Mind, Body, and Anxiety

I know that the sun shines above me

But the warmth fades before reaching my face

I know that the breeze swirls around me

But the air withers before entering my lungs

My mind is telling me not to lose hope

That there will be an end to the fear

That the anxiety will fade into the past

And that nothing has been changed

My body is telling me that there is no hope

My hands shake, there will be no end to the fear

My eyes blur, the anxiety will never fade into the past

My heart pounds, nothing has been changed

I know that music floats towards me

But the harmony dies before reaching my ears

I know that love flows through me

But the kindness chills before reaching my heart

My mind is telling me not to be anxious

That the anxiety does not have to control me

That there is no reason to be so overwhelming

And that I am loved and supported

My body is telling me I will always be anxious

That the anxiety will always be in control of me

That everything will always be overwhelming

And that I am only loved and supported by myself

Anxiety flows through my mind and body

Never resting, never stopping

Stress holds tightly to my emotions and my thoughts

Never relaxing, never fading

My mind is telling me to confront my anxiety

That I should not make decisions based on fear

That my feelings do not have to be ruled by “what if’s”

And that the anxiety does not define me

My body is telling me to accept my anxiety

That my decisions will always be based on fear

That the “what if’s” protect my feelings

And that my anxiety and I are one and the same

Anxiety resides in my heart and soul

Always present, always painful

Stress remains in my present and future

Always impacting, always effecting

My mind tells me that I can defy my anxiety disorder

That it does not have to impact who I love

That it does not have to tell me what to do

And that it does not have to change who I am

My body tells me that I am my anxiety disorder

That it will always impact who I love

That it will always tell me what to do

That my anxiety disorder is who I am

And that we will forever be one and the same