Middle Aged, Mind Raged

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This is a poem about overcoming hardships and life and forgiving oneself.

Submitted: June 12, 2017

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Middle Aged

 

Mind Raged

 

And just a little bit crazed

 

 As a youth

 

I knew and understood the truth

 

The ones who pretend the most to care

 

Are the ones who won’t be there

 

They say you can call me anytime

 

I learned a long time ago pay that no mind

 

It’s not about you, it’s about them

 

They want to look better than the ones they condemn

 

Write a check for respect

 

But heart be so cold

 

You wonder if they even have a soul

 

As a kid I thought deep

 

Had to block out the things that kept me from falling asleep

 

Like seeing my father strike my mother

 

And feed alcohol to my brother

 

Til he was so drunk he couldn’t stand

 

Telling him to handle it and be a man

 

Grew up surrounded by brainwashing and confusion

 

Forced to play a part of the illusion

 

Thank GOD I didn’t break

 

But it taught me to never respect anything fake

 

It didn’t make me bitter

 

And having less than didn’t make me a quitter

 

Always had big dreams

 

But no one cared to hear them it seemed

 

No encouragement

 

Led to complete discouragement

 

Discovered that lack of self-worth

 

Will make you feel lower than dirt

 

Will make you seek out things you aren’t ready to handle

 

Grow you up loose like a worn sandal

 

Then who’s going to want what you don’t want

 

Then who’ll be running from a past that’s determined to haunt

 

It doesn’t go away as you age

 

You grow up full of rage

 

Yet you are unfazed

 

Because you are amazed

 

That after all you’ve been thru you aren’t totally crazed

 

Took you half of your life to forgive yourself

 

For the cards in your hands that life had already dealt

 

You may refuse to be a victim but you aren’t to blame

 

For being a pawn in life’s unfair game

 

Hold your head up even if others feel you aren’t worth it

 

Live life happy even if they feel you don’t deserve it

 

The past doesn’t define the present

 

And seek only what you need-  GOD’s consent

 


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