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if you are suffering please get help.

Submitted: June 24, 2018

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Submitted: June 24, 2018



Video Recorder starts...


"So this is my last video, you are probably wondering whats going on right now. I wish that I could give you a better understanding of whats going on in my head. You can say that I am fighting my demons right now, so stay till the end if you want or stop now. I never wanted this to happened, but things don't always happen the way that you hope. My parents aren't to blame, I don't really talk to them. I wish that I did, but I'm what you call an outcast. My name is Jonathan Elijah Miller, and this is my suicide video. Mom and dad if you find this, I'm sorry for not talking to you sooner, but I decided to do this now because I knew you guys wouldn't be back till tomorrow.

I thought about different ways that I would do it: Knife to throat, Pills, Cut my wrists, Shot in head or hang myself. You will see at the end how I did it, but I just can't live with myself anymore. I have a few things that I have to confess: I lied to you with you asked me have I ever cut myself, or did drugs. I stole money from you mom, and dad it was me who stole your watch not Thomas. I did want to go with you guys to grandpa's house, but I just didn't know how I could function with all these thoughts in my head.

I thought that life would be better without me in it. I should have came to you first, but I just couldn't. I been fighting a war that I can't win. The video is coming to an end, and I wish that their was more that I could say. I left you a note, so that won't be in this video. That's for you guys only, I love you guys know that so please don't blame yourself. Remember it wasn't anyones fault, it was just me and me alone. The note will be on the desk in my room so please read it, it will explain everything.

(I get the knife from the table)

I choosen a knife to cut my throat with. (Puts knife to throat) Man it's hard to do this, here I go again fighting myself. (pickes up and empty pill bottle) So I had a backup plan, I swolled these pills. I...I man...Its..its seizing, and foaming at the mouth) UGGGHHHHH! ERRRKKKK! ZZZZPPPP!"

Video recorder showing him on the floor, eyes opened. He knocked it over while seizing to the floor.



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