Super Paranoiac

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Paranoia is a thought process believed to be heavily influenced by anxiety or fear, often to the point of delusion and irrationality. Paranoid thinking typically includes persecutory, or beliefs of conspiracy concerning a perceived threat towards oneself. Jodie was paranoiac...

Submitted: August 05, 2017

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Her worst nightmare had a name: Hannibal Lecter, a former psychiatrist and incarcerated cannibalistic serial killer she saw on television. "The Silence of the Lambs" is daunting when the wolf roams at night. She had nightmares involving Hannibal. She could hear him; he was talking to her; he even knew her name. How was it possible, as she only knew him from the documentary Serial Killers: The Real Life Hannibal Lecters. She even pretended she received a phone call from him. She could even tell from where he was calling: from an airport in Bimini.

When she turned 35 years old, she realized many women her age were married, divorced or in an informal relationship. She had been all her life a blue flower, dreaming of hope and the beauty of things. As she had never been in a romantic relationship, her family teased her about it, calling her a baby. When she had enough of it, she would shout to them:

"Stop Calling Me Baby!"

She spent so much time watching romantic movies, and reading romantic novels that she forgot to get a real relationship. Her favorite were "Napoleon and Samantha", and "Anna and the King". She dreamt at night that Napoleon and the King would fall in love with her and marry her instead of Samantha and Anna. "It Was a Wonderful Life", but it was not real. Most of the time in this world, wonderful is not real.

She went for "A Very Long Engagement" with therapy, to overcome her paranoia cause it was very destructive. Her parents worried so much about her. She was the only child who was not married, had no children, and still lived at home. What will happen to her when her parents are gone? She was often struck with panic attacks. When it happened during therapy, her psychiatrist told her:

"Being understood is not the most essential thing in life." "Normal is not something to aspire to, it's something to get away from."

Jodie's behavior was abnormal, nobody could really understand how she felt. But her therapist showed her that being "different" and misunderstood was not necessarily bad. He just wanted to make her feel better. He prescribed her some pills cause he couldn't come with anything better. He had no idea what was the cure for Jodie's problem.

"It's an interesting combination: Having a great fear of being alone, and having a desperate need for solitude and the solitary experience."

Her therapist noticed emotionally unstable and sick people where always torn apart between contradictions that confused them and created internal conflicts.

"That's always been a tug of war for me." Said Jodie.

Her answer confirmed what her therapist thought about this "contradiction" theory.

"I'd always need a creative outlet. But sometimes, I do fantasize what my life would be like if I weren't famous."

She believed she was famous cause she was married with Napoleon and the King at the same time. An interesting contradiction that puzzled her therapist.

Tired to change her prescription and to try so many different medications over the years (Xanax, Librium, Klonopin, Valium, Ativan, Clozapine, Olanzapine, Risperidone, Zotepine, Sertindole, Amisulpride, Quetiapine, and Paliperidone), her therapist decided to prescribe her sleeping pills.

"In the end, winning is sleeping better."

It didn't cure her, but it worked better than all the other pills.

When her parents died unexpectedly on a "Freaky Friday" due to a "Kansas City Bomber" overtaken by terrorists, who dropped a bomb by accident on the wrong spot; she decided to adopt "One Little Indian" to become her new family. And THIS cured her. Taking care of this little orphan worked better than all the pills, included the sleeping pills.

"So, goodnight Jodie. Hopefully you never heard about Jack the Ripper. At least, Hannibal Lecter is identified."


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