Blood on Her Hands

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Young Adult  |  House: Booksie Classic
Taylor loved her sister, she did. But living with her mental illness wasn't easy.
Actually, it was never easy.
Blood on her hands, shows the difficulties and some of the everyday challenges that family members deal with while living with someone who is suffering from a mental illness. It reflects on the childhood struggles that each sister faced, and the strong feeling of sibling bonds.
After a tragic event, ans some horrible scares, Taylor learns that she has some dark buried feelings that need to be let out. Blood on her hands teaches forgiveness and patience in all aspects of life.

Table of Contents

It's Nice to See You Too, Sis.

Submitted: July 06, 2017

I was exhausted. I had a long day at work. My feet felt like they were going to crack if I stood on them any longer and my back was achin... Read Chapter

Compliments

Submitted: July 06, 2017

“Taylor, could you come help your father with the dishes?” It was my mom. She yelled loud enough to carry past the closed door ... Read Chapter

I Just Felt Sad

Submitted: July 06, 2017

The rest of the Macaroni went uneaten.  I was sitting on my loveseat on one side of the room watching Sydney. My sister was on t... Read Chapter

Helping Out

Submitted: July 07, 2017

My mom was calling for my again, but this time it wasn’t to help with the dishes. It was to help with Sydney. My mom stopped me at ... Read Chapter

I wiped off every Kiss

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Sydney had been staying at my small apartment a week now and I was still not used to it. Every time I turned the corner and ran into Sydn... Read Chapter

Tickle Torture

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I knocked on Sydney’s door and then walked in, not waiting for a response because I knew there wouldn’t be one.  Any time my m... Read Chapter

I didn't Laugh

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I opened the front door to my apartment.  I had another long day at work. I walked over to my couch plopped down hard and put my f... Read Chapter

Family Dinner

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Family dinner. The time where we tried to be normal. What is normal anyway? I looked across the table at my dad. He was looking at Sy... Read Chapter

Why are you here?

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I had barley spoken with Sydney as another week went by. I knew I needed to. I didn’t have enough money to host someone if they weren... Read Chapter

You're still a kid too

Submitted: July 07, 2017

School was my safe place. It always had been. I loved learning. Even when I was in kindergarten my mom said she had a hard time getting m... Read Chapter

I tried

Submitted: July 07, 2017

The next morning when I saw Sydney she had sideways cuts all up one of her arms. I winced. Maybe I was a horrible sister, but I didn’t ... Read Chapter

Anything for you Sis

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I had tons of homework from school and a headache on top of it. I didn’t mind having all the homework actually. It was a good distracti... Read Chapter

Tired of hurting

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I went through the next few weeks in auto pilot.  I went to work, came home, watched Netflix, read some of my favorite books, and ... Read Chapter

I need this to happen

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I was sick. And I hated being sick more than the average kid because while other kids would even fake being sick to avoid going to scho... Read Chapter

Anything for you Lisa

Submitted: July 07, 2017

It was October. And even though my car was a piece of crap I was very grateful that I had it. It was getting slightly too chilly in the m... Read Chapter

Strange Dinner

Submitted: July 07, 2017

The day I broke down, when my mom got home from work, I heard my dad say that he needed to talk to her. I was filled with hope that m... Read Chapter

There was No One

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I was at home, trying not to fall asleep as I worked on a paper for my History class. It was such an interesting subject and I hated that... Read Chapter

Don't Let This Control You

Submitted: July 07, 2017

“Wait up Tay!” I recognized the voice of my best friend Talia and spun around to see her running to catch up to me. “Jeez Tay, ... Read Chapter

Grateful

Submitted: July 07, 2017

The battery on my car was dead. After work that day Lisa gave me a ride home and she jump started my car. I was beyond relieved that that... Read Chapter

Just One Of Them

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Later that night I was able to put Talia’s advice to the test. Sydney had locked herself in her room and from the sound of things, was ... Read Chapter

She was Back

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I had gone to school in a slightly depressed mood. I wasn’t able to finish my paper by the time class started and for the first time in... Read Chapter

Things are going to get better

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I was right. Things were going to be different. The hospital trip led to a series of events. None of them pleasant. Doctors questioned Sy... Read Chapter

Promises

Submitted: July 07, 2017

What. The. Hell.  Sydney was in my house.  Before I had a chance to say anything Sydney said, “Taylor, listen, I messe... Read Chapter

Vacation

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I didn’t go to school again the next day. This was the day that we were dropping Sydney off at the mental institution.  My mom w... Read Chapter

Still Mad

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I was prepared for the worst when I got home. But didn’t need to be. When I walked inside everything was just how I left it. Sydney... Read Chapter

I don't Promise what I can't keep

Submitted: July 07, 2017

The clinic was clean and smelled like vanilla. It was larger than I had expected. I wasn’t really sure what I was expecting, but it was... Read Chapter

Nathan

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I couldn’t concentrate at school. And I hated it. I hated that I wasn’t able to concentrate on my life I was trying to build for myse... Read Chapter

The Next Day

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I went back to school the next day. I felt terrible for not texting Talia back and knew that there would be hell to pay when I saw her. I... Read Chapter

