In The Circle Of Reason

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taken from my book, "Must You Find Out?"

Submitted: May 27, 2017

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In The Circle Of Reason

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Caught off guard

Feel like I've been left in the dumpster

I know I mean noting to you

I just know it

I haven't gotten a reply since Wednesday

And you're so far away

It just hurts ev'ryday

I guess it'll go back to being like it was before

Where we only knew each other at work

Hell if I know if you really gave a damn

__back then either

My eager heart can't grasp the concept

__of any idea of us tossed at it

So I struggle and I weep

I'm in too deep

Won't somebody save me?

I've lost you too soon

I'm fuckin' doomed

I'd only be able to love some one new

__if I got over you

But how do I do that

__when I completely love you?

A shot in the dark

Love is too hard

I feel like I've been bullshitted

I've taken things too far

So I guess that's my fault

I know no things to coincide

I've lost you this time

This isn't right

But you can't be mine

Are you telling me "goodbye"?

I've lost thee ability

To move on with my life

Because without you in it

It's just full of lacking

Still

__I must be whole without you

I can't let somebody else be

__thee other half of me

Because then I would depend on you

And dependence is never good

I've lost you to your husband

Because I am not him

But that's just life

Right?

No

That's just my life

For some bullshit reason

As my intentions blow up in my face

I lose you all the way

You weren't game to be my lady

And now I have to pay the price

__for loving you

A shocking pain that tears me up inside

I can't let you know I'm dying inside

Luck never changes

It's always this way

When the plummeting stars

__fall from up above

I'll know no way in Hell

__to escape being without you anymore

All's I got is space to explain

My overblown intentions

Spark no meaning in a room I dwell in

Looking for the reasons

__of why God is doing this to me

____still

Even after I've done all I can

__to do this right

I'm chasing a star too bright

__to want anything to do with me

Why I've become this guy

__who doesn't deserve you

____does not come as a surprise to me

It's like this fo ev'ry other guy

__who's not your husband

____who foolish enough like me

______to chase after you

Happy endings don't exist

Happy endings are for kids

I shouldn't give a fuck who wins

I'd rather surrender than try

I'm supposed to anyways

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05-27-'17

D. L. Cannon


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