My Life with God:This is My Story

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My Life with God is about growing up in a Christian home and the experience of a young child who was brought to church to be baptized. This young child as she grows older through the years finds out how important it is to live a Godly Life and she continues to learn what it is like having God in her life. Follow her through the years as her life began as a small child and grew into a beautiful young woman. Embracing God's words and sacrament, as she discovers her life as a blessing.. (note this is a revised version). Read the revised version, Life with God: This is My Story.

Submitted: March 22, 2017

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God in my Life

Our God is undeniably a God of life. He has shown us this in His creation, when he created man and woman, and gave them the gift of life.  God gave me the gift of life when I entered the world. on a cold day in November. It was an exciting time but, also frightening. I was in a strange new place, listening to all the new things I saw and the sounds I heard. Looking at mother for comfort and security, and wanting my father’s strength to protect me. During the first week of my life I was brought to the church to receive Jesus Christ as my Savior and becoming a child of God. I was exactly a week old when I was baptized. I didn’t understand why I was being baptized or what that meant exactly. My mother chose two special people, my sponsors, to speak on my behalf.

Growing up in a Christian environment would help me understand how God was a part of my life.  My family and I attended church every Sunday. If we missed church it was only because I was sick or my family and I were on vacation. Since I was the oldest I was expected to be a good role model for my sisters. I attended Sunday school, as most of us had done during our childhood. I attended a Christian school, where I received a religious education, including two years of Confirmation. Two years of memorizing, reciting, learning everything from the Ten Commandments, to learning the books of the Bible, memorizing sixteen random bible verses called, “sweet sixteen” and learning the importance of prayer. At the end of my two years, my classmates and I sat before the congregation as our pastor “fired” questions at us. Each one of my classmates were given two or three questions regarding everything we had learned.  I was so nervous, that I threw up that morning, hoping I didn’t make a fool of myself. You never knew what question the pastor was going to ask you. Although, I felt confident, still feeling nervous I could do this with the Help of God.  As the microphone came my way I knew I was next. Here came the pastor, stopped right in from of me, microphone ready. Tue question was “how do you baptize a baby inside an ____________?  Can you believe it? The easiest question and I knew the answer. Well, dear readers, my nerves got the best of me because, I gave the wrong answer. How embarrassing!  I prayed on the way to church that I would answer my questions correctly and asked God to calm my nerves so I don’t make fool of myself.  God doesn’t always answer prayers in the way we want Him to. I guess you could say I was lucky because the pastor gave me a second chance and asked me the same question again. I answered correctly the second time.  So, I guess you could say, God did answer my prayer that morning but, not the way I wanted my prayer to be answered. It was in God’s. own way.  Looking back on that day I understood what having God in my life and . . .

After I graduated from the eighth grade, and during the time of my ninth-grade year the only religion I received was attending church attending Sunday school and attending Bible Study once with my parents. Junior High was frightening, more like terrifying. Trying to make new friends and fit in with the crowd was harder than I thought.  I was scared but I knew God was in my life, and He gave me the confidence I needed to make new friends. As I started high school, once again I was trying to fit in the crowd. Making friends in high school was even more terrifying than junior high. I was reminded to beware of Satan’s schemes. After graduating from high school, I started working, a number of odd jobs. There was Ponderosa, where I waited tables. Then I worked at TOPS Supermarket as a cashier. I worked at BJ’s, Raintree Bar & Grill, Viola Sub shop, Summit Park Movie Theater, and the list goes on from there.l

This was also a challenging time in my life, because I didn’t quite live a Godly life. I experienced things that I knew were wrong, but did them anyway so I could once again “fit in with the crowd.” I still let people influence me even in my early twenties, and looking back I wish I could have turn the hands of time, and “fix” all my wrong doings, but all I could do was ask God for forgiveness. I was doing a lot of that, asking God to forgive me and repent of my sins. Satan once again was fighting for me to commit these sins while God was fighting for me to deliver me from the evil one. God reminds us in His Word to beware of Satan’s schemes.  Don’t let him plant those seeds of doubt in your head. God instead will arm us with the sword, the Word of God, to stand against Satan. As we grow to know God’s truth we become stronger to stand against it in the powerful name of Jesus. He never leaves us to defend ourselves in a dark world, but He is constantly fighting for us. Praying God’s words is a powerful weapon against the forces of evil. Satan cannot hurt me if I trust God and keep praying to Him. Prayer is certainly a powerful weapon against Satan, because I know that I be protected and kept safe against Satan.

I begin to ask God to help me take a leap of faith, still my troubled heart and calm my wayward mind. I must give Him all my anxieties and fears I still feel inside, and I release them all to Him. I must do this to trust God, believe in Him, and have faith that He will answer all my prayers. Yet, the question remains is not whether God will answer my prayers, but do I have faith, trusting in Him that He will answer my prayers. I know understand a little bit more what it means to have God in my life, because without Him, I would be another lost soul allowing Satan into my life. God has proven to me every time I start to doubt His existence, reminding me He is always in my life no matter what difficulties of life may bring me. He makes this clear when I “learn to pray about everything. Give thanks to God as you ask Him for what you need. The peace of God is much greater than the human mind can understand. This peace will keep your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus.” In Philippians 4:19 He tells us this, “and my God will give you everything you need because of His great riches in Christ Jesus.”

