Depression

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: September 19, 2017

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When??

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When did feelings become this powerful??

When did feelings start to crawl between the tips of my fingers like a rebellious fire underneath my skin that keeps on burning like the bright flames of a 12 pm sun??

It’s not just a black cloud that’s following me wherever I go, it’s that sometimes I am the cloud and everything beneath me is corrupted and drowned with an endless rain.?

And the say that your body is 75% water well my body is 75% liquid darkness going through my veins side to side with the so called blood.?

Is it a choice? wait; are you telling me that I chose to burry myself down this hole that has the depth of the world’s five oceans all together??

Then why? Why is it when I stood in front of my mirror and said ‘I un-choose this' , why didn’t it go away??

See; I am fed up. I’m fed up with these flames that live in my head dancing to the weeping of my bleeding sorrows. ?

Snap out of it, they said. Get over it.. Okay, I will, I will make it go away.?

Let’s see, do I bribe my veins with cold needles filled with a smoothing dust so called drugs??

Do I pay mountains of money on medicine? This is for when you’re sad, and this is for when you’re mad, and this is necessary as long as you’ll pay for it.?

Do I pray? Because I know that I’ve kneeled to the ground day and night asking for it to go away.?

There’s no light at the end of my tunnel. My tunnel demands me to snitch out the dirt with my bare hands looking for an exit.?

My tunnel demands me to be my own light.?

Now I sometimes freckle on and off like a broken lamp; but on the darkest nights, I still bring myself to light up.?


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