I was missing her more and more frequently which were blurring the concentration towards my studies. We increased our calling over phone more n more and talked for hours. It was like that all has been set aside. I was unconcerned. During those days, Some misunderstanding was going on between me and my girlfriend. One evening I went for attending a marriage ceremony. I was there with some of my friends. Suddenly something hit my mind, I decided to call my girlfriend for sorting out the things and came to know that she was also attending any marriage ceremony. I told her instantly that dear I m coming there to see u, to meet u. She agreed. Without wasting any single minute, I along with my friend drived towards that resort where the ceremony was holding on. I sawed her. She was looking pretty. I was also very happy to see her. After sometime, me and my friend left and returned to our occasion. it was late night. The time was getting around 11’O clock. We all friends were enjoying a lot and after that we all decided to enjoy the cold weather with the charm of vodka. It was the first time when I was heavily drunked. It was midnight now. I told them to return now as it was so late. Next day I was having my maths pre board exam. I was drunked so high that I slipped along with my scooty on the road, But I was lucky , I slipped over sand. Finally without going through with no more accidents, I reached my home safely. I was 2 am late night. I turned my alarm on and slept over my bed. But after some minutes, I saw myself missing her and started feeling so much unconsious. The feeling got worst now. I was even not able to sleep properly. Around four hours passed, but was crying from severe headache. The point to be concerned i.e, My headache was not because of getting being drunked. I was actually missing her to such an extent that, It ultimately drowned me in pain. It was nearly 7am morning. I called and told her about the whole last night scenario that how I was dying to see her.

After some minutes of talking frequently, I drove towards her house and told her to come over her terrace so I can see her. She got amazed by seeing this behavior of mine. I sawed her and instantly got away from there as I was having my exam. I returned to my home and got ready, prepared my lunch and finally departed to my school. When I was solving the question paper, My mind initiated getting unconscious and again I started missing her. After coming out off the examination hall, I realized my condition of being low and undying love towards her. It was like something stopped me, not allowing my soul to leave anywhere, not able to concentrate. I started suffering so much. I wanted to see her, listen to her, be with her almost all the time. That was really one of the most memorable time of my life. 

One day, when we were in maths coaching, my girlfriend told me that she was leaving the school and was getting transferred to an other school. I thought of her playing a joke to distress me. But no, she was not faking. She was speaking truth. I felt like I would get alone after her and forced her not to go anywhere as it would go difficult for me. But she told me that she has gone through the admission into the other school and would be joining that as soon as possible. I led my head down and got upset covering my eyes. She was trying to talk me, to smile me. I wanted to see her but I said nothing and ultimately left.

Almost a year gone. One of those two senior friends started being very familiar towards me. I also felt very good to see his feeling of respect and affection towards me. Actually there was a lacking point of that boy. He was of backward class due to which my parents never allowed me to be with him, but I was not damn concerned with all this. They both were acting as left and right hand for me. Almost everyone among the youth of my town was knowing me. The feeling was great. No place of our town was left, where the youth were not concerning me. After coping up with several incidents and fights, atmosphere totally got changed. Nobody was daring to see her or even to  lean a step towards her. It was like peace build up everywhere. One day, she told me that it feels very alone and terrible for when she founds me absent over the complete day.  

After some days, My girlfriend started complaining me for the above described friend. she told me all about how was disturbing and irritating him, But I was unconcerned to her, disbelieving her because this boy was among that two seniors to whom i was blindly trusting. she told me that the boy has referred my girlfriend as her girlfriend to her sister. But all it was like childness for me. I just told her to ignore all. 

Because of being any unknown reason, some sort of matter prevailed between those two guys. Now the boys who were being friends since many years, whose friendship was counted among youth got distracted. They got jealous from each other. Instead of defending each other, they offended each other. All was worsening between them. Soon they started bitching each other. I was confused of them, couldn’t get to the reason which led them to this extent. But the other of the two described friends was constantly getting more n more dearer to me. He described to me about the whole scenario which led to all this dictatorship. Totally it was all about their familiar matter. But I was still confused off what to go with and what to choose because both of them very very close to me. 

Nitin, was the name of the boy who got dearer to me over recent days. One day after leaving out from coaching , I called him to meet, to have a party that night. I ranged him three-four times but he didn’t received my call. I decided to leave from there. As I turned my vehicle on, My phone got ranged and it was his call. I removed the key and received it. But, he shocked me by saying that he slapped my girlfriend’s brother in the nearest city mall, which made me really shocked. He told me that how her brother was saying something wrong and warning me uselessly. I told him to leave her brother and deal up with the complete situation and reach me as soon as possible. All got silent now. Nitin was with me now. But I was wrong. After some minutes of leaving her brother, I received a call from him. He called me somewhere along with nitin. I turned my way towards him. I was driving my vehicle and my friend was sitting behind me. Ultimately as we reached to their location, What i sawed was a bit confusing for me. Her brother was waiting for me along with that lower boy. I left my vehicle along with my friend to know about the whole matter. I walked towards them. I was calm. It was the great turning point of my life. It has been said na if you are a friend of any person who is the enemy of any third individual then ultimately you will also be referred to as enemy for that third person. This was what which exactly happened here. That senior boy slapped me. He slapped me in such a manner that throwed the glasses off my eyes. This behavior of him for me was like floor slipped from the bottom of my legs. I got numb with tears in my eyes, extreme upset and greatly untempered. I was greatly depressed off what my friend did to me. Even nitin was greatly surprised by him. Without wasting time or speaking anything, Nitin told me to soon leave from there and never get return to him in future. I moved out from there. I ranged my girlfriend to meet in nearby street. She was with sujata just got free from their classes. I was driving in tears and told her to never trust others. No body is yours. Anyone could betray you. Saying this I left her. After that I always trusted her and listened to her complains.

I always wanted to be with my girlfriend, to see her, to talk her, to listen to her and such related things. That time I was having a wish, to go over a long drive for some kilometers with her. I told her many times for this. I wanted her to be with me or to go somewhere away for a drive with her atleast on the day of my birthday. I always expressed my feeling of devotion towards her I just always wanted to touch her not to get more than that. But she was totally opposite from me. Totally uncaring and less intimate. She never expressed to be with me either to have a visit somewhere or like anything else. We were talking since a long time, even a typical relation was also going along between both us. But it was a something different from normal. Her behavior was very familiar but also very cold towards me. I was not much concerned with that and never tried of saying her or complaining her for anything. I never forced her actually. 

Me and one of my friend use to go IT tuition classes those days. Those days were also being very memorable to me. Our teacher used to give separate time for us at 9pm daily. The bonding between two of us was very good. We always helped each other. It was also being the peak season of marriages. After getting out of our classes, we used to have our dinner in one of the best ceremony going on of our town, but the thing which made it special was, we were being uninvited. We used to have our dress code in such a way that nobody was able to identify that we are or we aren’t. Someday we even attended two to three marriages a day. Even after that my freaky mind doesn’t allows to me get return to my home. I was totally behaving like stupid those days. Every night I don’t know but why I used to take a round to her address just in the hope of seeing her for a while.  

