Just the way I feel...


Last night we went and walked on the beach,

And I felt all my dreams so out of my reach.

I felt so vast and empty inside,

Sadness will now sit by my side.

 

I imagined naively the future I planned,

now they’re just dust that resemble this sand.

And then I felt hopeless while looking away,

when I get asked; I have nothing to say.

 

The thoughts in my head I cannot let go,

Dark jokes about suicide so no one would know.

About how I feel and the things I should do,

If I’m hanging on; I do it for you.

 

 

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Just the way I feel. I appreciate the kind words of encouragment from my dear booksie friends.However, it doesn't take away what I feel at the moment. I wil not act upon the the feelings expressed in this poem. but writing about it helps me cope. Thank you dear friends for understanding.

 

 

 


Submitted: February 01, 2018

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Adam L.

You have the right to feel the way you, Lis. Don't let anyone take that away from you. Mourn and grieve for as long as you need to. A beautiful and honest to heart poem. Keep them coming, amiga.

Thu, February 1st, 2018 2:47pm

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Thank you so much, my amigo

Thu, February 1st, 2018 6:52am

Sue Harris

I sincerely hope the problems that so weigh you down will soon be resolved. Was relieved to read the note you posted, so if it helps, keep writing and posting. Wishing you well, JB,

Thu, February 1st, 2018 3:09pm

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Thank you very much, Sue. I really appreciate it.

Thu, February 1st, 2018 8:10am

johngumbs

I had to laugh to myself when you said that all your friends whoa re trying to console you, you still feel the same. When I was reading the book of Job, which is a great book by the way, i also had to chuckle. Job was doing well then suddenly it went wrong. His friends came to talk with him because job was a righteous man and he wanted to know why all these bad things happen to him. Later on, he told his friends off while they were consoling him. I have that said to me as well when I was trying to help someone. They said, ''You're not feeling what I'm feeling.'' But life is such that friends will Always go out their way to help.
Let those poems come tumble on out if they make you feel good. I think that later on you'll come to realize that you're very good jotting down those poems.

Thu, February 1st, 2018 5:34pm

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Thank you very much for reading, John.

Thu, February 1st, 2018 9:46am

Jeff Bezaire

The people who give into those despairing thoughts are the ones who have nothing to hang onto. Everyone needs an anchor that, no matter how far they teeter to the brink, they never take the plunge. It's good that you have one.
Life never works out how we planned it. As a teenager, I planned on being married and having two kids by now, but we can never take into account life's obstacles, nor how we will change with time. Having expectations about anything often leads to disappointment, sometimes pleasant surprises, but too often, the reality upsets our fantasy. It's difficult not having expectations, especially when it comes to our future - we're pushed to make plans for our future from an early age. But you can't let the way things have turned out keep a permanent damper on your spirits. It's the challenge with life to make what you want out of what you're given.
This poem strikes deep and hard. A heart-aching summation of the tribulations swirling your life at the moment. Elegantly expressed. I can relate to quite a bit of this. For what comfort it may bring, you are not alone, Lisbeth. Keep hanging on to that special someone! They'll help keep your head above water while you find the strength to swim ashore.

Thu, February 1st, 2018 5:55pm

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Thank you so much, Jeff. Everything I do, I do it for my son. It's a challenge lately but I am giving myself the time to heal.

Thu, February 1st, 2018 12:13pm

Mike S.

Well, glad to know you won't act on the painful emotions expressed in this fine poem, J. B!

Thu, February 1st, 2018 6:10pm

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Thank you so much, Mike.

Thu, February 1st, 2018 12:09pm

moa rider

Pole Jay, your sadness is a heavy burden for you. Its tough when all around you is falling to pieces. Your poems help you. With time your focus will change, and change is the only constant in life. Usianguke

Thu, February 1st, 2018 7:26pm

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Thank you so much, Moa

Thu, February 1st, 2018 12:08pm

hullabaloo22

I'm with you, Jaylisbeth, I understand and relate to the feelings, so hard to carry on with at times, but we do it because.....we have to. Giving in causes way more pain than we're prepared to inflict. You know where I am. An excellent poem, by the way.

Thu, February 1st, 2018 9:32pm

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Thank you so much for that, Hully

Fri, February 2nd, 2018 5:36am

Dr. Acula

Let it out and let it go !
I like this very much. Its, human and real.

Fri, February 2nd, 2018 12:53am

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Thank you so much, Doc

Thu, February 1st, 2018 5:37pm

rrwrites0

Oh dear, such a wonderful poem. I hope you are doing okay. I can relate to this some days. Take care xx

Fri, February 2nd, 2018 10:05am

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Thank you so much!

Fri, February 2nd, 2018 5:37am

LeParadisNoirPoetique

I've been the one telling you that faith or religious counsel will not help you because they are not real, the feeling you are going through is real life. Hope is just a mirage, because what you are going through needs more than hope, it needs time. You are writing about your feelings because the words you write are the truth, and overtime you can eliminate one at a time and finally be in a better place. Writing about them allows you to see the truth, and then you will be able to cope in time, because you know the truth of your feelings.

It's a fine poem again, and The deepness you are going is awe inspiring. It takes a lot for a person to write about feelings like this. Your wording and rhyming is excellent. Expression is the only way of coping, and in time you will be a out of this pain soon. Brilliant poetry Lisbeth.

Fri, February 2nd, 2018 4:02pm

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Thank you so very much, Dexter

Fri, February 2nd, 2018 1:05pm

ChristopherErick

I like it a lot. You are a brilliant writer. Your poems are fantastic. I like the dark feeling in this one. And your words and rhymes just flow perfectly.

Sat, February 3rd, 2018 12:42am

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Thank you so much, Chris!

Sun, February 4th, 2018 4:11pm

Amy F. Turner

It is healthy to feel whatever is happening to us in our lives. They are all a part of us. Does not mean we will act on them. It just means for that moment in time we ventured down to a dark place. It's okay as long as we do not stay there. The dawn must come and it will. That's where hope lives. Love your poem, girlie, and that through words you can so easily connect with others who may and do feel the same, knowing they are not alone. :)

Sat, February 3rd, 2018 7:18pm

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Thank you so much, Amy for understanding :)

Sun, February 4th, 2018 4:11pm

Spyguy

Out of the feelings of the heart great sermons can be taught! I love you as a writer & as a friend! You’ve told me that you’ll reach out to me when you are ready, so I await, with love & concern, like unto that of Jeff, & pray that soon you will be ready for our outstretched hands of tenderness and care!

Wed, February 7th, 2018 8:32am

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Thank you my dear Spy.

Wed, February 7th, 2018 5:38am

Amy Furzane

Wonderfully written especially when it comes from the heart. You're stronger than you think. Have faith and keep writing. Cheers! :)

Wed, February 14th, 2018 2:16pm

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Thank you so much, Amy :)

Wed, February 14th, 2018 6:21am

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