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Problem

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Genre: Non-Fiction

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There is a problem... it could grow from smaller into bigger.
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There is a problem... it could grow from smaller into bigger.

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Submitted: January 26, 2017

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Submitted: January 26, 2017

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Problem

 

Problem, problem - For what Am I talking about?
...

 


I really don't know from where to start lights on or off?... TV OFF OR ON?... From where?
there are so much stories playing in my mind... so much scenarios and so many other things are happening in my mind.... right now... right at this right moment...
And the impacts which have happen to me... they also have an role in my mind...

(EACH THING HAS A ROLE IN MY MIND)

 

 

I always wanted silence... silence... silence...

 


I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over


I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over


I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over

 


I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over
I say "Stop"... no shouting... no anger... just saying in a way of meaning it...really over and over and over

 

 

(But that's like a drama)

- They fucking don't listen to me.... when the anger... aggression... come out... they kind of feel safe... they shout... shout
and shout and shout... but they feel some kind of safe...It can be saw from here... they don't feel scared... they feel the 
confidence in themselves... they like it... they want me to shout... they want from me the aggression... What do they want?
...

They want I to break stuff... they want FUCKING CONFLICTS... BUT THAT'S NOT MY WISH..  I HAVE NEVER WISHED Or wanted anything from this above... I jus wanted a father behind me and to guide me... to explain me more about life not to leave me here and since 2000 or more specific 2007 year my father and mother to get divorced after time... some kind emotions again happen between them... they see each other first out then... starts home... when I always see my father. It's like a surprise... it's one great day... I Wish my father to see... and my present comes on the door knock... THis year I more likely played selfish i DIdn't wish something which I need really, really... What I wished was very simple... some kind of a present which could keep me little more bussy when my mother "ANGRY"... - AT GOD KNOWS WHAT... I  FUCKING HATE THAT MOMENT... SHOUTING AND SHOUTING IT'S HELL OF A LOT OF POWER... SO MUCH ANGER... COME ON... IS THAT THE DEVIL?... FROM hell!?

 

 

 

 

 

(I BET THAT YOU DON"T KNOW THIS STORY)
(If you know it... good for you... you kind of know me... a little piece from me... you already have solved and you have in your knowledge...)

 

.....................

 

 

They want more likely I to become the fucking monster... they want I to end up in jail... probably a person so far who is going to go in jail not a with
low IQ on 100%... but with a very high IQ... - I can say that... right!?... RIGHT!? (:)D:D :D)...

 


IT's just some kind of boost for my ego...

 

 

....................

 

OVer and over and over... I just want to point soo many facts so to can easy boost my ego... I don't know really
will this work... which you reading now .... free me... make me again a freeman... FREE WILL...will this work cage somebody else?... Will somebody else become a victim of my mind?.. my mind like that!... my fucking mind likes that!
...

 

 

 

"Friday"

- Tomorrow is friday... and the shouting hasn't end... that's a little bit like a drama... "YES"... I have read a lot of books
and I have spend a lot of time.... on trying to ignore what's around me... Using games as masks... using cyber space as a mask... using
social media... But so far nothing helps.... NOTHINGGGGGGGGGG.... NOTHINGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG FUCKING HELPS... home is a fucking hell.

 

 

"Neighbors"

 

 

So far from here I am going to say it... no need this or that chapter to be a long... or too long... most cases people just fucking ignore what I write. It can be saw and now
I can see and your ignorance... and you fucking do it... You try to doubt in that.... but you do it... you fucking do it... you reject it.... but you are still doing it...
IF you are saying that you are not doing it...!?
(WOw...wow... you start to believe at your lies... which you tell to the other people around you...)

 

 

How about the?

Replies?
- THey did took you a long time to reply... WORK!?
- JUST A FUCKING EXCUSE... what if there isn't such... I know that you are a liar and you are very good one.

- Had some stuff around my family... family business... REALLY!?
- YOu HAVE FUCKING LOWER MY IQ... HAVEN'T YA?... YOU THINK THAT i AM NAIVE AND STUPID AND DUMB... BUT AIN'T FUCKING SO... YOU ARE FUCKING WRONG THAT'S THE TRUTH.

- No time... 
- WHAT IN THE FUCKING WORLD IS THAT TYPE REASON?

....

I know and others... long time... others like not giving a shit... not showing any type of care... saying lie after a lie... and lie and lie and lie and lie... and lie... and lie
You saying that you are "Supportive"!?... What type of support is your ignorance... and silence?...