Love makes you blind. “Love has always been nothing for the some of the people. Love is very difficult to understand.” When I was normal i.e, I was not under this feeling, even I was also untouched to the things like god, love, freakiness, the feeling of devoting your life for any other unknown person just for the sake of his/her happiness. 

Actually my life went so memorable with each and each passing day. What it made so, were all those dramas and traumas which I remember even today also. Now It was my birthday i.e, 28 April. I was very happy that day and obviously its the day of totally yours. Its the day when your all friends and relatives wishes you, calls you, and blesses you and so does your special one if any. After being with all my best friends and getting out off the tuition classes I called her. I was driving very excited and crazy because It was going to be the first time of my life and my first birthday when I would be going for a drive to spend some pleasant time and precious time with my dear girlfriend.

I was unwillingly waiting for her. She got out for her tuition classes and wished me happy birthday dear. My wait was over. I asked her to tell me the location where she was currently walking. She told me and I turned my way towards her. At some place on road, I found her. I asked her that when she would be getting free.. and her reply was very cold. Why?? I was surprised to see her behavior. I told her about what we were talking for my birthday since many days. We were planned to go for a drive. She started behaving totally like an unknown and unkind towards me. Started putting up Wh-questions- where..?? when..?? why..?? Explained me with a silly excuse that how could I behave with her like that over this special day and how could she go with me for a drive. I got extremely angry from this behavior of her and left without saying anything to her. She lied me. I went to my tuition which I bunked to be with her. After coming out I saw those two girls i.e my girlfriend and sujata walking here n there on the road. I starting following them but because of getting stucked in traffic, I lost both of them. My phone got ranged. It was my friend’s call. He shocked me by saying about the two girls sitting and chit-chatting with any guy in one of the food court. I disbelieved him, but he told me to check either he was saying right or wrong. I reached to the referred location by him. I was betrayed. The boy was true. They both were really with some one. Now my eyes were shining in anger and I was warming. After waiting outside for a couple of minutes they both came out. They were surprised to see standing me outside and waiting for them. My girlfriend started with her silly excuse that the boy was following him continuously from many days and asking them to meet just once. Listening to her that silly excuse I shouted over both of them and left insulted. It was more than anything for me for my day. I was depressed very much. I thought how a girlfriend who say that she loves me, could do so. How she can say clearly no for being with me for even some minutes and the most worst thing how can be she with any other guy for even any reason on my birthday. Now my birthday was wasted. Everything got worthless for me. After going through all, I returned to my home and celebrated my birthday with my parents. 

After somedays everything got fine and we were as normal as before. Our relationship had completed its one year. Our boards also got completed. We passed our intermediate. Now the time was getting close when would have to go for our further studies. During those days we started talking of our future days, our past days and all sort of relation talks. I always wanted to be unique and do something unique and ultimately planned of gifting a ring to her for expressing my love towards her. But the main problem was of money and knowledge regarding it. I started making the arrangements. During that time, money was being a big issue for me because during those days, I was getting pocket money for wearing my personal expenses but not for others, so that I could buy such precious items for my girlfriend. I was pre decided to design the present by my choice. I discussed about the whole scenario with one of my friend. Days passed on and I started cutting off my pocket expenses and initiated collecting some bucks, left the coaching for a month, picked some money from my parents by giving them some virtual excuses. I knowed that I was doing wrong and betraying others but their was no option left to me to manage for the present. 

Ultimately after some time, I managed to arrange 4000 bucks and brought a silver-cum-gold ring for her. I was now very happy, thinking of the dream which was going to be true. One day, I ranged my girlfriend and told her in meet me in a restaurant. She again started making those excuses but forcefully I managed to do it. Next day, She came there with sujata and called me to report there as they were sitting alone in restaurant. On reaching, I was initially shocked to see my girlfriend with her because I told her to be alone. But I said nothing. I sat over the sofa which was in the opposite side of them. Now I was smiling seeing both of them and still they were still confused of what made me to call them like this. We ordered few sandwiches and cold drinks. I told my girlfriend to sit near me. After spending some nice time with them, We were leaving from there but I still didn’t exposed my surprise. I was actually feeling a bit shy. I told my girlfriend to stop for a while. I took out that ring from my pocket and told her to show his hand. This made her totally surprised because she didn’t expected any thing from me like this. I told her about all that how she got special for me and how was I loving her madly. This made her felt special and finally took that ring with a couple of thanks and left.

Days passed on and we were getting close to get separate. We always talked during midnights for a couple of hours. A week was only left for us and again something was not going fine inside me. I remember a night, it was the time of around 11 pm and I was walking over my terrace. We were keenly talking and having our conversations. It has been truly told by someone that every man is not lucky that they could get their desired love and I was among one of them. That night the girl who was loving me and gone through our critical relationship since a year, shattered me.

I cant never forget her wordings of that night which were like i.e, Might be a mistake or just attraction or simple affection but the thing from my side was not the feeling of love. After some time, we would be getting busy in our personal life and not finally be able to get time for each other. You are going to have the girl who would love you more than me and somewhere someday our faces would clash each other and would be meeting definately. 

I was totally heartbroken and shaded in tears. I cried for the first time in front of her. I got numb and felt like betrayed by her and was hardly depressed of knowing what to do and what to not. Days passed on but still It was all same as before. After some days and before the day of leaving I informed her that I would be leaving after tomorrow, she got upset hearing this but provided me with the best wishes for my future and shutted-off the call saying the line i.e, we would surely meeting after sometime, somewhere and someday. It was the last time when we talked. Next to next day, I finally left my town and moved on towards shaping my future.

Now it was all like going to enter a new world, but I was not having any feeling of excitement or happiness for. 

The days sat very normal. I moved on and went outside for my further studies. I met with many new people and got friendship with them. I was really trying to forget her betrayal, but it was a very slow process. One day I got introduced to a boy. Soon we got very good friends. We studied, watched movies, visited malls , played football, tripped and were enjoying life. Weekend fun got very normal to us. I was like very sophisticated and calm. I believed in love, But he was totally different from me. He was funky, a bit moody and never believed of love. I told him about my past and all the regarding situations. Their had always been a very good understanding within us. He taught me many things, facts about girls and life. He told me to forget all my past and wear some attitude inside me. After some days I met with two more other boys who also became very good friends of mine. All was going very good now. I almost crossed one more year with those friends and returned home finally.

It was march 2012 now. One evening my phone got ranged with an unknown number. I was little bit confused of being long of ranging up from an unknown number on my cellphone. I picked the call. She was my girlfriend actually. The conversation was like…

She : Hello.!

Me: Ya. Who’s this?

She: Get me.

Me : Sorry.

She : Hey.! Get me. I am your *****(girlfriend).

