My Rights

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Poem by: Marilyn Whyte

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Status: Finished | Genre: Poetry | House: Booksie Classic

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I wrote this a few years ago when struggling with some major life changes and the fear that created for me. Suffering with depression, I often couldn't explain outwardly how I was feeling, so
written words became my escape as they have so often through my life. Although nobody read them, I wasn't that brave, it helped me write them and gain some control over the emotions by doing so.

Submitted: February 28, 2018

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I have a right to my feelings, they create the who and what in me.

At any one time I can be grown woman or small child.

I am scared, fearful, unsure, lonely, frightened and weak.

I am brave, confident, beautiful, laughing, excited and strong.

My feelings cause me great sorrow.

My feelings give me great joy.

They take me to the heights of passion.

They drag me to the depths of despair.

I shout my feelings aloud, so proud.

I hide my feelings, bury them deep.

I can feel one emotion, display another.

I am smiling outside, crying within; an understanding exterior, anger at source.

I try so hard to be what others would have me be;

To adapt, change, suppress and hide the true essence.

But the strength is draining; I am tired.

And so, now the barriers and pretence crumble and fall.

Confused?

Hey…….So am I.

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Damp Kitten

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Wed, February 28th, 2018 10:26am

So you’re over on this side as well!
I like your piece. It takes energy to please others. When all we search for is unconditional love...

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Sat, March 3rd, 2018 1:41am

You found me! Yes I am. This is my 'daytime' persona. The more 'subtle' side of my writing. ;-)

So very lovely of you to read and comment here too, thank you. You're so right. I've spent many years trying to please others, until it broke me completely. 4 years ago I stopped, and learned I only had to please myself. Now everything I do is my own choice, and I'm finally content in my own skin. It's a wonderful feeling. X

Bunzy

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Sat, March 3rd, 2018 10:59am

Not confused depression brings out things in people they never thought could happen people can give you all the advice in the world but at the end of he day only you can sort through the confusion of your own mind and take a path that is right for you nobody else but you. I enjoyed your post.

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Sun, March 4th, 2018 1:12pm

Thank you for understanding where the words came from Andrew. I went on some years later to be formally diagnosed with 2 conditions, and now blog about those to connect with other people dealing with them, and how we view the world a little differently. It's easy when there is still stigma about depression to feel isolated, but when somebody understands it bridges the gap between 'them' and 'us', and reduces that stigma little by little. Sometimes all it takes is a word or a smile :-) X