Essence

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: True Confessions  |  House: Booksie Classic


Pour out of my inner thoughts.

Submitted: May 21, 2018

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I wonder if I’ll ever truly let go of my fears. I mean heights, and spiders are physical, so I can just learn that. I’m talking about my internal fears. Without the need to be inebriated every time I have to face a fear. Dealing with confrontation, dealing with my own emotions towards others. Don’t get me wrong I try mostly to keep it real with everyone I met but sometimes, if I love too hard I hide things. Just for my own fear of someone not understanding where im coming from. Everyone and their grandmother can nod their head and say “yeah”, but does anybody actually know what that internally feels like? Not many people can say that they do. 

I hate to consider myself a statistic but I mean, I cant argue the facts. Child of heavy drug users, no father, adopted, no father in my adopted family. Haha can a nigga catch a break please?! Jesus fucking Christ! I get told so much to let that kind of stuff go, by people who HAVE both parents, don’t HAVE to worry about if they will be able to keep their home, food in their stomach. “My parents did this for me, they did that for me”. Im so sick of hearing that shit to be honest. DON’T GET ME WRONG, I never use those reasons as to why I am a certain way, or to back up my actions, I just use them as a way to help people understand my FINITE way of thinking.


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