Me : Wow. Nice to hear you.

She : (Told about where she was, preparing for competitions, living with her relatives and enquired me for having any other girlfriend).

But after that I don’t wanted to get into the relationship with any other girl. She told me of getting into the college after some time and contacting me after four months. Our Conversation got continued for few minutes and ended up after sometime.

Fours months passed, but still I didn’t got any call from her. 

After sometime, I decided to drop my upcoming year for the preparation of IIT-JEE and AIEEE and was selected to vibrant academy(Rajasthan) which was been the best coaching institute of our country. I was living in a boy’s pg there. Facebook was becoming very popular among youth those days. One day, I got a friend request from a girl over facebook. She was completely unknown to me but I excepted her request. Her name was shital. We started chatting. She was three years senior from me and was from chandigarh, pursuing btech from the same city. We exchanged our phone numbers. On evening, I received a call from her. Till that period of time, sense of attitude and confidence was developed inside me. I talked her politely in a nice attitude and behavior. She was actually very much impressed by me. We talked frequently. After going through long, I told her an evening to stop our calling for two days. Actually I wanted to see how patient she was. She also got agreed to this happily. That evening, I made my mind of not calling her for two days whatever may the situation be and put away my call after saying this. Next day what I observed, was not like I expected. It was just 9 am morning, I saw 18 missed calls from her number on my phone. I was very much surprised after seeing this. But as per resolution I was not going to call her for two days. I ignored them. My phone was ranging up hour to hour but i remained unkind to her. The day was going to get end and but she was still not stopping and was continuously calling me. This was making me to lose my patience and finally decided to talk her. I left with my resolution as I was not able to see her like that. After a long time I picked her call and the conversation was like…

she : U merciless.!

me : Why?

she : why didn’t u received my call?

me: As per our resolution.

she : (Teasing) Get it lost.

me : why?

she : I can’t be like this. Can’t be more conserve.

me : It has been only a day and you are behaving like gone through a week.

she : Doesn’t matter. Get it lost.

me : ok.

After hearing to her, I was confused of what she was doing. It was all making me realize clearly that something is not getting fine with her. How could one behave like this..?? I called her again to know about the whole going scenario.

She told me that no matter what it may be, but she can’t get separate from me. I told her about my past and thought may be this could put her into the right way. That second, I collided with that memory of my girlfriend when she told me of meeting with a girl who would be loving me more than anyone. That girl was shital whom she was taking about. 

I went home during my dusherra vacations and started looking for my girlfriend. I enquired with many of the girls and boys but nobody was knowing of about her. I dialed her old number but unfortunately it was bypassed to someone else. I got very disappointed that time. One day, after going through all, I was collided with the news that she met with an car accident and got died.  It was a very big thing for me. This news of her shaked me from the deep inside of my soul. My eyes got wet. That news was spreaded in the whole city. Many of my friends asked me about her as she was totally linked with me from a year. But this time, Even i was not able to answer them all. I was confused of what to tell them about, so I also bypassed what I listened about.  

I called shital and told her that I dont want to be in any relation with anyone. Still, she was behaving like totally unaffected. Eventually she only requested me to just talk her nothing more. I agreed. But for me, she was nothing more than a friend. We were talking frequently. Her behavior was never being normal towards me. One day she did a very unusual activity. She posted of being in a complicated relationship with me over Facebook. That evening I surfed my Facebook account and gone shocked. I was greatly angered by her post. Immediately, I looked up to my cellphone and called her. I started reciting her for what she did. Instead of saying sorry, She proposed me and told that she couldn’t do anything in that and can’t imagine herself without me, but expected nothing from my side. she told me that it is not always necessary that what we dreams about, it owns.  There are many people over this earth who never get to their desired once. I did not told her anything and behaved nice. She was dreaming her life with me but on the other side my heart was still engaged about my girlfriend’s news. 

I never wanted to break her emotions because I have also gone through the situation when a person breaks your heart whom you love the most. I didn’t cared for what I was doing with her. I got very confused those days of knowing what to do and what to not. The situation actually trapped me. But finally decided to move on with the flow.

I never expected that a small mistake mine of just contacting her to would change her life. I never wanted to be of her, never expected this situation. But all it got just in a while that I couldn’t change or put an end to that. 

Love comes in so many different levels, that it doesn't appear to be the same emotion at all, but it is. Friendship starts this list off. Yes, it doesn't seem like it, but we do feel love towards our friends, this is what helps us get along so well, and why we miss them when we don't see our friends for a long time. It's also why we hold certain friends over others no matter what happens. Sometimes, the bond between friends deepens to the point where a stronger bond of love is made, making them family.

Another level of love, are for our siblings and other family members. Even though we do things to our family members, and sometimes we don't like some of our family, that bond is still there. It's this family bond level of love that brought about the phrase, blood is thicker than water. We will do things for our brothers, sisters, mothers, fathers, and children before we would even consider doing them for anyone else. Many wars have been started because of this family level, brother avenging brother or father, father protecting his wife and children, or even vice versa. This simple family bond can even extend to include our pets, amazingly enough, and that is a good thing.

A third level to love, is the bond that brings man and woman together. This level is among the strongest of them all. It is this level of love that has brought together kingdoms into nations in the past, and ended many great wars. It's is also for the love of a woman that has started a few of our well-known wars, like the Trojan Wars of ancient times. It's brought together families that have argued for years and years, such as in the Shakespearean play, Romeo and Juliet. Even though the two mentioned killed themselves in the end, it still brought their families together.

After sometime all it went a great tension for me. She wanted me to talk all the time, to see her texts, to think about her. Number of times, she told me just to pick up her call when I couldn’t talk her in presence of my parents so that she could listen to my breathes and conversations with others. Days were passing on and the situation was getting worse. She started sending me essay-like-messages ending up to many lines daily over facebook. I told her many times of not doing such juliet type activities but she continued as she was. One evening she called me and told that she sold her earrings which were made up of gold just for the sake of arranging money to put some balance to her phone. It is obviously very tough to believe that a girl could do such things for a boy. But it was all real for me. 

I was realizing her situation but doesn’t have any answer to her activities. It was getting close towards my exams and I was focussing towards my studies and examinations. I put all it aside and started revising all my syllabus. I started ignoring her calls because I knowed if I received her call then she would not be allowing me to go anywhere atleast for an hour. Yet she didn’t stopped, same as before. Sending long-long messages over facebook were her routinize activities. She was loving me blindly without thinking of anyone. Love blinded her mind from thinking logically and concealed the flaws of the one she loved. Sometimes the blindness of love is beneficial to the couple, when two people love each other for truly what is on the inside and connects with them in a more in-depth level rather than just on look, but at times blindness can cause one to over look and let things such as aggressiveness and abuse go unnoticed.