So, I leave you with this thought for your own reflection bring your concerns, your anxieties and fears, and remember to thank Him for all that he has done for you. God will answer every prayer brought before Him. You only need to ask.

 

I am a Sinner

Yes, I am a sinner! We are all sinners, none of us live a “perfect life.” Only His Son, Jesus is perfect. What does God say about being a sinner? He tells us we must repent our sins before we can receive forgiveness. He tells us before we are to be forgiven, we must turn to His Son, Jesus Christ, who paid the price for me and washed all my sins away.  Jesus pays the ultimate sacrifice to cleanse us from all unrighteousness, to wash away all our sins and inequities. Jesus does all this so we can have eternal life. We receive God’s gifts in Christ with awe, praise and thanksgiving. He who clothes the birds of the air and the flowers of the field also arrays us with the robe of righteousness through His Son and takes care of our daily needs as well. “He saved us not because of works done by us in righteousness, but per his own mercy by the washing of regeneration and renewal of the Holy Spirit.” I would like my readers to know, I found this prayer online and only researched where this prayer originated. Yet, I found this prayer of Salvation to be uplifting and refreshing. This is only the beginning and the Prayer of Salvation beings with Faith to God. When we pray, we are letting God know we believe His Word is true. God’s Word tells us, “without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him.” It is about confessing our sin. When we pray, admit we’ve sinned. “For all have sinned and fell short of the Glory of God.” Jesus Christ is the only human who ever lived without sin. “For He made Him who knew no sin to be sin for us, that we might become the righteousness of God in Him.”It is professing Faith in Christ as Savior and Lord. We acknowledge faith in Him as God agreeing with the Apostle John. “In the beginning was the word and the word was with God, and the word was God. All things were made through Him, and without Him nothing was made that was made.”It tells us that your eternal salvation is secure. “That if you confess with your mouth to the Lord Jesus and believe in your heart that God has raised Him from the dead you will be saved.” I would like to share the Prayer of Salvation to all my readers, and my hope is to feel uplifted and found it to be meaningful in your life. My hope is that because we are all sinners in the eyes of God, and if we repent, He will forgive us all our sins.

The Prayer of Salvation

Dear God in heaven, I come to you in the name of Jesus. I acknowledge to You that I am a sinner, and I am sorry for my sins and the life that I have lived; I need your forgiveness. I believe that your only begotten Son Jesus Christ shed His precious blood on the cross at Calvary and died for my sins, and I am now willing to turn from my sin. You said in Your Holy Word, that if we confess to the Lord our God and believe in our hearts that God raised Jesus from the dead, we shall be saved. Right now, I confess Jesus as the Lord of my soul. With my heart, I believe that God raised Jesus from the dead. I know that Jesus Christ is my Savior.

 

Fear

Fear, an unpleasant often strong emotion caused by expectation, awareness of danger. Fear, to have a reverent awe of God. What do you fear? If you made a list of things you fear the most would you and I have a similar list? Would you put God on that same list? I have the fear of failure. I have had this fear since I’ve lived with parents. I think growing up in a Christian environment it always seemed difficult to live up to my parent’s expectations. I was expected to be a good Christian role model, for my two younger siblings. I have the fear of being a disappointment to my father, feeling as though I have failed him in so many ways. I have tried all my life to be a good daughter, someone he could be proud to call me his daughter, brag to his friends and family just how proud he was my accomplishments. My father would disagree if he ever knew this was I felt.I have the fear of my father dying, and how I will handle issues that arise. I have come to depend on my father since my mother passed away. Just knowing he is still here to give sound advice, always there for me when I need him the most.I had that same fear of my mother dying from cancer, and watching her slowly take her last breath. How was I going to deal with the pain I was about to endure.?This would be the most stressful time in my life. Having to watch my mother slowly dying, calling both my sister’s and come say their goodbyes, having a house full of relatives in and out of my home. Making the decision to send my daughter to school the day her grandmother passed away. Wondering if I made the right decision.There were so many questions that needed answers and so many decisions to make, but it didn’t stop there. I was still student teaching, finishing all my requirements for graduation. I was still fighting with my soon to be ex-husband over our divorce because, he was trying hard to “throw me under the bus,” and not give me what was entitled for me to have. Yes, even dealing with my Parkinson’s on top of everything else was enough stress for me. But, even when I first heard the news of being diagnosed with Parkinson’s and not quite understanding how I could have Parkinson’s disease. The fear I had of handling this disease alone, terrified me. I had so many questions and so few answers. I had the fear of the unknown. All I knew was this was a disease that would get worse over time and there was no cure. Through all my trials I faced, God was there the whole entire time, pulling me through all the difficulties I had to face. He never let me go through it alone. God speaks to us, and reminds us that the gift of faith is the key. We can have that gift, but, we must trust Him. With the gift of faith, God governs our lives, leading us in grace and providing for us in good times and bad. “now faith is being sure of what we hope for, and is being sure of what we can’t see.” “and without faith it is impossible to please God, because anyone who comes to him must believe that he exists and that he rewards those who earnestly seek him.”  It may well seem to us, dear readers, we feel at times, that our fears rule the day. But our God is greater, He will see us through. 

 


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