Make Me Forget

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My world away from reality.

Submitted: December 04, 2017

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If someone were to ask me how I am, I would say what most people would.  I would smile and say,"I'm fine thank you."  People don't really want to know how you are, it's just something they say.  There have been many negative experiences in my life and that is actually a gift.  I was married, divorced, bullied, treated badly by employers, cheated on, so on and so forth.  However, to me it was the greatest gift.  I will explain.

When I hear others who are happily married, or gainfully employed I truly am happy for them.  For they don't know about the struggle others have for finding true love or knowing what it's like to pay all the bills by yourself.  I learned through all my trials and tribulations to be a stong woman.  During the day I held it together.  Working two jobs, making sure the home was taken care of, bills, medical appointments and the list goes on and on.  At night however, my human side would come out and I would cry myself to sleep on my pillow.  In the tears I found a release and then sleep would come.

A few years ago I began having the most intellectual conversations with a wonderful man.  We would talk for hours on end.  He died recently and I think about him every single day.  I can't explain the bond we had but it was strong.  Since then I have been doing a lot of research about metaphysical topics, the afterlife, who we really are.  If it wasn't for all those experiences I would have never shared the beauty of life.

No matter what I went through, I found myself.  That is the greatest gift.  I have always been a writer.  It's in my being.  When I write I enter the mind of the character.  I forget and create a world that exists in my imagination.  I do the same when I dream at night.  My belief is when you sleep your soul leaves the body and journey off.  I did find true love and he is still around.  He is smiling.  The greatest love however, is the love of myself.  I write because that is what I am.  A writer. 

 


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