I just cleared my entrance exams and was now waiting for their results that would ultimately stepping me to move forward in one of the best engineering reputed colleges of country. VITEE exam result was announced and I was called for counseling there in chennai and was very excited to have a visit there. My father looked up for some train reservations. Me along with my mother and maternal uncle decided to go and finally reached there after traveling a long distance of about 3000 kms. It was a two-day and a two-night journey which we enjoyed a lot. Reaching to chennai was like entering into a new world. Everything was totally different. Their climate, language, culture, tradition, lifestyle was exceptionally new to me. After one day, we finally reached to our destination. The huge and stylish infrastructure of the university took away my mind. Everything was greatly attracting me. I got counselled and was getting the branch of my choice. But the culture and lifestyle of that city was not suiting me. So we decided to drop the the college there and putting it in the waitlist for some period. So after exploring withering southern heat, roaring traffic, sand of the seas and scarcity of outstanding sights, We returned from the city known as ‘capital of the south’.

After going through many counseling processes as like and visiting colleges from different parts of our country, I finally took admission in Jaypee Institute of information technology in Noida. It was being among one of best reputed engineering colleges with impressive infrastructure. The ideal college lifestyle dissipates quickly once the reality is reached. Many young adults imagine vivid pictures of what college might be like for them. However, once these young adults mature into independent men and women, and enter into the school of their choice, they soon realize the reality of the college lifestyle. Many young adults seem to believe that college life is filled with parties and typically a laid-back lifestyle. These students believe that, much like high school, classes will be taken during the day and filled with all their friends. They imagine a lifestyle with no other worries besides an occasional essay or lab. It is often said that college is the greatest time of one’s life; many high school students believe this and look forward to it. Some enjoy the idea of being able to come to class late, leave when they want, and pretty much have say-so of their own lives now that their parents are out of the picture. The majority of college freshmen enter into school picturing an easy, fun-filled ride. But my college life went as a very memorable part of my scrapbook.

All was going very good, and her madness for me was not ending got but messing up with my lifestyle. At night Shecouldn’t Sleep.., She was sitting in her Room Crying, ‘n It was then that She Realized how much I Meant to Her.. I was not knowing of what to do. One day she told me that she wanted to meet me and told me to come to chandigarh as she couldn’t take leave from hostel without informing to her parents. That time I got agreed listening to her, but after some days of thinking of the whole scenario, I realized that , We had not even just met once and she was behaving like never being normal. How would it be if I really met her. Thinking all about this I told her of postponding the plan for sometime just before the day the meeting her. She thought me joking with her but I was serious for that matter, I was really not going to meet her. Hearing that she got very disappointed and started crying. But seeing her, I finally decided of getting into relationship with her. 

I requested her to stop crying and explained of the plan only been postponed for sometime only, but not cancelled and confronted herself. Days were passing and I started forcing myself to develop some feelings towards her. But my mind was only enchanting about the fact, my girlfriend told me of getting the person who would be loving me the most that no one could. Her fact was continuously proving itself. I wanted to love her, was not able to wipe away my first love. The feeling was like, if I had  loved someone and was loyal then how could I cheat my memories, my loyalty. The memories of my first love never allowed my heart to love any other girl. Life was trapping me. So, I got left only with two options, to leave her forever and never return to her or either to love her which was not getting possible for me. One day I finally told her of the whole situation and conciliated herself that I was not for her. I tried, even forced myself but couldn’t love her, as I lefted myself somewhere else and told her not to call me or either message me. She respected my feelings but was shading. I wanted to help her, but all those situations made me helpless. At the end she only told me that someday I would surely regret of not loving her. Whatever may be situation, whatever might be the reason and whatever would be the conclusion, our memories would always be lying in her. After that, all her dreams and expectations got ended with us.  

Throughout our lives, we meet with many people and problems that have helps us to gain experience and change the way we think. Some lessons are learned through trials and tribulations. Some are learned through experience and seriously I was now been transformed to a men of experience. No matter how we’ve learned our lessons, they will stay with us forever, and help us through life. People wonder if they are important to anyone. We may never know at all if we are important to anybody else, but the question will linger in our minds no matter what. A lot of people will spend their whole lifetime looking for what they think is important and never find it. There is never a long period of rest and peace. we should always be aware of everything preventing ourself to live an easy life. Moments of sadness and misery are much more frequent than those of happiness, filling our head with indescribable madness. Life is not only black and white, but is different shades of grey. No one is really right or wrong. Every person you trust may suddenly be gone. Now u wonder if every choice you make in life is a bet. What you can only do is to trust your instincts and prepare for the worst. Despite the dark side, life can be full of excitement and surprises. As long as it is interesting and fulfilling, this world is no longer cruel and cold. Warmth and smiles still exist. Although there can be many bad times, never give up for a moment until your last breath. As there is a saying that every cloud has a silver lining.

Life was presenting several chapters in front of me and teaching with many experiences. My days went back normal. Its was the beginning of my Btech 2nd year. I was living on my flat in noida since starting. That time I actually got my campus shifted due to which I left my flat and started living in a boy’s pg. There were very few people around us and the location was not much posh. Their accommodation was huge. Near about 50-60 boys were living in that building. I met there with many new faces and a number of them became my friends. Life was going good, I again got sincere for my studies. Our college campus was at a very little distance from my pg. Days got very normal again. I starting waking up at 7 am early in the morning, gymming after and afterwards preparing myself for the classes. Workload got much heavier and more intense than I ever experienced before. The major challenges of college work were the large volume of reading, the short deadlines, and the writing, writing, writing. A related effect that can be brought on by the workload is doubt, frustration, and possibly loneliness. Day by Day I got away from the comforts and friendships that my home provided for me over the previous years. But still on accepting all, I was enjoying rest. We played football during those days and never took much interest for it. I realized that it was only the time when I could adopt trends and fulfill my satires . I started screwing my fingers on guitar those days and never got it learnt from experts but only listened to youtube and moved on for a new experience of music. Badminton was the other thing that I always loved to. I was good for it. After the college times, We go to our college campus and played badminton for more than hours. My friend’s group was actually bit big. We used to play counter strike in a group of more than 10 persons after making LAN servers in our free times and hide n seek, ice-pice and football during midnights. My routine schedule was so good. 

