Divided

Divided…

We are all chameleons of sorts; changing our colors for the setting we find ourselves in at any particular moment. My career forces me to be extroverted and animated. I can model the usage of language and teach social skills with my students. I meticulously plan for each student, record data and monitor their behaviors simultaneously. I have always believed that patience and humor will achieve results much faster than criticism. I despise the dark sarcasm often used to control children; it’s a sign of desperation in my eyes.

When at home; I do not speak. I run and walk obsessively because it calms my cells. I do what I want; when I want and that is a freedom I have worked hard and long for. I do not care for the company of most people and find myself lonely in most group activities. I make endless lists and like the feeling of completion when all of the tasks are accomplished. I write to my grown son and tell him to keep up the faith; even though I had lost mine long ago.