The One that Got Away

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He was never mine, but losing him broke my HEART

Submitted: December 12, 2017

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"Even how painful you feel now, Time will come the pain will become story". This is the word I put into my mind after he left. Please meet Olivia the one that is writing this story. December 24, 2010 when I met this angelic man name Rafael. Actually, it was not my first meeting to him. I meet him  6 months before actual meeting. the first meeting was in the bus going to province. he was seated next to me. I was not aware that we were heading to the same place. He has this angelic face the one that I could say "MY DREAM GUY". After my visit in province he was always in my mind the one that you don't notice that you were smiling, Yes!, I'm falling to this angelic man. I keep visiting my friend in province just in case I will meet again this man but I was very sad I couldn't see him again. 3 months later I meet another man his name is Ianne but even if I met Ianne but still in my heart still Rafael. He courted me and became my boyfriend. Of course I love him, he was kind man and a gentle man but not as I love Rafael. December 24, 2010 he brought me into their place same place of Rafael. When we arrived in there place there is party happening. I met his family, The place was just "WOW". His friends were there included Rafael. I looked at him and he just smiled. "Why I met you when I had already someone by my side", this was the words running in my mind that time. After meeting him I was just in the other side just silent and I sometimes look at him and there were time that we met our eyes. I can see in his eyes he is telling me something. We had celebrated christmas happily. while riding the bus going back Ianne ask me if I was fine because I was just very silent. I am silent because there's thunder inside me. Every time there was occasion in the province we were always present there as usual me and Rafael will meet again and again. There was this time when  Ianne's mother ask me to go to market and buy everything needed for the party since Ianne was busy so he couldn't come with me so no choice  but Rafael since he do nothing . While on the way to the market he start joking and that joke became serious, he told me how he felt for me, that  he even lost his focus on his study he wanted to entertained girls but he can't do just because of me. we stop and he hugged me. We both crying he knew I loved him but we both don't like to hurt Ianne's heart. He asked my number but sadly I doesn't have phone so he supposedly give his phone but too obvious for us. we hugged each other for 5 minutes. He asked to be the second one but I can't even if he is the number one in my heart. I knew  Ianne has 3 another woman in his heart but I can't give what he wanted. Even if I didn't granted what he wanted I gave him a word. "You filled me with hope and security. You told me things I needed to hear to take the chance and make the jump even if not with you physically but with you in a heart. You made me feel like I was worth it, I was who you wanted". When we came back from the market his cousin Jerome teased us the silent diary of Rafael. When we arrived we acted as if nothing happen. We became closed friends me, Rafael and Ianne. I thought it will be the start for the 3 of us, but I was wrong, Ianne felt something was wrong between me and Rafael. he started teasing us but of course we are trying our best to cover it up. after one month I never heard Rafael no communication until I saw his mother of course his mother talk to me about her problem to her children and I found out that he stop studying and went to his sisters in a far Island just to help his sisters little business. After that talked I searched him in the social media. I make a false account and chatted him. He was happy that I chatted him, Yes! I cheated Ianne. By next year he come back and continue his study so we were excited to see each other. after 4 months I caught Ianne cheating me and  we had to separate. Finally I can now breathe, I am now free. I chatted Rafael the news and we both were happy. after 5 months Rafael posted in the social media that he was in relationship with me. Everything was just fine until he returned home. His mother were not favor for our relation because I was ex-girlfriend of Ianne since the two family were very close his mother doesn't want conflict. I understand well what does his mother wanted. I took the step I asked break up to him it was hard and painful decision but it was needed even if he does not want it I insisted. I needed to do this just for the two family. After one month we build again our relationship silently, I can't ignored him. I love him so much so as he. We go out on date in the place where no one know us. One year later his sister found out our relation and that's the scariest moment I don't wanna happen but indeed it does. His mother was brought to hospital I wasn't able to contact him, his phone was confiscated by his sisters in short our communication was lost. I haven't  heard anything from him. I thought I was who he wanted but he shuttered that all quietly  well. You couldn't take it anymore. You turned around and left me falling without you. You promised me you wouldn't. But you did. You left me.And you gave up on us not telling me any word. I feel like I'm waiting for something that isn't going to happen. After  one year I moved on from the pain, of course I won't forget him. He was already the shape from my past. Ianne's parents invited me I thought it was just a friendly invitation not knowing that they would asked me a favor. They asked me to fix things with him, I was speechless I don't know what to say, but suddenly my mouth open "we will try uncle". I don't know I'm out of my mind. from that time he started courting and after 8 months I said "yes" again to him. He was different from before he gave his whole free time to me, His parents were thankful at last their son changed now. All of bad habits he had was gone, all woman he had was gone. I changed him a lot. After 7 months he proposed to me and I said "yes" to him, 2 months preparation for the wedding after two months we got married. After one year  we were bless with a baby boy and name him Liam. He was now 2 year old. Christmas came and  of course every 24 of December there is always party in the province. So we went home, I wasn't expecting that Rafael and his family were there. I was shock when I saw him, he was same as before but a little mature this time, angelic face as before but I tried not to bother I tried harder to pretend that nothing had happened to us before. He smile and greeted Ianne and me. I just smile without a word. By the time I get the chance to go to the chapel to pray. I was in the door of the chapel I saw him  praying I supposed to walk away but he called me and ask me to stay for even just 5 minutes. I get inside I seated and he came seated beside me. He asked how was I living with Ianne, What did I do for the past few year he wasn't with me. Of course I just answered him what had happened to me while his was not by my side. I also ask him what happened to him for leaving me alone and hanging. Do you know what just said "BECAUSE IT'S NEEDED". That's it, I had his answered. I knew I am nothing compared to his family, that I will never be his priority. I stand and take a step but he grab me and hugged me "You still in My Heart, I missed you a lot". Without knowing my tears started to fall. I still love him but I can't open my mouth. I just hugged him for the last time and smiled. That was the last time I've seen him and talk to him. And now I'm trying to move on but of course I give my best for my son and husband they never feel I was lacking. And if your going to asked how is Rafael now, will I heard he is working now in one of the cruise ship without girlfriend, that he still love me based from his sister. I will be hypocrite if I say I don't love him, I still. And now I'm waiting for my heart to heal and tears to dry. because HE WAS THE MAN THAT GOT AWAY.

 


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