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Sacrifice Meaning In This Dirty World

Submitted: May 12, 2018

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Submitted: May 12, 2018

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Lets Talk Honestly ! ????
_What Sacrifice Mean ? 
_Do You Understand What This Word Mean ?
_Do You Lose Something Precious To Save Something Else? 
Okey I'm A Boy Live His life With Honor And Dignity And I Had Many Dreams And Purposes In My Life ???? 
Finding The Happiness And Finding the Real Love And Live Your Life To See That Love Growing Up ?? But Like They Said There Is No Mercy In This Dirty World ???? Living With Honor And Dignity Not Easy Like You Think Because People Here Are Monsters,Devils????,Animals????... (Not All But Most Of Them ).So Its Hard To Keep Your Love Safe They Will Tracking You , Judge You and Try To Break You . But I Never Care I Continue My Life With That's Small Happiness But This Life Changed Like The Cloud In The Sky I Find Myself In Big Storm ???? Fighting Alone Between Saving My Family Or Saving My Love ?? My Father???? Is Sick need Money , Mother ????Can't Work Anymore , Brother Can't Study Anymore Even My Little Sister Find Herself Out The School and The Girl That I Loved ?? Waiting The Day That I Will Come To Her Family And Ask To Merry Her ????????.I Find Myself Alone Fighting All Of This Problems In The Sametime ???? So What To Do Now ?
I need To work For My family Or The Work For My Dream ????? i Start Thinking 24H/24H Even The Sleep I Can't . So What Now Wiss What To do In This Situation Running Out This Hell ???? And Kill Yourself ???? And Go To The Other Hell ???? Or Try To Fix One By One And We Will Be Alright ? 
I Start Thinking To Cross The Borders And Go To Europe ???? But Not Possible Without Money And My Death Will Make It worse???? So What ? 
But This Life Don't Give Me Time To Think Or To Choose .. After 3 Days My Father Need IRM ( 200€) To Do That Thing And To Start Looking For A Cure To My Father ???? So What Now Wiss ? Need To Work And Need To Get Money Very Fast ???? So How ? i Live In Stupid Country Not Rights Here ( Hospitals ????Like A Jails ) No Money , No Rights , Nothing Just Death Close To Me ???? My Heart Start Hate Everything ???? I Start Feel Fire Inside Me And Losing My Feelings Day After Day ???? I Start Losing My Ideas And My Mind ???? Thinking So Much Make Me So Stressed And Sick ???? I Start Changing To The Horrible Person ???? And I Can't Stop This . but The Only One Who Remember Me To Stand Up Again And Fight She Is Her ?? Day After Day I Losing Myself ???? My Heart Burning ????I. Can't Understand My Feelings ... i Start Think Death Better Than This Hell ???? I Losing My Faith ???? I Start Hate The People Like I'm A Stranger On This Planet ???????? The Only Question I Ask : Why Me ?????
I Didn't Find Any Solution ???? i Start Losing And In Few Days I Can't Feel The Big Love Inside My Heart ???? I Change And I Can't See Anymore ???? I Can't See The Truth ???? I Forget What She Did To Me And I Forget How We Spend All This Time Supporting Each Others ???? ... Everything I Build Burn With My Soul ???? I Forget Even My Friends And My Relations ???? I Just Breath , Eat , Sleep ... i Forget How To Live ! So Know Its The Real Test In My Life 
The Girl I Love Start Feel Tired Because Of My Behaviors ???? 
And i Start Not Care About Her Or Her Feelings I Only Hurt Her So Much And She Burning With Me 
My Family Falling Down Too ???? What Now Wiss ? The Girl Will Lose Her Chance To Merry Anyone Because in This Country There is A Fucking Miserable Culture And Mentalities ???? If She Don't Merry Or Find A Man Before The 24,26,28 Years Old She Will never Merry ???? So What now I Can't Make Her waiting Me Maybe more Than 8 Years To Merry Her ???????? No Money mean No Life 
so What ?
