My Grandad's Losing Battle

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

This is a similar poem i have written "My Grandma's losing battle- cancer" which is placed on both this page and on another. This one will be focused on the loss of my grandfather and the effects it has had on me

Grandad's Losing Battle-

The day i lost you was the day i knew,
Life was never going to be the same again.
My heart had been plunged out of my body
When they told me it was lukemia,
They said there was nothing they could do.

We had to be patient, it was the only thing we could do.
As the nights drew in the more sick you become,
The more i couldn't stand to look at you,
To see the pain written on your face.

I knew i was going to lose you,
But i wasn't ready to say good bye.
Because saying goodbye meant forever,
And that's something i couldn't do.

I sat beside you as you laid in bed,
Slowly watching you die as the days went by.
Day by day and night by night,
Before you eventually slipped away into the light.

We watched you die as we held your hand,
I cried for hours and hours on end.
I begged that i could hug you,
To  see you one last time
But that will never happen because you died.

I would see you in my dreams but you would disappear,As soon as i would call your name,
Or simply came near.

I'm Not the same person that i used to be,
Now i stare at your photos endlessly.
My heart began to break more every day that went by,Realising you were never going to come back into my life.
My love for you was unbearable i wish i never lost you,And with each day that passes by the more i seem to miss you.

 

It doesn't feel the same anymore walking inside your house,
Knowing you are no longer there,
That your presents will be seen no more.
I always look over at your chair and the memories come flooding back,We all feel each others heart breaks and we can all see it.

I wish you could be here with me,
As you hold my hand in mercy,

I only want one more day just to say I'm sorry.
I never told you that i loved you,
I miss you more and more each day 

Granda, i love you! x


Submitted: May 17, 2017

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Doria sanders

Awww, this is so lovely. It's hard reading without crying, I know the feeling i lost my grandpa to cancer in 2016. Anyways i hope things get easier for you

Wed, May 17th, 2017 2:12pm

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Thank you for taking the time to come and read my work. I'm sorry to hear that your grandpa died to cancer in 2016,it is never a pleasant feeling and the pain never goes away and never becomes easier, As time has went by i feel like it's softened a little but all the emotions and hurt is all still there. I not only wanted to write this because it was what i was feeling at the time but i also wanted to be able to connect with some of the readers because i know so many other people have gone through this or will have to go through this. ~Anniebirnie~

Fri, August 4th, 2017 5:31am

Doria sanders

You're very welcome.

Fri, August 4th, 2017 4:20pm

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