My Forbidden Feelings

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taken from my book, "Does It Bother You Much?"

Submitted: February 28, 2018

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My Forbidden Feelings

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I put the blame on me

And nobody else

The bitch just won't die

And go to Hell

Now I suffer the loss of my secret

And my privacy of prying into theirs

I'm no longer innocent

And she can never unknow about my heart

Nor forgive me for going too far

When I asked myself

__"what was supposed to bother me so much?"

____I know now what I was talkin' about

I guess I was talkin'

__about me being bothered

____the whole time

I really need to be more careful

__with my future

But

Here I sit

A broken bike

Broken guitar

And sacrificing transportation money

__to fix the guitar

And waiting for the future

__to fix my bike

This bitch has ruined my life

And she just won't drop dead

Like I'd like her to

But, woop-dee-doo

What else is new?

The pain I suffer

__sitting next to her

____boils in my stomach

I tell myself "it doesn't bother me"

But it does

She is a resentment copping little fuck!

Who can't even accept that she never should have told me

Maybe she is so dim witted

__that she forgot

Or maybe she is so fucked up

__that she can't even admit it to him

I just know I'd like for her to die

But since she won't

I'm left to choke

And swallow my anger

With shattered hopes

I used to love her

Now I wanna kill her

But everyday I know I cannot

And it hurts

__more and more

I dream of taking an ax

And slicing her head off

Right where she sits

I dream of putting a hole in her head

__at point blank

And looking into her eyes

__as she dies

Falling in love with her

__for the last time

I dream of her relapsing

__and dying

Which is pretty fucked up

__I know

But I know she feels worse about me

I know she dreams

__of taking my life

____and destroying

______everything I live for

I know she wants to mangle my face

And must be the reason

__for which I've been having

____such bad luck

______since the day of what I've done

She's the one who's fucked up

She's the one who's taking revenge

And just won't stop

She should be dying

That's what's up

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02-28-'18

D. L. Cannon


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