A Life Less Travelled

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Non-Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic


This is a story about change. How at any time, any age, we can make the commitment to change anything, especially ourselves. It delves into the realms of mental health, depression, OCD and the many
layers that constitute addiction. It is bare bones and raw, unadulterated and firmly from the heart.



It is a work in progress, so please feel free to comment or like, as you wish. I really hope you enjoy it.

Table of Contents

Intro

Submitted: June 06, 2018

“Life should not be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in a pretty and well preserved body, but rather to ski... Read Chapter

Part 1

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A year earlier my life seemed to be on track, whatever that means. I was finishing my honours degree in design, making a short film about... Read Chapter

2

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I was walking back to my apartment from university one day when I suddenly felt like I was being crushed. I got dizzy and fell to the gro... Read Chapter

3

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I finished the year and did well, but any praise for what I had accomplished fell on deaf ears. By this point I didn’t even feel relief... Read Chapter

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I booked a ticket to visit my uncle in Iowa. I was running, cowardly retreating into the cold of winter, hoping a busy schedule would hel... Read Chapter

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But this time was different. I had grown up, grown out of an idealistic viewpoint with age and had developed a healthy (some would say un... Read Chapter

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When I came back to Auckland I knew everything had changed. Jade picked me up from the airport and I could see in her eyes that she had b... Read Chapter

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I had to run again, as fast as I could, worried that I could hurt myself and thinking that my problems could once again be resolved geogr... Read Chapter

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It had been a solid three-day run from that point until I found myself at a brothel at 4am not knowing how or why I got there. Sleeping w... Read Chapter

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Despite my feeble attempt at respite in Australia, I returned to Auckland in a worse state than when I had left it. I took a cab from the... Read Chapter

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After that morning grew into the afternoon, then evening, I knew I had to keep moving. I was embarrassed and I longed for change, and tha... Read Chapter

Part 2

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I look up just as the clock ticks to 5pm. The blanketed grey has morphed into a soft red hue as the sun sets its light for the day, repla... Read Chapter

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John and my other friend James arrive, kneeling next to me. “I’m fine,” I say hesitantly. “Don’t move. Can someone call an ... Read Chapter

13

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"Tim, we're going to take you to get some scans now, okay? We're going to get you an x-ray and an MRI so we can have a clearer picture of... Read Chapter

14

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When I come to, I’m back in the emergency room, with James and John sitting next to my bed. A nurse is pumping more morphine into my ar... Read Chapter

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After a couple of hours and several morphine doses later, a porter comes shyly into my cubicle. “Hey, Mr. Hagan, I’m going to be ... Read Chapter

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"Timothy, how are you feeling?” It’s Dr. Kumar again as he closes the blue curtains behind him. He’s followed by the two trigger-ha... Read Chapter

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My head and shoulders jump up suddenly; I’m awake. It’s the middle of the night and I’m screaming. I’m falling again. My left han... Read Chapter

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Dr. Kumar is back an hour later with his team to talk with me. They close the curtains and stand around my bed, overwhelming the space. T... Read Chapter

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My eyes are shaking as I try to open them and gain focus on the room. I’m not sure where I am but I try to hold my eyelids open in shor... Read Chapter

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Visiting hours end and James and Georgia have to say goodbye. The room’s lights are once again dimmed, and I’m left with my fluoresce... Read Chapter

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The next morning I’m in a different room again, this time by myself. The room is long and angled, my bed positioned in the farthest cor... Read Chapter

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Hours pass and I’m still ruminating on it; but there is no definitive answer. I just need to wait. Wait, one of my most despised words ... Read Chapter

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I awake once more to a flush of white noise, the room painfully bright. It stings of that ever-growing familiarity that is incessant fluo... Read Chapter

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After we say our goodbyes I’m carted out of the room in my bed by a porter called Benjamin. As we wait for the elevator a huge dope-fil... Read Chapter

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The scan is over within a matter of minutes and I’m once again transferred back to my bed, then pushed through the hospitals cavernous ... Read Chapter

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“Hey Tim, sorry to disturb you, but we've been receiving numerous calls from your parents asking about your situation. Unfortunately, w... Read Chapter

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I jump up suddenly, wide awake, to the sound of loud buzzing and hustling feet filling the dark, empty space that lies just beyond my enc... Read Chapter

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Every day seems to bleed into the next, a hustle of movement and conversation during the day followed by a heavy, sombre silence at night... Read Chapter

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The second surgery is much less formal. Whereas the first was more of a jacket and tie affair, this one feels more like a second date. Sm... Read Chapter

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Over the preceding four weeks I’ve learned through unwanted necessity to sleep completely still on my back. I can move around a little ... Read Chapter

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My Dad is calling, and I pick up. “Hey, Dad.” “Hi, Tim. How are you feeling?” “Okay, I guess. Just worn out.” ... Read Chapter

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Georgia heads to the hospital straight after work and says goodbye first. She has graciously washed my soiled clothes and is returning th... Read Chapter

Part 3

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I’m lying on my parent’s couch, our cat Daisy firmly ensconced lengthwise in the small crest between my body and the couches cushions... Read Chapter

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I get up off the sofa, being careful not to wake my serene sleeping companion. I hobble on my one crutch from the house to my bedroom, in... Read Chapter

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I wake up suddenly, gasping, trying to catch an ounce of air. Vomit and bile have filled my throat and mouth and cover my pillow. I try t... Read Chapter

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The next day I hobble into a taxi to my first appointment with my psychiatrist. I let most of it out, crying most of the time. She’s a ... Read Chapter

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As I lie in bed listening to the rain pitter-patter on the roof, I think back to my flight home and its absurdity; it reminds me of a Sei... Read Chapter

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My body spasmed and my head jolted into the side window as we touched down. I looked around at a darkened cabin. “Everything okay, ... Read Chapter

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My mind is now in a mad rush, trying to remember everything that has happened since the accident. I need to store it all somewhere, for p... Read Chapter

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The next morning, they pulled my catheter out as there was a risk of infection. I could say the exhumation of the barbed-like tube buried... Read Chapter

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The next day I head to my therapist appointment, arriving at 11am, hobbling out of my special taxi. He greets me with a look of surprise.... Read Chapter

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