How To Fight Loneliness

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

Alex grabs my hand before I can leave, pulling me back towards him. His pupils are completely blown. I can feel the tendons stretched in his hand, the heat radiating from his body. “Just give me
another chance.” he murmurs, tipping my head towards his. His eyes are ringed with smoky blue hues – he's so close, I can feel him exhale. His hands are shaking, leg bouncing. I can’t remember a
moment when he was still. “No.” I whisper, pulling my hand back and walking away.

Table of Contents


Submitted: October 24, 2017

“I don’t know why you close the door when you go in there, like I’m oblivious to your drug habit.”  ... Read Chapter


Submitted: October 24, 2017

The bell rings after hours have transpired.  I've already packed my books away, euphoria exploding through my achin... Read Chapter


Submitted: October 24, 2017

  The air is sharp and imposing as I push through the doors to the quad.  ... Read Chapter


Submitted: October 24, 2017

"Is this fucking Shinedown?"  Luke's voice is bleary, full of laughter.  I blink away... Read Chapter


Submitted: October 24, 2017

I'm late, five minutes late, and yet to enter the school grounds.  My dreams were littered with binges, vivid on te... Read Chapter


Submitted: October 24, 2017

Alex's pupils have exploded into voids, black, gaping holes that leave his eyes devoid of colour.  The gra... Read Chapter


Submitted: October 24, 2017

  "What the fuck happened?"  Marissa is mad, really mad, and I can't stop laughing ... Read Chapter


Submitted: October 24, 2017

One apple.   Just one apple.  Small. Bruised. Red, with miniscule flecks across the shiny... Read Chapter


Submitted: October 24, 2017

Seventeen footsteps across the cafeteria, past thirteen students and one teacher. Ninety-nine point eight this morning... Read Chapter


Submitted: June 03, 2018

Three menthol cigarettes, one pill, slipping down my throat like silk.  Alex is leant against the fence, hands shak... Read Chapter


Submitted: June 05, 2018

  My head is throbbing.  Everything is muted in greys and blues. Alex's shoulder is... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 04, 2018

“Lyss, this has to stop.”  Marissa’s words flutter by, like a passing breeze, and my stomach is bei... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 04, 2018

The Mirtazepine hits me on the bus, encompassing me with golden hues – it sneaks across my brain and weighs he... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 04, 2018

Thirteen hours and thirty seven minutes, and I’m awake, hair plastered to my head from sweat, and my hand is burnin... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 04, 2018

Twelve, twenty-four, thirty..eight. Forty, no, fifty. Fifty? Thirty-eight plus ten makes forty eight, plus two makes fifty... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 04, 2018

I keep my eyes closed as I take a freezing cold shower, as I eat twenty-five grams of dry cornflakes and smoke another... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 07, 2018

Marissa’s legs, sprawled across Luke’s lap.   A secretive smile painting her face.  Luke... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 07, 2018

Luke, Marissa, Alex, Luke, Marissa, and Alex.   My shoulder burns.  I grab his hand, pulling ... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 07, 2018

I’m barely even surprised to see Alex, plumes of smoke eerily arising from his frame.   “You’re cryi... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 08, 2018

“Let’s have a party!” I call out, my words stumbling across each other, and there are lines across the table, white lines,... Read Chapter

Twenty One.

Submitted: July 08, 2018

It never ends; it never does, the dreams, will they ever end? Never. They’ll never end, and now I can’t even close my eyes w... Read Chapter

Twenty Two.

Submitted: July 12, 2018

They’re calling for us, calling for Alex, from downstairs;  the host has disappeared into thin air.  We... Read Chapter

Twenty Three.

Submitted: July 12, 2018

Dining room table, glass, ice, layering, and freezing cold feet; I lost my shoes.   His eyes are tearing i... Read Chapter

Twenty Four.

Submitted: July 12, 2018

Champagne bottles, liquid gold, spinning, spinning, onto Marissa, onto Lynn, with secretive smiles, and their lips touch, one, t... Read Chapter

Twenty Five.

Submitted: July 12, 2018

Straddling the fence; it pinches, my second cigarette.   Light tumbles towards me, washes out Alex, and Luke, ... Read Chapter

Twenty Six.

Submitted: July 12, 2018

Somebody is letting Alex mix drinks.  Mistake, big mistake, and my legs dangle off the side, next to him, a... Read Chapter

Twenty Seven.

Submitted: July 12, 2018

Marissa and Petron, on the table; Alex drops me; I don’t fall, just climb up next to her.  Maniacal grin, sof... Read Chapter

Twenty Eight.

Submitted: July 12, 2018

Darkness encloses; splintered by neon, flashing, walls pulsing from the blare, the yells.  My tongue, scraping ... Read Chapter

Twenty Nine.

Submitted: July 12, 2018

“...didn’t get a turn...”  Titanium eyes, fixed to my chest, exposed, arms, either side, boxing me in; the wa... Read Chapter


Submitted: July 12, 2018

“Never have I ever slept with anybody in this room.”  Furtive sip, staring at the ground; Luke’s hazy stare s... Read Chapter