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She once had the title and the fame. Good friends she could talk to when she needed the most. A partner who'd been a part of her life. The band she loved the most. Everything's perfect.
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Summary

She once had the title and the fame. Good friends she could talk to when she needed the most. A partner who'd been a part of her life. The band she loved the most. Everything's perfect.

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Submitted: June 03, 2017

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December 27th, 2016

Waking up, hearing the sound coming from my phone. This is really happening. It's real. All of these. After how many years of striving hard for what I want. And now, what I want are all here. And they're real. I'm living in an apartment but I'm living alone. I left our house because I wanted to pursue my dream. I need to go here. And now I'm living in it. The dream I thought that would never happen. Everything's going well and right. I just couldn't think of this reality. Is this real or just another part of a long dream? If this is, please wake me up. No. I'm already awake. And I can't believe it really happened. I was fifteen when I realized that I might not be for this and almost gave up. That was the time when I stopped saying, "I want to be a part of a band. I want to be with people who share the same interests with me. And mostly, I want to be with them, those who I'd treat as sisters. I really am looking forward on meeting them." I almost stopped believing that someday it might happen. I almost stopped writing, too. Well, writing is everything to me.. but there were just some reasons why I decided to stop doing it. I stopped for a while. But I didn't stop for life. My mother wanted to stop me, but writing makes me feel comfortable and I wrote my words down through it, the words I left being unsaid, all of them are in my books. And yes, I didn't let my mom to stop what I was doing. Think of me as a stubborn lady now, I don't care though. But maybe I am. I'm being stubborn enough when it comes to the things I want to achieve. Now I'm 16. High schooler who's studying in a university while working on my books-to-publish, plus, doing stuff together with my band. It's quite tiring. But I get used to it. It's what I really want and I'm happy about it, anyway.

Before these things happened, I was a girl who had a "not so easy" life. I had too many things to deal with. At house, there's my mom who thought I was just a stress-giver when I was trying my hardest to get what I want and to live a life that I was dreaming for so long. At school, I had to deal with mean people around who judged me and kept on laughing at me. I lost my bestfriend who used to be there whenever I needed a hug. My boyfriend left, saying there's someone out there who he liked. It was hard to be me, actually. There were still a lot of things I haven't mentioned. I got into the "suicidal" part of my life, but no one listened to me. Even my bestfriend felt embarrassed to be with me. All I got was their judgments. I didn't know how to deal with them and so I always made excuses so that I couldn't hear them. I used music, I put my headphones on all the time, well, except for when the teacher's there. I ignored their words because their words would just break me even more. My life was ridiculous. No one heard my voice. No one hugged me. No one stayed by my side to listen. No one. I got no one. I thought, it's better to be cold and a strong person so you won't be judged because they wouldn't care if you're shattered anyway. And now I'm done with all of it. This is me. And this is my silly life. I hope you could see and hear more of it.
 
-Terinoru Akemi


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