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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Horror  |  House: Booksie Classic


A look at a very damaged relationship through journal entries.


1893



April 17th

Today we fought for hours again. Martha has become most unbearable. It seems all we ever do now day in and day out is swing verbal obscenities back and forth. Surely this is no way for a young woman to act? She is my wife! Why does she go against every single thing I say!? She no longer makes any effort on her appearance, it is an embarrassment. This is how I am repaid? If it weren't for me Martha would be on the streets, selling herself! I am afraid I do not know how much longer I can keep living each day like this with that woman, if she can even still be called a woman.


April 20th

This evening something truly horrible happened. I struck her! I couldn't control myself and I lashed out at her. I must have really hit her hard because she fell to the floor. She was terrified. She just laid there and let me wipe away the blood from her head.

This is all Martha's fault! I came home expecting to sit at the table and enjoy my dinner, but the table was bare. She cannot even cook her husband a simple dinner!? I walked down the hall to the bedroom only to discover Martha, her hands full of money. She has been hiding money for a while it seems. What need has a woman for money when she has a husband?

It's all her fault this happened. Were she not a loving obedient wife the events of tonight would have never taken place.


April 30th

My guilt is eating me up inside. Ever since I hurt my dear Martha she seems so distant. So different. On the other hand, it seemed to get the message across. She is once again the subservient wife she was in the beginning. She does everything I ask of her now. Although I fear I miss the passion she had when we were at each other’s throats. She seems so emotionless towards me now.

I am making an effort to win her favour. Just yesterday I bought her a new dress. She looks stunning in it, but was not thankful in the least. She just stares at me with her cold, sad eyes.


May 1st

Today was the grand opening of the World fair! I wanted Martha to accompany me, but the way things are now between us unfortunately that was not a possibility. I did however tell her all about it when I returned home. The highlight of my day was the Ferris wheel, it was truly incredible. Made me feel as though I were flying. Incredible!


May 7th

In this week gone by I have attempted many different ways to reconnect with Martha. She is just so distant now like she's miles away.

I have been trying so hard and it seems it is all for naught. I remember when we were first wed, that I used to bathe her. I ran her a hot bath and lowered her into its warming embrace. I washed her back as I used to in days gone by, and brushed her hair too. That used to make us feel so close, so connected.

I fear the romance is well and truly gone.


May 14th

Tonight I made Martha dinner, I know that it's supposed to be the wife who does that, but I fear she hasn't been well for a long time, her colour is not healthy and she has lost a terrible amount of weight. Unfortunately, she just stared at the plate. She did not have a single bite. I even tried to feed her, but she refused to eat.

Later in the evening I carried her to bed and laid her on her stomach. I gave her a massage. Her muscles were so tense, so tight. It was obviously my doing. I realise now what a terrible husband I had been all these years.


May 15th

I spent hours in bed last night, just looking at Martha, stroking her face.

 I ruined this marriage. I am the reason the light faded from her eyes.

I will hate myself till the end of time.

How I wish my dear beautiful Martha was still alive.


Submitted: January 19, 2018

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Oleg Roschin

Oh my! What a fine horror story this is! You are really good at dark humor. Perfectly executed!

Fri, January 19th, 2018 4:41am

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Thank you :)

Thu, January 18th, 2018 9:32pm

hullabaloo22

A very effective way of telling that story, showing the distance, the cruelty and the failure. Excellent work.

Fri, January 19th, 2018 10:05pm

Author
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Thank you so much :)

Fri, January 19th, 2018 8:16pm

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