When I was during my first year. Two more friends were living on my flat with me. Their was a girl, Nisha who visited our flat many times as she was friend with one of them. She was a model by profession. she was very beautiful, pursuing her graduation in fashion designing from pearl academy, Noida. She was from pauri, garhwal in Uttarakhand. After frequent visits of her and talks, we soon became very good friends. I got introduced to her through one of my flatmate but soon our friendship leaded them. Now it was my college life and seeing other people of the city I often want more. It was going through the last months of the year, When I was going somewhere with my flatmate in his car. Suddenly, Nisha called him and told that she was going to her hometown for two days. She asked him if the boy could be with her as the journey was 12 hours long and would be having its way through mountains and hills. But the boy refused and made a false excuse. Now she got alone. After having our dinner outside, we both returned our flat. After some minutes of reaching to my flat, My cellphone got ranged. it was her call and asking me if I could be with her for the next day, I told her to give me some time to think about so that could I look up for my upcoming schedule. I was not in the mood going somewhere that time but thinking of her way I changed my mind and got agreed. She told me that she had hired a SUV car and would pick me up from my flat at 8 am next day. Now It was left very less time for preparing my bag before going to the bed. I informed my friends of going out of station for 3-4 days and getting my proxies. Next morning, because of being sleepy, I waked at 10 am. Immediately, I checked my cellphone which was left with some calls and whatsapp messages of her. Without wasting my time or thinking of anything else, I called her and regretted for what I went through and asked her if she could return. I was happy now because as per the situation she went away and I did the formality from my side too after calling her. But my happiness only ended for a few minutes. After an hour, she ranged up and told me to get ready within some minutes as she was reaching my location in just 25-30 minutes. Now I was left with no other options of making any excuse to her. I turned my geyser on and got ready in a very less time. After sometime, Our flat doorbell got ranged. I know that I was her only, so I opened the gate and asked her to wait for five minutes. Finally after getting my bag, earphones and aux cable we left from that place. Since from my childhood I always had a deep attraction towards mountains and hill stations. It had been for the first time when I was travelling so long with a girl in car. We were going through different planes and serene views. All the way, we went talking so crazy, listening music, bitched about friends, ate fantastic food in roadside hotels. Her kid-like-activities were making me to like her. As we were getting closer to our destination, sun was shading its way off to clouds and it was getting too cold. She got a blanket with her that we putted that over ourselves and enjoyed our traveling. We finally reached there at 9 pm evening. It was too cold. Foggy surroundings and lights hanging in air was attracting me a lot. She took me away to our home and introduced me to her family members. They welcomed us warmly and served with dark chocolate and dinner. We got very tired after being getting through that long journey. Her parents went away to their room after wishing us good night. After that we had our conversation for some minutes and she told me to sleep in her room. Next day we visited a hindu shrine temple and its main market and a place chaukhamba point. She introduced me to her many friends. My trip went very good. Just before the night of returning back to noida, We went to a church on the ridge point and had a nice walk. I was liking her actually and finally proposed her for being in a relationship with me. She got surprised hearing me and gone silent for some minutes, speaked nothing. It was a calm moment for me. We went back to her home. After exploring all, It was the time to leave. Next morning we threwed our bags inside the car and got ready to get back. We went back on the same roads, but now the destination was different. Passing through those roads she suddenly proposed me back and kissed my cheek. From that day our relationship got active. Everything started going to be perfectly nice. We started meeting frequently. Attended many occasions in the city. Our relationship went for months. All was nice.

If anyone lives inside your heart then we dont need to miss it out. At one moment suddenly my mind reflected some past memories of my ex-girlfriend. Yet my fifth semester was approaching its end but the situations were always being there in my mind. The feeling which gone silent through years overcamed me. I wanted to find her anyway. I called to a friend of mine. She was from my hometown. I told her about the whole rumor spreaded to solve the mystery and get me with the contact number of my ex anyhow. After a week around, she ejected out her number for me. I told my friend to call her once so as to get verified. It was her number. I went thinking of how and where she would be, of her behavior towards me. One evening I finally called my girlfriend introducing myself. Her behavior went so normal, but surprised me by telling to not her call again. I got moody to see her behavior. I told my friend to enquire about and tell her just to talk once. After sometime I called my girlfriend again and asked about the matter and why she behaved like that even when we talked after years. She accused me as the culprit for spreading the false news of her accident. I was shocked after hearing that. I explained her myself of being not the type of guy who could rumor about the girl whom he loved before. It was totally her misconception. News got rumored so unstoppably that even I couldn’t end it. She was pursuing her graduation from kanpur, Uttar pradesh and an year senior from me. She told me about being in a relationship with a boy of her college.

That time I was also undergoing to a relationship, still it pinched me somewhere, but I expressed her nothing. I told her about my life and my relationship too. We both have left our relation somewhere. I offered her with a new proposal of our friendship but she refused and told me of that evening call to be the last one between us which wasn’t an issue for her and even for me that time. We both got agreed. More than two months passed away, but we never tried to contact each other.

“The definition of destiny is an unknown and unpredictable phenomenon that leads to a favorable outcome.” I dont know what was my destiny all about. It was the time for my vacations and was going my home to spend those holidays with my family. I was in a bus and listening to music. Suddenly my phone got ranged. Its was my girlfriend’s call. I got astonished for a while but picked the call. She wondered about me, told me sorry about her behavior gone wrong during my call. We talked for few minutes and told me to remain in contact with each other. Days after days we went to chatting on our phones. The bond between me and her was growing steadily. I started expressing my love for her. One day, I finally proposed her and wondered if she loved me in the same way as I. We went underneath through this for some days and ultimately she replied me back with what she felt. She told me about her initial college life that she how she missed me and wanted to be with me. She was all alone those days and it had been the first time when she realized her love towards me and loved me truly and how it led to lose our contact because of that hypothetical rumors. Time started healing everything and making us closer. After returning from home, we talked frequently for hours and shared each other photos. All was going perfectly nice between us. We started making plans for meeting each other. I was thinking to meet her in her city. She was living a typical student life. As she was an year senior from me, she was busy for her placements. A number of companies were approaching their campus, but unfortunately, she was getting rejected simultaneously. I always wanted to be tension-free and can’t see herself underlying below the burden of tensions. I started motivating her every night, giving advices to her, or any relative support from my side. It was near about the time of extreme winter and I was with some of my friends outside. She called me suddenly and told that she was coming for an interview in gurgaon. It was the first time when we were going to meet after a long period. We were very excited to meet each other. I told her to stay with me whenever she come. She agreed, but imposed a condition that she would be coming with that boy whom she was in relation with and told me to hide my identity in front of him. It faced very unusual, but I agreed. 

It was the day of her arrival now, she called me and informed of their arrival at delhi station. The station was nearly around 60 kms away from me. I didn’t owned any vehicle till that time, so I took a vehicle of my friend and departed towards station to pick her. Being hooked in traffic and more than an hour of driving I finally reached there and called my girlfriend to look me out. It had been so long, when I saw her. She was with him. We both boys just got handshaked and without wasting much time I told her to sit behind me. We moved on. The feeling inside me was very unusual. It was the first time when she was with me on bike. We were discussing about their journey, pre-interview posts and such related things. That day was one of the most memorable day of my journey. We tooked around more than two hours to reach our destination. I visited most of the parts of delhi, but never being by my own. We hindered in the nasty traffic and curved roads of the city. I finally to took her a place where we had some really tasty momos. I was living a boy’s pg and bringing the opposite gender was against their rules. So took her to one my friend’s flat nearby.

