To-Do List

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: February 23, 2018

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He looked at the time and it was 5:25. PM. He looked for his To-Do List only to realize that he hadn’t made one today. So instead he lied in bed and stared at the ceiling. Memories became silent and so did his mind. He had done nothing today. He had done everything today. Now all he had to do was wait - wait for his potential employers to email him back, wait for the coffee to finish brewing, wait for the snow to stop falling, wait for his anti-depressants to kick in, wait for his registration date to arrive, wait for his death to arrive. He waited until silence befriended boredom, a deadly team ready to usurp his mind. Boredom then lent its voice to silence, and the man heard it inside his head. It said: “I wonder what would happen if you stopped all this waiting and took a step toward death.” This gave the man a chuckle. Often times he lacked the will to live, often times he lacked the will to die, but he seldom lacked the courage to remind himself of one simple fact: that even if he had checked off all the boxes on said list, he would have still felt the need to do more. He’d patted himself on the back for small accomplishments before, but what did accomplishments matter when his entire existence hinged on how useful he was for society? And so that is why he kept on running, to fill in those gaps where silence showed him how expendable he was; he needed to check off items on his To-Do List to make himself feel productive. Otherwise boredom would reveal the truth, the ugly truth that the man was nothing but a waste of space, that one should never live just for the sake of living.

 

He heard a beep from the kitchen downstairs. “Coffee is ready”, he thought to himself, and checked one more item off his imaginary list.


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