Is It Self Pity

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Is denying yourself forgivness a form of holding on to self pity?

Submitted: September 06, 2017

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I am rambling again. Spilling tears over mixed drinks. After a while the both taste the same and have the same effect. I cannot out run my past's shadow.

 

My soul clutches my heart with a deathly grip yelling "Where is the PEACE?!"
Another day is going by without an answer.
I never knew there could be a vista without a horizon until I was overcome by darkness, by the Depression.

 

So many words
So many drinks
So many tears
So many aches
So much turmoil
So much done alone

 

After the internal emotional convulsions subsides, I am left down on my knees pounding the ground.
"WHY LORD?! Why can't you hear me? What is this pain for?!"

 

The blood from my bruised knuckles reminds me. It reminds me I still have more miles to carry my burden across my heart because I cannot forgive myself. Not until I forgive myself will I find Peace, but how.

 

What is forgiveness? What is peace?

 

I rambling again. Is denying yourself forgivness a form of holding on to self pity?

 



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