it must have an happy ending

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
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Submitted: February 03, 2017

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Submitted: February 03, 2017

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Hi iam :me Melinda jerkob Iam 30 years old …. Single woman , no relationships no love The boy i loved all my childhoold traveled all the world and i still here where i have been… Well ,no one requested me for a date… verry boring life All i do is work . home .. Then i didnt relise the time and iam growing up to be an old woman Not a young woman… not beautifull Wait iam not beautiful iam only worthless depressed and ugly Iam 30 years old and no one tell me anything when i pass into streets No one… no one.. When i desided to put off the hidjab i was dreaming about fun ;boyfriend ; parties… But i got no friends no familly its really weird i know.. Thats why iam depressed insane and suisidal I tried to kill my self 13 times and i fond my self in the hospital alone going to my house He was right He was right He was right He dont know me cause i dont exist at all I was transparent all my life All my nights crying… and i often open my empty facebook to see him Well when i was 16 i was missing him to much when i dont see him for 5 4 days But there is long time no see its :6 years…. He traveled he always travel… he is working . he is loving . dating .. livig and smiling hapilly all his Dreams came true and iam diying Iam a writer i write for him for me for life for love I write to forget my self into lies And sometimes to find some lost pieces on my self I dont know where is him ! Where is all people i knew All i know i have the worst life ever Iam a writer .. 5 books 5 millions in the month not that poor … But i cant live happy … nothing good Iam not a bad person maybe you think well iam funny ; iam good iam good… But no one notice it.. He is reading or no Heheh.. i dont think he cares if iam alive.. he said before 15 years i dont know her.. Yes After a while i disided to travel somewhere… calm beautiful romantic place … i would like to find the end of my stories i was so tired for writing anymore « PARIS was the right place Its 9 am iam in a new country New city new people and i hoped i fond new life it have been 20 days there I was somehow calm inside i loved the air And i was going to discos and bars everynight All mens i met wanted sex before but iam a vergin and i sweared even i do in my life i will never do that Whith a random man I was wearing some makeup short dress..boots and a jacket Going to the best place on the world my temple the library Haven books everywhere then i suddenly heard i voice ; ‘ bonsoir , je peux prendre le live que jai commander svp ‘ - Ehhh monsieur le numero svp **** sir the nulber please - -ahh cest sure 0222…***** sure 0222 - -non monsieur le numero de comande heheheh*****no sir the number of the request - -547. Test trop belle..***** 547 you are so beautiful - - euuh mersi ***** euuh thanx - - tu nas rien se soir*** you are busy tonight - -pas vraiment..*** not really - - tu veux macompanier , je connais un restaurant trop chic !**** can ypu go whith me i know a verry chic restaurent - - ok je tapellerai** i will call you - - voici votre livre , ahhh cest un livre arabe**** here is your book, its an arabic book ! - - oui cest ma ecrivaine préfére milinda jerkob je la connais depuis mon enfance, **** its my favourite writer melinda jerkob i know her from my childhoold - - vous etes des amis proche alore !*** you are best friends ! - - hh non , melinda ja ne sais meme pas ou elle est j’attends ces livre pour savoire comment elle est en plus jadore quesque elle ecrit .. see you !! je dois partir..***** no i dont know where she is now i wait for her books to know how is she i am in love whith her words… See you i must leave now ! - Bye.. Wait …. Who is you !! i was runnig then he turned , what happened to me that moment no words to explain , i remembered my childhoold my lost hapiness high school days , and how painfull was his eyes, its was and still toxic to health I knew him from the first second he turned and i tried verry hard to make him think iam not me ! so i was searshing for lies just to runaway i dicided to act like iam also a fan of the same writer so i said in french ! -je lie aussi melinda jakob jadore cest livres vous etes arabe ! algerien !** i also read melinda jakob i love his books ! you are arabic ! algerian ! He was totally shocked he didnt move and talk he was looking at me i was burning inside saying why i make my self in that situations always all i was doing is acting Then i said hello hello !! - Pouvez vous souriez sil vous plais !!*** can you smile please There was two persons fighting , the young melinda ; the lover, the lost that i tried verry hard to hide her saying he forgot all about you, she screaming to me ! go to hell, i didnt speak whith him face to face it was a long hard 17 years do you remember ? can i try one last time you know the worst thing happen is you dont meet again so let me And the charecter my mind created, there was a big fight inside me so the smile have been there and the tear to ! My face left me and showen my mixed feeling I was smiling and a tear fall he turned and stand in that place for 3 minutes It was the most dramatic scence i acted on my life saying - Cest pas polis il yas une jeune fille qui te parle tu tourne come ca ** its not polite there is a girl talking whith you and you turn - He run away and i was standing there for a long time crying then i fall down to the earth crying no one have seen me i was just me the moon and the stars i diceded to comeback to algeria as soon as possible so i did a request and i returned to algeria after a week and all the ideas on the world was passing by my head i was writing whithout any pause - All the day and night i wasnt eating anymore only writing after 20 days the manager of my work called and said come quickly to my office - (What the hell are you writing are you taking drugs look its serious here we are not playing , you are not a 12 years teenager you are 30 !!we are working to gather for 6 tears look at that : stop talking whith any girls you are mine forver ! i love you you writed that30 times in the same page !! if the boss know about that you will be kicked out you know what lets take a break sometime ! take a break… travel somewhere or do anything just dont show me your face for sometime ) Thats the words i heard from my manager i was so lost i wanted death and only the end i tried helium medicaments cutting and i always fail i hated life i hated to breath … I was thinking about going to see him gain the lover inside me was screaming and i havent any idea why he was saying a weird things like smile !! i always have been lost when its about him i dont know what i do I diceded to travel to paris and go to the same library and searsh the same woman and ask her for his number I was so afraid stressed … i went there and she was there also Sudenlly when she saw me she came to me and said - Le beau homme de la derniere fois il vient tous les jours ici 2 fois et il me demande es que ta été ici... Est tu melinda jerkob !!!! ? sil te plis appelle lui … ** the handsome man of the last time he used to come here twice a day and ask me about you !! are you melinda jerkob .. please call him - - vraiment !!!!! tu est sure !! il est entrain de me chercher !!! il as labitude de venir a quelle heure !!*** really !! are you sure !! he is looking for me !!! at what time he used to come ? - 12 de matin et le soire a 8 en ferme a 8h …** 12 am and before we close at 8pm* I will wait for him…i will leave !! why i came here i sould leave… and i decided to leave - -


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