Take It Away

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic


With the continuing bombardment about obesity, is it any wonder that both anorexia and bulemia are on the increase once more.


Take It Away

 

Take it away, don’t let me see, not a glimpse of my own reflection,

this mirror does nothing than ram down my throat the extent of my own imperfection.

 

I need to be slim, that’s what is good, the TV is preaching it out,

but this glass monstrosity hits me so hard with all of the bitter self-doubt.

 

Too many inches I can still pinch in spite of my food deprivation,

the feel of my flesh is making me ill, a vomit-inducing sensation.

 

Those scales, how I hate them, they always lie and pretend,

the numbers go down but it’s false, can’t comprehend

 

why they want to be taking me in with their fake information.

60lbs, they are telling me – a simple logic negation.

 

They are lying to me, I weigh so much more, need numbers to go ever down,

for here in my body, I’m trapped as obese and it’s going to make me drown.

 

People say that my arms and legs are really not much more than sticks

but I’m wise to this nonsense, this total collusion, they way that they trap me with tricks.

 

I’m shutting my eyes and I’m feeling the rage and my fists, this mirror will smash,

a trickle of blood from a cut on my wrist on to the carpet does spalsh.


Submitted: January 16, 2018

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jaylisbeth

This is excellent, Hully. I have battled an eating disorder since I was 13 years of age. Very well expressed. So much truth preached here.

Tue, January 16th, 2018 8:52pm

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The television is constantly going on about obesity, to such an extent that almost everyone is going to believe that they are overweight. My daughter is a US size 6, and has put herself on a diet. I struggled through it for years, and it never really goes. Thanks for reading, jaylisbeth.

Tue, January 16th, 2018 12:58pm

Sue Harris

A very powerful poem, Hully, one that details the mental torment of a warped body image... the self loathing. The media has an influence, by air brushing images, and promoting and applauding a level of perfection that young people aspire to. Like any addiction, weight loss becomes another... reflections in the mirror distorted. Well done Hully for writing such a powerful poem on a potentially fatal,, mental affliction. .

Tue, January 16th, 2018 10:52pm

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Thanks for that, Sue. I hit the 5stone mark, learned how to manipulate the scales. Eventually I allowed it to creep up to 7stone and would do anything to keep it there and this went on for years. I'm not like it now, I avoid mirrors and have thrown out the scales. Have never quite got over it and like all weaknesses, it sometimes gets exploited or turned in to a joke.

Tue, January 16th, 2018 3:03pm

Jeff Bezaire

If only the people who preach to love and accept yourself drowned out the voices that say beauty has a weight and a fixed image. If only people who tell others to accept and love yourself accepted and loved themselves more often, too. We live in a cruel world. The only person we can truly depend on to cut through the bullshit and come to accept our self and our appearance is our self. The problem is there's too much bullshit to wade through, making it harder to know and accept the truth. Beauty is in the eye of the beholder. Attraction and chemistry is about the positives and negatives between two people, not weight and an idealized definition of beauty.
A powerful write that drives the message home in a strong way!

Wed, January 17th, 2018 9:06pm

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Thanks for reading, Jeff. It's one of the things I feel really strongly about, along with bullying in all its forms, and animal cruelty. I think the constant reporting of obesity, of people being generally overweight is bound to put all this on the increase again.
Thanks so much for taking the time to read and comment.

Wed, January 17th, 2018 1:25pm

Mike S.

Good that you shined a light on this dark subject, Hull!

Wed, January 17th, 2018 10:22pm

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Thanks, Mike. Lots of past experience to draw on.

Wed, January 17th, 2018 2:30pm

john regan

I don't weigh myself anymore and haven't done for years. I'm pretty happy in my body and it's far from perfect. T.V and magazines promote an unrealistic view of life. Love yourself. Good poem, Hulla.

Fri, January 19th, 2018 8:45am

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It's strange how many people have suddenly become weight-obsessed, and it's not just the younger ones this time. I'm like you, keep away from the scales. Thanks for giving this a read!

Fri, January 19th, 2018 3:53am

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