kill yourself

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

be careful of what you say to others.

Submitted: October 07, 2017

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Submitted: October 07, 2017



“Kill Yourself”


“God, I’m so depressed.”

I know that season finale was so intense and that they didn’t get together in the end.

I know how die hard you’ve been for that show.

Really? 7 years, wow. You must really be sad.

I know that he doesn’t seem to like you back, and that you’ve tried to damn hard.

I know that love really does suck.

I know that you’re life is super boring, and that your phone doesn’t loose battery from the constant flickering of notifications.

Please, I know.

But you don’t seem to know that depression is a mental illness that isn’t quite triggered by Brad or your social life.

Maybe you should look it up, or just look up at me.


“I just wanna kill myself.”

I know that the stress is too much for you.

I know that test really shredded you and you just want to go home and crumple that paper until your fingers turns blue

I know that you’re super embarrassed that you tripped in front of your crush,

and that you wished he had never seen you rather than seeing you fall.

I know you just lost your game,

and to your worst nemesis! Ooh, that truly is rough.

Trust me, I know.

I know because you don’t know that I actually want to kill myself.

And you still don’t know because I don’t know what to say.

So I don’t.


“Go kill yourself.”

I know that you’re my friend, and I know that you’re just joking and that you didn’t REALLY mean it.

I know, I can be stupid sometimes, and I definitely say the wrong thing at the wrong time.

I know that you were with “the guys,” and that you just got heated in the moment.

I know that you ran out of comebacks and it just slipped out naturally.

I know that she’s only seeking attention and that you’ve had enough.

I know, she is annoying.

Believe me, I know.

But you don’t know what it’s like, just to hear that suggestion. Maybe she’s had enough too. Maybe he’ll take your advice. Maybe I know I should too.

Maybe I’ve already tried.


I know you didn’t mean to offend me, I know that none of this is personal.

I know that maybe I shouldn’t take you seriously.

I know that it’s an actual feeling, I know that it’s just an expression.

I know you didn’t know.

But now you do.

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