 

 


Neighbors, have never stopped to judge me... have never stopped looking at me... haven't stopped talking about me... haven't stopped making me as somebody who is "0".

 

 

"Curse"

 

 

The fucking Americans and even and others countries but mainly American people... they fucking don't stop swearing... so far I am ain't American... but I am behaving as such... am I?
...

But science says people which curse more often they are more honest.

 

 

"Change"

 

 

- You are not ready... family problems...

 

I can be that and even I can grow this problems into more bigger and more bigger... but won't this ruin you?
I am kind of ready to change... but this isn't the same and for you... I have spend time and so far I am against the positivity... what's so fucking cool for that thing?
...

Be Positive
Think Positive
Think about money... and they come...

....

That's shit and I ain't gonna hit anymore such type of rubbish (HIT - VIEW)... and it's very funny (Not like "hahahahha"... but something strange and odd)

 

 


"Addiction"

 

 

I am fucking addicted to so much things... I WANT TO REFRESH AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN  AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN  AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN  AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN  AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN  AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN  AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN 
the page until I get answer... it's very stressful... but I do it because I don't have anything else to do...

 


(People are getting crazier and mad... my mother = biatch... is out... and a searching fucking cock... this sound like some kind of paradox.)

(War...war...war... so many people sacrafice their lifes for what... WHAT...WHAT?... FOR YOu FUCKING IGNORANT PERSON!?... you do this on purpose didn't ya...

you want from an explanation and in the same time to get it like magic?... To ignore my messages... there and there... at that site and that site... and in the same time to know "WHY"... more likely

 


"Why"... did I done that?... - So far it's a good question... very good... but how can I give you information in case when I have you just as a friend in two places on SOcial media and on fucking sure... on 100%... I don't know you for real.

 

I haven't met you still in real!

 

.....


There isn't doubt I have spend a lot of time on my computer... that's the new  place which I live... I travel and explore... I have left my friends... I have left a lot of stuff behind... why?... I can't deal with this people... so many problems... over and over and over and over ...AND OVER AND OVER AND CONFLICTS... WHICH GO SO DEEPER AND ONE MOMENT YOU FUCKING


ASK YOURSELF... HOW DID WE MET?... WHAT'S THE REASON TO BE STILL HERE?... WHY AM i STILL HERE?
SO MANY QUESTIONS... AND ONLY CONFLICTS..... 

 

"New WOrld"

The new world you won't fucking like it... It's not a happy story... it's not an "Happy End"... neither that... neither and that... what is it?... It's one very very sad truth... I am ready for it... I am not very an emotional person... since I started
following some codes... Watching horror... watching how do people get hurt... watching how do people die... watching how people get scared...
... watching films at anytime from category horror... Even... to watch how do I get hurt... to repeat it in my mind over and over and over... to start seeing the image... feeling some kind of guilt... having a feeling which can't be explained... I have made a big progress that's for sure. I have went in life status very down... probably '0"... but I am an very social akward person.

 

But we both of us we... know that... pornography fucks with people's mind... thoughts start come out... from each you get more pervert and more and more... and you want to do stuff which ain't fucking good... so far you are fucking out of your mind... But your mind likes it... it sees the picture and it think's it's somebody else doing this... it thinks that you ain't alone... but that's the lie... Who do you see!?

...
Some kind of imaginary friend or even some kind magic you wait somebody to knock on your door like

 

KNOCK...KNOCK...KNOCk...KNOCK... and to say "COME AND FUCK WITH ME"... or "COME AND FUCK ME..."... as if you are female you wait for a male magically to knock on your door if you are male... you wait for female... IT"S LOGICAL!

 

But this won't happen like that... even if you live in cyber space one moment the person who you thought it really liked you will... just go little by little...piece by piece by using silence as advantage against you to ignore you + to go distant and more and more and more and more... 

 

 

We have already saw family problems... there are so much films which show this as first... actors so much get into the role that it goes like it's real... very... very real... When you lose attention you start seeking some... you start becomming a biatch... you start behaving as person who get selfish by each day more and more and more... you feel depressed... you think that there isn't reason to live (IF YOU ASK ME... GO... GO... don't stop die... if you want it... go and suicide...)....

I know you... I know you very well... no need to continue my sentences... but as first you are fucking ignorant... very emotional and even don't know what to do... my internet is kind of slow so the end has came out on it's own legs.

 

 


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