Boredom

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Non-Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: May 28, 2018

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I proclaim my life is boring... that it is equivalent to a movie where the main character lives the same day over and over agin....for me it is as though I live the same week over and over again... different things occur but ultimately the same type of activities happen...the conversation and faces are different but the routine is the same... a creature of habit is what some like to call humans .... I find that to be true, but I hate it ! I hate the idea that as a human I can fall in to this mundane routine for days , weeks , months , even years and not question it until I grow sick and wary of it... perhaps I bring in a new activity but eventually even that becomes apart of the routine.... what’s the point of life if I am just stuck in this cycle never really moving forward or backwards just in a state of paralysis ... The truth is there is no point ... I can even argue that the only purpose in life is to live until you die ... which wouldn’t be wrong .... However it wouldn’t be right either ... the purpose of my life is unknown yet , probably because I am not sure who I am or what I want... I know I am a person that falls ill under boredom ... I know boredom is inevitable and not necessarily a bad thing either ... I also know that I tend to not have the energy to be productive with my day which usually results in me sleeping away most of it ... I find that on occasion this “sleeping the day away” kind of mentality is nice and needed , but I also find that the constant desire to sleep or the unbearable task of keeping my eyes open is something I feel constantly .... I want to know what it feels like to have energy .. I want to know what it feels like to wake up to feelings of  freshness, the desire to get up, get out , to do something grand or even something not so grand ... the want to go out instead of waking up with the desire for the day to be over so I may lay my head upon my pillow and have my body embraced by my bed until I’ve drifted off into tranquil slumber...I want a balance of both ... I want to feel as though I earned the yearning to be in bed .... so how ? How do I become more excited about life and adventure ? It probably starts with me being excited to be in my body ... it probably starts with me not seeing getting dress as a burden instead of an opportunity of expression and good health ... I claim I will change the things I do not like about my life one day ... well how about if that one day is today ... how about if today is day one instead of another wasted collection of moments to proclaim one day I will evoke the change I want to see within me by trying or improving myself in a healthy manner....one day I will do this ... one day will turn into day one but as of right now I can only bring myself to acknowledge the disconnect...I can’t bring myself to fix it.


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