We finally reached their flat. I offered her water and told her to get some rest and wait for me for sometime, so that I could return the vehicle to my friend. After getting late for half an hour, I returned to the flat. She was feeling awkward as I went for so long. I confronted her with the situation and told her to be relaxed as I was with her now. We talked long and she told me of the interview which was on the next day. There was only one bed in that room and we both have to sleep on that. But, We didn’t slept for the whole night. It was 4 am early morning, when she slept after going through some cuddling. I thought of me that, if I slept It would become difficult for us to wake and her to reach to her location on time. So I decided to wake myself for the whole time and layed with my eyes opened. I was starring her and she was looking very pretty in the moonlight which was coming inside from the window. 

It was 6 am now. I leaned up and told her to get ready for the interview. I went to other room to bring some hot water for her as it was too cold. Before I could brought some hot water for her, She took shower under cold water and shivering in cold afterwards. Seeing her in that condition, I felt like mercied and hugged her. She was in a formal dress code with a grey coat over. We clicked some photos and left from there. Everything was totally new for her. I told my girlfriend that I will be with her for the whole day. We went gurgaon through metro. Her campus was even far away from the main city. We hired an auto to reach that place directly. During the whole time, She went preparing for the interview with myself holding her hand. We finally reached to her campus and she told me to wait for four hours as the process of recruitment has always been time-taking. I gave her with the best wishes and she went inside. Now it was time when I have to make a choice of either to have my way towards main city or wait for her without going anywhere. I finally decided to be there only because I don’t wanted her to get lost somewhere in the area. But the main challenge for me was to survive for those hours . It was purely a corporate area and there was not a even single place nearby where I could get some rest. I was feeling very tired and restless due to last night wake. I looked up for an some area and sat under a tree nearby waiting for her. It went around 3 hours and she called me and told of getting free from there. I put some water over my face and walked for her location. Both of us were dying in hunger and were extremely tired now. We hired an auto which could took us to the nearest metro. I finally decided of taking her to India gate. There we ate some street food which relieved our body for sometime. I told her to get some rest on the ground. We went talking about each other and such other memories. It was getting evening when she told me of dropping her to the railway station. She didn’t get selected for the job for which we came which made me worried if she would be returning after or not. I wanted to spend some more time with her but can’t. We got up and walked holding each other hands for crossing roads. We got a bus which was directly going to drop us to our destination. We stepped inside it and seated. After going through some tragedy of charging money by the officials, we finally reached to railway station. I don’t want her to go back but was helpless. She was speaking but was going blank from inside and thinking if we could ever met again. I dropped my girlfriend to her reserved seat with gifting her a box of chocolates and got out of the station. I was feeling very upset and missing her badly and so lost like after spending my last 24 hours with her. Finally I returned to my pg and got back before.

She again got busy in her placements. Day by day she was losing her patience but I kept encouraging her. One evening, I went out with some of my friends. Suddenly she called me and told me of getting being selected in an other company and wondered to have my eyes over her joining mails. It was now different from before as she was now coming to join the company. Their were no sort of interviews and such related things. I visited my home those days when she came back again and lived in a pg. The distance between mine and her pg was quite more. I never restricted her for anything. I always wanted herself to live in the way she like the most. We met on weekends because it was not possible for her and specially me to have more than that. One evening, I told her to come with me in my pg. I called one of my friend to make all arrangements so that I could make her inside from the main gate of the building in the late night hours. We succeeded and after going through all and was able to take her inside without informing to any other person. Now It was the first time when she was with me inside my room. During that evening we hanged out a lot. She had never been normal those days, always worried and frustrated of the boy, never been answerable and reasonable to him. That day, he was calling her from evening hours and she doesn’t answered him for the same fact of being unanswerable. I was confronting her for the whole time. As we reached my building, It were more than many calls and text messages over her cellphone. During those night hours, that stupid boy called her parents, accused and violated her in front of them by lying about her for spending that night with any boy. It was not just the matter that he accused her, but he lied to her parents. He doesn’t knowed about us but still created a hypothetical situation. It was being for the first time when my mind created his inferior image. I was wondering about how could a boy go to such extent. I helped her in confronting with the situation and took out from that stress. Challenges were always been there with us. But we always enjoyed. Being true and confident ever, she never faced her situation to him. He treated her like an animal tied from his neck by a rope. Never taught her anything like how to survive in practical world and many related things. One day I asked her all about, why she have been suffering so much and what was making her to do so. She was feeling embarrassing from me and of what would I think of her but told me all about. She briefed me how he bounded her from everywhere. She trusted him and what he did to her in return. He had all her account details and kept on handling her gmail, facebook, college kiosk portal from a long period of time. If she ever gone against him he used to make severe transactions from her account and she couldn’t even tell about the scenario to her parents of the fact what they would be thinking about her. It was really a very tough situation for her. They went in a relationship of three years, so it was very obvious to me about the attraction between both of them that surrounded them. She told me of ending everything between them after her graduation course gets over as he was handling her major project. I got compensated with the situation and supported her for her truths and lies. Now she was undergoing two relations, was talking with me and him too. All it was much irritating for me but my I manipulated myself.  

During those days, everything was getting disturbed between me and nisha. I was not able to give her time that she deserved from my side. Problems were repeatedly arising. One day she asked me about the truth behind, my changed attitude towards her. Even I also doesn’t wanted to keep her in darkness. I put forward the whole situation of mine in front of her. Since from the very beginning, Nisha knew well about me and my love. I told her. She was distressed of all but expressed nothing much. I expressed her, my love towards the girl whom I loved from my childhood and would love till its end. I promised nisha about the loyalty and faithfulness of that girl. I referred me and my girlfriend as “soulmates” in front of her. It was the last day of relation between us actually. I Finally left her because I knewed ultimately that, “I can’t be fitted with anybody else.” 

One evening, me and my girlfriend again planned to visit india gate. We went there through metro train and had our one of the best camera selfie. It was very cold and we had enjoyed it even more with some ice-creams and momos and being there for more than hours. We was getting late to return from there so we hired an auto which dropped us my location directly. It took us around an hour to reach there. That evening got one of the best memory of that time. After having our nights together, I used to drop her in the foggy mornings to her address. But we doesn’t met much during those days because we fighted more than we went together, for that other relationship issues. The company under which she worked was manipulating her and making some serious payment issues regarding her salary distribution. In other words, they were making fraud with her. She worked there for almost more than 45 days but that company provided her with the payment of less than a month. Finally after getting much frustrate, She finally decided of leaving that company after some days. Now the next headache for her was to find the other company in which she could seek a job. It was the day of her leaving now. She stayed with me for the whole time and Next morning, I sawed her off and and told her to return soon. 