She Is Love Me So Much But Now I Will be The Criminal Who Destroy Her Life And Her Future ???? Now I need To Choose My Girl Or My Family ???? Both Of The Two Choices Are Important ???? The Family Burn And I'm Too ???? And Her Will Burn Soon ???? I Can't Make This Happen For Both Of Them ???? Okey I Made A Choice !???? Time Now To Sacrifice And I Can't Make It worse For Her Anymore " I NEED TO LEAVE THIS GIRL TO CONTINUE HER LIFE AND LIVE LIKE THE OTHER GIRLS " This Is My Horrible Way To Get Out This Hell by Sacrifice By My Heart and My Dreams ???? I Can't Take It Anymore ???? Time To Tell her But I Know That She Won't Let Me Go ???? So How ? 
Now The Second Sacrifice I Need To Make Her Hate Me So Much As I Can ???? So I Start My Mission To Make That Heart Inside Her Hate My Name And My Memories This Is The Only Way To Save Her From This Destiny ???? I Start Acting Like I'm Not Interesting Anymore And I Forget Her Memories ???? ( Its Hard To Acting This But Its The Only Way ) Day After day The Problems Start And She Suffering And Crying But i Need To Keep Acting Sometime I Wanna Stop But I Can't Not Now ... But What Make  Me Impressive She Refuse To Left me after All What I Did To Her ???? The Must Hardest Days In My Life Because I See The Real Love Inside Her Eyes But I Close My Eyes To Not Seeing That Things ???? Day After Day She Given Up but She Try Again She Call Every One I Know To understand What Happen To Me but I Told Everyone Its A Secret I Want Her To Hate Me Forever ???? Some People Said I'm Crazy And Lier But Its the Truth I want To Save Her From What Coming Next And She Deserve Better ???? None Believe me Even My Family ???? But I Will Never Stop Its Mine And I Know Her More Than Anyone In This life She Will suffer With me She Need To Go Now And In This Day I Choose To Ignore Her Whatever She Will do 
I Don't Pick Up The Phone Anymore 
I Don't Reply To Any Messages 
I Don't Even Want To see Her Face Or Hear Her Voice again ???? Time To Finnish That Thing Forever ???? I Will Never Forget all Of this And I Know I Do A Horrible Thing But Not For My Benefits Or Anything Else I Save Her From This Destiny And I Will Fight Here alone But This Time I Don't Have anything To worried About it ???? No Feelings , No Love , Nothing Precious ,No Life ???? I Choose This Way Not Just For Me . for Her , For My Father. , For My Mother , For My Brother and Sister ???? This Pain Will Never Stop Whatever Will Happen And This Memories Will Not Deleted ???? I Never Blame My Family Or Anyone In This Life ???? Its A Test And I Can't Save Everything In this test ???? The Last Level In This Test Id Killing Your Heart Forever ???? And Sacrifice By Your Only Love And Only Hope In The World ???? 
Now I'm Alive Suffering From This Shits In My Mind ???? I Can't Feel Freedom And Wherever I Go I Feel Afraid If One Day i See Her again Because She Will Show Me Her Hate And Her Brown Eyes Looking At Me Like i'm A Betrayer And Criminal ???? Maybe She Will never Forgive Me For What I Did But Now i Release That I Choose The Right Choice ???? She Rebuilding Her Life Again ?? And I'm Sure She will Find Her Way to Forget what i did For her ???? I'm Happy Because I Stop Her Suffering And I Know She Will be Alright ?? and I'm Really Want To See Her With Another Man Can Make Her happy Forever. ???? Man Do What I Can't Do ???? I Never Blame Myself For what i Did . I'm Proud That I Save Someone In This Life And Maybe I Can't Save Myself From This Destiny But Im Burning Alone ???? maybe Its Sad Story When You Read It but For Me Is A Story Show The People What's The Sacrifice For The Family and The Dreams And There Is Many Do More Than Me ???? But These Persons We Can Call Them Heroes ???? They Choose To Save The Other people Not To Save Just Themselves ??
??THE END????
Let Give My story A Titter Is Biography Short Story By Its Enough For Now Because I Choose English Not Easy To Write All of This In One Hour ???? The Titter : ?? The Choice ????
#Wiss
#Biography 
#The_Choice 
12/05/2018 End At 3:30 AM
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