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Rambling yet again... Sad. Same old same old.

Submitted: July 03, 2017

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Submitted: July 03, 2017



-I'm gonna be rambling a bit. Not very structured-

I've been really happy recently. Motivated and energetic, that kind of happy that makes you smile so hard your face aches. Yet here I am again, spiraling down into another depressive episode. 

I'm so frustrated. I try so FUCKING hard for other people. I'm so accommodating and care so much for other people, yet what do I get back? Nowhere near the respect and courtesy I give to others. Do people even notice how hard I try for them? I doubt it. 

At this point, I'm exhausted. I don't feel up to socializing. Eating clean and exercising? I guess that's going out the window for now. I'm even too tired to carry out all of my OCD rituals. Is being too tired to be mentally ill a thing? 

Can't even talk to anyone about all this because I'm afraid of burdening them. I don't know what type of day they're having! I wouldn't want to worsen their day. So here I am, writing. Writing yet another pathetic few paragraphs about how fucking terrible I feel, yeah, I know. Gets old. It gets old to me, too.



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