Arrogant

Reads: 63  | Likes: 0  | Shelves: 0  | Comments: 0

More Details
Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: March 12, 2017

A A A | A A A

Submitted: March 12, 2017

A A A

A A A


-It's weird, frustrating, messy, lonely even..You seem to understand everyone's fears, yet no one seems to get yours. You manage to be everyone's best friend, yet you can't find solace in any of them. But you know what's even worse? Somedays you seem to like it and on the other days it drives you crazy.. Look at them! You realise that maybe you do know them more than they know themselves, but you also know damn well that that glory isn't meant to be shared, it's meant to be kept locked in, in that messy brain of yours. Because if you open your mouth, boy, you'll scare them away.. No one likes to be all figured out, no one likes to be disarmed. It doesnt matter if you're holding only good intentions. Just the idea of being completely exposed, naked, creeps the shit out of everyone.. Except you.. You wanna find solace in someone who can disarm you, who can get you rid of yourself.. So until that person comes, you're disarming everyone else. To please your ego, to love yourself, to chase away that ugly reflection in the mirror. And you know what's funny? it's that you know all of this, yeah you know it, you know damn well that it's not something to be proud of. But you like it anyway, you keep liking it to nourrish that narcisism.. That attracts them, and you need them, because if they go, you'll be left with nothing.. You get nourrished of their fears, since yours are too ugly to acknowledge.. And they're not to be fixed, your fears, because all the words are overrated to you, you used them to heal others and you found in each one of them the cracks that made them fall apart.. So you need someone, to outrate you, and you're waiting and you hate waiting. You wanna take controle over everything. Because that's how you do it, You controle everything. You hate yourself, but you're a narcissistic son of a bitch. How's that even possible? you're insane. But insane isn't something you're capable of acknowledging in one's self.. You're beyond insane, it's addictive.. You're becoming addicted to who you are! you're in love with the idea of who you are, so you're looking for yourself in someone else. They see themselves in you and you wanna see yourself in someone else. You lost your image, you forgot it.. But what if you find that someone? will they be seeing themselves in you? No, will they be seeing themselves EXCLUSIVELY, or will they be another figure yu'll add to your collection? will you let them disarm you? your unconsciousness is too strong to controle.. you're not sure, you don't know, and you won't know. For now you're worth the fears of others. So the day they outcome their fears, you'll detach from them and "rebelote".. So yeah, it's frustrating, weird, messy and mostly lonely!


© Copyright 2017 machine_gun. All rights reserved.

Add Your Comments:

Booksie 2017-2018 Short Story Contest

Booksie Popular Content

Other Content by machine_gun

Rebellious

Miscellaneous / Other

Arrogant

Miscellaneous / Other

Popular Tags