Should Have Stayed In Class

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I had a smile on when I walked in the door. I had thought for a second about going back into class with Nathan, but knew that it would be... Read Chapter

Trying

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Things were different at home. It was quiet. All the time. There was no yelling, no cursing, or sounds of things breaking. My dad had... Read Chapter

Bacon Negotiations

Submitted: July 07, 2017

It was one of the rare days when I could sleep in. Lisa had given me today off because she felt bad working me this much and thought I co... Read Chapter

Moving

Submitted: July 07, 2017

“They must have my on some pretty strong meds.” Talia said a little louder than I would have liked.  We were eating spaghetti ... Read Chapter

Beautiful

Submitted: July 07, 2017

It surprised I that didn’t actually hate having Sydney around. She stuck to her promise and made bacon every morning. Something I could... Read Chapter

Gone

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Talia was gone. And I was devastated. The two weeks before she left we spent every second we could together. I kept telling her there... Read Chapter

Date Night

Submitted: July 07, 2017

“This is a really nice place.” I said. “I can see why it would have been too busy on the weekend.” “That’s why I knew it ... Read Chapter

Complimented

Submitted: July 07, 2017

The next few weeks were not fun. I sat alone at lunch and texted Talia. She told me that Texas wasn’t all that bad, but she missed he... Read Chapter

Drinking?

Submitted: July 07, 2017

My apartment smelled like alcohol.  Did Sydney drink while I was out? Sydney was asleep on the couch. I got up close to my mouth a... Read Chapter

Drunk Mother

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Summer was here. And I had been working almost every day at a summer tutor program for underprivileged kids. And on the days I wasn’t... Read Chapter

Hidden Feelings

Submitted: July 07, 2017

My nose and ears had gotten used to waking up to the smells and sounds of bacon.  But this morning was quiet. I got out of bed and... Read Chapter

As long as your're Happy

Submitted: July 07, 2017

We were headed to pick Sydney up from the institution and bring her home.  I was mixed with excitement and apprehension. I had... Read Chapter

Tentative Job

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I had no idea where Sydney went. But I knew that I needed to go to work. I decided that if she wasn’t here when I got back from work ... Read Chapter

I always have

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Having Sydney back home was amazingly easy for me to adjust to.  Especially because Sydney was like a whole different person from ... Read Chapter

Story Time

Submitted: July 07, 2017

After work, I went back to my house to find Sydney sitting on the couch with her head in her hands. “Sydney! Are you okay?” “... Read Chapter

We'll Be Fine

Submitted: July 07, 2017

The days went on and it seemed that everyone was getting along alright.  Sydney and I had started school again. Sydney went to a p... Read Chapter

Disbelief

Submitted: July 07, 2017

“I don’t believe you.”  “I didn’t ask you to believe me. I just need you to listen.” Sydney was looking at the groun... Read Chapter

I Made It

Submitted: July 07, 2017

After my Mom’s death, things went downhill for me. I was depressed and confused. I started missing a lot of school and my grades suff... Read Chapter

I Just Am

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Sydney and I both agreed to go visit Dad this weekend. In the meantime, I had told Sydney about the job offer from Lisa and Sydney was ... Read Chapter

We were Always Sisters

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Sydney had gone in for the interview and Lisa hired her on the spot. She told me at work that night that she thought she had a lovely per... Read Chapter

Acting Like Children

Submitted: July 07, 2017

“Hey Miss Taylor.” Nathan greeted me as I sat down next to him. “How was work?” I was still in my uniform. I couldn’t wait ... Read Chapter

Blood On My Hands

Submitted: July 07, 2017

“So you have another date?” Sydney asked. Sydney was standing next to me as I attempted to curl my hair without Sydney’s help. ... Read Chapter

It will Be Okay

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Nathan insisted on staying at the hospital while I was there being fixed up.  I had a bruised rib and had a couple stitches by my ... Read Chapter

Goodnight Miss Taylor

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I stepped into the warm water. I had to be careful with my face in the shower and the rest of the cuts on my body stung, but it felt go... Read Chapter

Breaking Down to Dad

Submitted: July 07, 2017

I woke up slowly, turned carefully and looked at the clock by Nathan’s bed, and then gasped.  “Nathan!” I called. I flung my... Read Chapter

The Pain was Worth It

Submitted: July 07, 2017

While I waited Nathan took me back to my apartment to help me clean.  He insisted on doing most of the work. I would try and scr... Read Chapter

Just What I Needed

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Nathan had insisted on driving me to the hospital to meet my Dad.  He pulled up in his clunky car and waved at me.  I got o... Read Chapter

Another Promise

Submitted: July 07, 2017

The ride was long and silent, Sydney cried some more and I tried to comfort her but it seemed to make it worse. | When we got there, sh... Read Chapter

Lucky Girl

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Things went back to normal. If you can call anything normal. Like I used to think at my family dinners, ‘what is normal anyway?’ ... Read Chapter

Never Again

Submitted: July 07, 2017

It was so nice to be back into a regular routine. Nathan and I had been spending every spare second we had with each other.  W... Read Chapter

A New Moment

Submitted: July 07, 2017

Nathan walked me out of class to my car. “So I was thinking, movie night tonight?”  “Sounds fun. Can we make bacon?” H... Read Chapter