That time I just passed my sixth semester. Day by day we were getting close and intimate for each other. She was now at her home and keenly looking for a looking for job so as to come back as soon as possible. Her course of engineering was over now but they were still talking and texting each other. It was time of her birthday when we were in different cities those days. I was very excited for her birthday and thought of getting to be first person for wishing her. I was waiting from an hour with my cellphone to wish her. Finally it went 12’O clock midnight and I dialed her number. What was sawed was totally unpredictable  and unmiserable to me. She was busy with that other boy. I was calling her continuously she was not receiving my calls even when she was seeing my number waiting over the screen of her cell phone. It was a very unusual thing of me. I been trying for previous half an hour but finally got much upset and angered and ultimately turned off my cellphone for few minutes. After I turned my cellphone on, she called me but instead of wishing her I told her not to have conversation with me. She deeply regretted for doing that and explained me how was forcing her to talk. Everyday, Many times we got quarreled over the scenario. I always gone arguing her over the matter of being clearing and sorting it out whatever she wanted. I told her of choosing a person at a time for whatever the matter may be. I always remained untouched of her feelings towards me. Everyday the things were now pinching me. She finally told me that she wanted to be with me and continue our relation but imposed a condition that she couldn’t leave him totally. They would only be going through friendship and would be talking occasionally as friends. I trusted and agreed her again.

We made several plans for our future and initiated implementing them one after one. We were actually moving towards a live-in relationship and decided to have our own flat over rent. But the main problem was for her job. She was still at her home for so long. Trusting and getting totally dependent over her, I refused all the offers that my friends gave me to live with them. One day she told me about a company who recruited and were now called her for joining. Now it made a hope again for her to get back soon. The company officials were asking her to submit with all the original documents before the joining could be processed which was making us suspicious for them. I suggested my girlfriend to make a set of her documents just as originals. After going through a depth, she finally agreed upon that and requested me to meet so that we could speed up the process. I was first time in my town, when we got together like that. She told me of renting the flat after a month from her arrival as she would be adopting paying guest accommodation to deceive her parents for the initial days. But it was now very difficult for me to manage the accommodation for the initial months. I was even not able to get any pg nearby to my college for one or two months as they were charging me with the security due to which I would be locked in for a minimum for six months. Now I was truly with no options left of what to do and what to not. 

The college was opened after somedays. It was time of my departure but still I was not in the mood of returning noida due to my accommodation issues. I decided to take help from my friend. I called him and requested him to arrange my living in his flat. But unfortunately his grandmother died those days which made him helpless as he was in his hometown. So I called other friend of mine who was living in hostel of our college, I informed him about my arrival on the next day and take care of my carry bags for two days. Next morning, I reached noida and handed him over with my bags and went hurried to college for my registration. After getting out from there it was now a really difficult time for me. I called one of my known who was living far away from my college and spended ten days there. It went very tough to me travel to college and vice-versa. It wasted more than hundred bucks a day in just traveling to and from. Me and my girlfriend decided to keep our savings for renting the flat and collecting some funds. So, I started cutting all out from my daily expenses and sometimes from fooding. I was going through my worst days. After ten days of been accommodating there I decided to get shifted with that friend who I called previously. The company was shifting my girlfriend’s joining day after day. Many times I visited and requested them to make her joining as soon as possible. Those days, I doesn’t have any vehicle but still I used to travel that long distance for making their manager manipulated towards the joining. After struggling a lot though food and money for 45 days I finally owned a flat at some distance from my college campus. The flat and society was really being good. Since it has a drawback, I was locked-in for four months. But being after moving in my new flat, It faced several problems in traveling. So I thought to get my old bike from my hometown after sometime. I was settled now and everything was going happily. 

One day, My girlfriend told me about her joining being sured and her arrival too. My efforts finally made results for her. It was now finally her time to come back. It was about the day when she came noida. AIESEC i.e, An Non governmental organization whom I was working with. I had an important conference over that day. She finally came to noida from bus and I went to pick her. It was morning when she came. I took her to my flat. I was very happy now to see her after a long time. She offered me with some food which she brought from her home. She told me to come with her. I questioned myself but agreed. she also told me of an interview that was scheduled that day. I left her siting over a sofa and went my room to take bath. After getting ready, We got our essentials and moved towards her destination. We finally reached the company where recruitment was undergoing. The atmosphere of that space was bit calm. Their were some more people sitting and waiting for their sessions. The officials were explaining to her about the rounds of that complete process. The first part was screening under which she had to solve an objective paper. There was being a positive point for the screening that the familiars could sit in front of the applying candidate. But I was now left with only two options of either to go and hurry for my conference or to be both her. I got confused but finally decided to help her in solving that question paper. My paper was now distributed, she was not prepared much for the exam as it was not pre-decided. I confronted and helped her in solving the exam. The time was getting now to over. We submitted her answer sheet to the officials and after sometime we were informed of her clearing that round and was called for the personal interview now. Our efforts resulted in colors and she got selected there. I was very happy for her. She now had two options for her, but finally decided to join one of them. The officials told her to join after a week and provided her with the offer letter. We were now free from all hactics and were walking through roads. We were talking of each other and our further plans about the way she would be working, about her job and accommodation. It was getting evening now. I asked her to stay on my flat for the day but she refused and greeted me by saying- “ It has been left very few days and after that I am coming to be with you dear, to live with you and only you”. Listening to her, I got happy and agreed to her. But the issue was she got so late and I was not allowing her to go alone so, I decided to be with her till her home. We went to our flat, took some nice rest and arranged my carry bag. After spending some moments with each other, We left from there and finally moved to our home. We were jointly going our home in bus for the first time. During that journey, we stopped just before reaching to our city near a roadside hotel. The people inside the bus lifted out, but we were still siting inside the bus and were talking of each other. Spending sometime there, the bus driver called the passengers and we again moved. Finally we reached our home during the late midnight hours. 

