the truth

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Horror  |  House: Booksie Classic
a girl falls in love with a 20 year old and she slowly falls in depression after all the lies he told her and after he beat her and used her she finally tells her story and feeliing

Submitted: January 30, 2017

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I thought joseph thomas  rose was my world  we had been together  for almost six months and i was the happiest girl in the world until  one day being the  nosey girlfriend iam  i like at his phone and  since that day everything  changed  . i guess i'm getting kind of ahead of myself . here's the back ground info  in 2015 i decided to  date a 19 year old online i thought nothing but online love but  one day he  said he was coming to kansas i was excited i was in love and  wanted to feel  loved . so  what do i do being the dumb  14 year old me i give him my address he is  now here in kansas all the way from pennsylvania.  I was excited and didn't look at the facts i guess you could say it was my  first love .  well as  we went on dating he  wanted things i didn't wanna do but then finally got me to  give up a part of me  i slept with joseph and it only  brought me to fall even more in love i thought at that age that sex was thing people in love did to show how much each other mean but  i guess  things changed as i grow up my  thoughts are different know i will never look at love the same , but moving on from my thoughts of love  . i always  thought  joseph  truly loved me and still to this day a year later i wonder if he really did love me but i don't know and never will know . joseph was a man that had  many different sides to him .  as soon as my mother found out i was dating him  she called the cops and  had them talk to both of us we both lied said we were friends but every since that day the cops  were slowly getting proof  to look him away for  many years  . which i didn't know and i decided to run away to be with the love of my life it would only last a couple weeks and the cops would bring me home or to some place to stay for a week until they thought i was safe to go home then i would run again  and see him . i was used  for manying joseph  said he was homeless and had no job  he quit his  job at the  mcdonalds and was trying to  go back to high school . he was trying to go the shawnee mission west but he was to old . he wanted us to be together in high school , he always made me feel safe and loved but until i found out the  truth about him . joseph thomas rose used women for sex and money i wasn't the only girl that he was getting  some from nor was i the only younge girl stealing money and giving her holiday gift cards for him to get clothes and food . he wasn't  some magic  prince charming he was a cheater and used me he wasn't homeless and he  had  any jobs and had a card  full of money and had money i was giving him. After i found out he was cheating i left him . he hit me and made me feel bad he tried to kill himself and  would hit the wall until  his  knuckles would bleed he would blame me . i bagged and  told him i would do anything for it to stop but only said that because i was  scared i later told the cops the truth and they knew everything about joseph. He later  broke into a jcpenny with me on a snowy  winter night because  he was acting homeless he didn't know i knew about the apartment . the cops arrested him but never found me he sent a week in  jail and when he got out he wanted nothing to do with me was dating a different girl . i slowly fell into a deep depression i thought he was the one for me my first love . months had past and i had decided i was gonna get jospeh back it was summer time by now and i ran away again and went to his job and he told me i could stay at his apartment and  that him and his girlfriend were breaking up the  hour walk we talked about the past and all the good times we had and i had forgot all about the pain  and i thought we were in love again . we had made  it to his place and he  had got a call from the cops and they wanted to  search his place . so he had me hide at a store near the apartments . i waited an hour and went back he was gone.  It soon turned to night and i cried myself to sleep thinking what did i do .  i went home the next day and my mother told me joseph was arrest and charged for having sex with a child. It has been a year since i've seen jospeh and we are on a no contact order by the state . i  haven't been the same since joseph and sometimes i  look back at the photos of us but i have realized what does a 20 year old want with a 14 year old and i decided i needed to fix me and not worry or care about him. About 2 weeks ago i had to go to court over jospeh and they  haven't decided if i have to testify against him or not but i probably will and iam scared out my mind . i know the mine i see his face i will slowly  break into a million pieces and not be able to be okay . he always  is able to get in my mind no matter how hard i try and try to replace joseph and move on . i ended up  feeling  like i should have just let him hurt me  and us me  .  i know that sounds bad and i know i don't need to think like that but that how i feel . i deep  down inside still love him but know i can't have him and know that what he had might have  seemed like happiness  but wasn't  it was me trying to  be happy in any way i could . i have decided to stop thinking about him and let my story free . hiding the fact that this happened just makes the nightmares more real . i need to realize that it's the past and that he can't hurt me anymore . but how can i be so strong and happy when i feel like  i have no one in my life that truly loves me and would die for me . i guess i just want to feel a bond in my life again like i can trust someone with  all deep dark secrets.  


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