I'm no magician
Though I kinda wish I was
I wish I could leave my broken self behind
And conjure up a miracle the bedazzled one and all
I'm no wizard
Though I do wish that was the case
If only I could make those I love
And those who love me
Amazed and delighted by my spells
And enchant them so beautifully
That they forget that I was ever human
For as a human I never really dazzled
As much as I wish I did
Though even as a human I can try to charm
And try to impress and hide my scars
To let someone close is to let them see the ugliness within
An ugliness that they may not like or stomach
Or an ugliness they see in me that I myself don't recognize as such
Being human is so messy
Having to deal with differing ideals
And inner contradictions
So I wish I was a wizard
Who could use his magic to rise above the fray
And with my miracles, I'd create
A beautiful world with the brightest colors
Where you're all amazed and delighted and impressed
And relish the sumptuous feast
That I conjured out of thin air
And my smile is confident and untainted
I bear no envy, insecurity or resentment
There are no unpleasant feelings lurking within that I have to hide
Because with the power of magic I can simply cast them all aside
I'm not a magician
But I wish I was
How else could I always charm and bedazzle you
And keep you free from my brokenness?
Nonetheless, this is wishful thinking, nothing more
All I can ever be is a lowly human, with all the baggage that entails
The boredom, the insignificance, the pettiness and the consequences
A human makes mistakes and pays the price
And a human like me can't help but think he may even be worse than average
But maybe that's okay
Maybe the meager joy I can offer you
Is still a joy that matters
As a human, I can't promise to dazzle you forever
But at least I can show you the love in my heart
Even if that love is transient
Even if I may give in to my worse self and destroy it eventually
As a human I know I'll hurt you if you get close enough
But perhaps the bond we have is already an enchantment
A spell that will make you think twice before giving up on me
Because you trust that I'm a good man overall
As a human I may not even matter to you that much
You don't know me that well, and there are people close to you
People who do know you well and you'd rightly cherish more
But nonetheless, I hope I still have a place in your memory
Fleeting as my bond with you may be
Being as I am a lowly human
I still hope I had the power to enchant you
So that my love brought just a moment's happiness
A happiness that I'll always hope
To bring to you, just one more time
Submitted: April 13, 2018
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Charlotte Ross
Wow, just simply beautiful. Amazing writing skills Pulak.
Fri, April 13th, 2018 10:44pm