After staying for two days at home, I got returned and got busy in my routined schedule. I was waiting for her arrival. She finally came but this time with her father. She informed me of staying with her friend for two days to deceive her father. Two days passed and I took her to my flat and she stayed there with me for upcoming days. Our bond got much strong till that time. We were enjoying those days so much. She was with me for the full days. Finally next-to-next evening we went out to look for her accommodation. It was totally mine responsibility to get her settled now. We were wandering there without any fixed destination. After going thru all, we finally searched a pg and got her settled. The pg was not up to so good. She got bit disappointed but finally compelled with. Everything between us was now going very good. Many of the times she visited my flat and we stayed together for days. Day by day we were approaching towards extreme familiarity. She was good in cooking. Sometimes we cook food for each other. Every weekend, we use to live with each other. I loved her so much. To me, her priorities were the most. I tried to give her everything for whatever I was able to. After sometime I brought my bike from my hometown to increase my convenience. Every monday, we wake early in the foggy mornings and I used to drop her to office. Those days were so memorable. I introduced her to many of my friends. But some issues of her and that boy had always been there between us, but she always commited that she always loved me much and will love me forever. I wanted to get this matter solved but always feared of her, feared if the boy did anything to her. I had no options left instead of surrendering. One day, she told me of living happily with me leaving all behind before she go married. That was the day when I completely trusted her love towards me. We were very close of the time of taking our residence. It was about the evening when she was on my flat. Suddenly that boy called and told her that he had deducted certain amount from bank balance just because of the fact she didn’t receive his call. That point was too much embarrassing for me and her too. I got fired of thinking how could a boy be so cheap and ridiculous. A boy who always did worst to my girlfriend even when I was with her. She was crying in front of me because of that and I was paining from inside to see her like that. At that moment of time, I decided to end up the matter whatever may be the conclusion. Many times, I tried to change her gmail and facebook account password, But because of account creation from his side, All my efforts got wasted. One day I remember It was my exam next day, when she girlfriend provided me her passwords to change and get rid of the boy.. I was busy in changing her passwords but she was busy in talking with the boy with giving me an excuse of just managing that situation. I finally decided to get rid of the whole situation. That night I called her brother informing him about the whole scenario. I did it for the beneficiary of my girlfriend. So that, if anything happens with her in her upcoming days, atleast her brother should know about the cheap mentality of that boy. Her parents came there after somedays, and took away her debit card to end the situation. But I never knowed that, doing good for someone will ultimately proof me wrong. My girlfriend started blaming me for the whole situation of why I created that whole scenario. Her thought pinched me. It was like she was blaming me for his sake who did wrong ever to her. But for me, I was now happy for her. She was now tension free. 

It was the time when demonetization took place. Financial problems were arising much for all. All were seeming cashless. whenever I called, she gone busy. Every second was now irritating me. The situation got even more worst when one evening I called her for my arrival, I want that day to meet her with a surprise. After some minutes of driving my bike, I called her of enquiring her for something mandatory. I was calling her again and again, and the girl was talking with that boy keeping my call under waiting. I always loved her but I always wondered why It happened to me only. I was getting frustrated day by day. I never wanted to spoil her in so I kept myself silent. But one night, when she was in my flat. I finally called the boy informing him about the whole matter. Our conversation changed into abuses. I really wanted to sort everything out. I finally asked my girlfriend to choose between me and him in front of both of us. She never wanted to leave me but that day, everything got changed. she decided to be with him. I got speechless that time. Next morning I left her. After somedays, she again called me telling she can’t live without me. Again, one evening she told me of there breakup and wanted to continue with me. All it was going very unsorted. My semester got over those days. I wanted to be with her only now as I was going home next day. I called her to my flat. Everything was going fine. I only ever wanted to be with her. We were going to have our flat. I enquired her all about but everything got wasted when she refused. She doesn’t wanted flat anymore just because of that boy or might be any other excuses. She told me about going to be married. That time, I was like hurted from everywhere. I felt like she totally betrayed me. I got mad that time and did the biggest mistake of my life. I tortured her. It was the day when both out cried a lot, but in different ways. She was crying in pain and me because of what I did. Might be, it went the biggest point. After that I went home to spend my vacations. The days were extremely worst. My vacations were ruining day by day. I finally thought of lefting her for whatever she want. I told her to provide me with some days so that could prepare for that. I gave her a date but got late due my late arrival in noida. One morning I called her from the bus and requested her of visiting somewhere to spend the remaining days between us. That day was very cold. I took her somewhere to spend some decent time. We travelled in metro that day. We again visited india gate that day. I keep every recent thoughts, Everything what happened between us, every matter in my mind but didn’t expressed her anything because I wanted now to end up everything decently. Every second of that time she was with me, but I was missing her. She was so dearer to me. Next day also, I took her for shopping. Same like before all it was going. We decided now to move to my flat for some hours but she doesn’t wanted to be with me there. she refused me but I manipulated and agreed her. I shared my snacks and sweet dishes with her which I brought from my home. It was so pleasant. I was getting with her intimate. We were cuddling a bit but she refused for it and cried. Now it was the time, I didn’t wanted to spoil her or to do much with her. So finally I stopped my self. It was around 10 pm night. We left our flat to drop her. Whenever she rided with me, I shared my feelings with her. It was too cold, I provided her my jacket to get her comfortable. Even that night also, I told her about the real image of that boy whom she was in relationship with. Now It was something different from me. Everything inside me was changing due to the news of her marriage. She was really going to be married soon after some months. I wanted her to just go with what she deserve the most. I always knew that she has a beautiful heart. 

It was late night now after dropping her to pg, I was just returning when the fuel of my bike went low. I greatly got depressed of knowing that. So I finally decided to leave my bike near her pg. I called her to explain about the whole situation. I got 30 rupees only from my pocket. Also my phone battery was going down. It was the time when I was so helpless. I was calling her from so long time still she was getting busy with him over phone. I waited and waited for so long but she doesn’t helped me. I doesn’t even slept that night and suffered a lot. I got frustrated and decided whatever the matter, would leave her for what she wanted. Next Day I went to where she lived, to take my bag and clothes and meet her for the last time but after providing my items she left saying returning after some minutes. I waited and waited, called but she didn’t picked my call. I was so tired with my legs paining much. I stepped towards her room and scratched her from here. Now again It was worsened. But even after all, I was teaching about all, about him, about me but still she was ignoring me. I narrated her, with the complete story of us from our very beginning and left saying goodbye to her finally. I hurted the most that day. After five days, I called her and told to end the relationship between us in a nice way. My thinking was like, “if we originated with love and intimacy”, “walked throughout our journey with love and intimacy”, its the “right to both of us to end it with love and intimacy.” So often, we could respect each other’s love.

What is Love? I know this question exists in each human being's mind. The word is only made up of four alphabets but it has the worth of “complete world” inside it. With love, One can accept a person's imperfections without any condition, and able to transfer the way of how he/she love themselves to another person who they are fancy at. What has been the importance of love? The importance is so great in a nutshell. “Love teaches you life”. How to live, How to survive with one. “Love can change one’s life or can even destroy it.” It was the last day when we met. I missed every moment from the very beginning and finally gifted my girlfriend who I loved more than me to that boy because I wanted her to see happy for what she wanted. I provided all our photos we clicked together, every memories to her. I provided her my life story that I wrote keeping myself awake many nights. Finally I wished her with some love words and left kissing her on the forehead and finally left her forever. I knew that she loved me much more than the boy. She was hurting that time but I ever wondered why “she took a turn”, “why she broke my dreams”, “why she bulleted and left” even when “I loved her the most” and more than anything. Today I know, there would definitely a day when she will soon realise what she lost, when she will worth my every feeling towards her, when she will value my love the most, but that time I will not be the man as I am today. There would surely a day when we will meet in future, would clash to each other faces. She will love me more than mine’s love.

For me, love did a lot. Love taught a lot to me. It made me strong from inside. It is very beneficial to love one. “Today, I don’t know whether I won or lost but this can only be the love which makes a man alive”. “May be, this was only the love which made me to do, as I did ever”. 

 

………Love is not lost…Its purely a life. Long life………

 

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