Minority

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Other  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: July 02, 2018

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All of lives, we are told that we matter and that our feelings are important. Why is then that I’m laying in my bed feeling absolutely alone within the bizarre and barren realm that is my mind? I look at happy couples who only wonder about what fun and exciting adventure they’ll have next. Meanwhile, I become more and more isolated and feel less and less worthy of anyone’s time. I have very little in common with your typical All-American boy. I was the one everyone speculated about. I was the one all the guys felt a bit uncomfortable around. Recently, I’ve tried changing my personality for the sake of approval from other guys. But, at what cost? Change who I am in order to obtain acceptance from my peers? Lose myself in the process? Of course, my parents didn’t want me to be this way. That’s why I’ll never have to worry about my parents telling any of my deep dark secrets: they have to hide their shame. I’ve had moments where I fantasized about being the typical boy that loved sports, had the cheerleader girlfriend, and all the guys respected. Things like children and companionship are unobtainable for me. I cannot love a woman the way I’m meant to. I am not the man everyone thinks I should be. I don’t even know. Very few know and the one’s I’ve told have automatically disapproved of my statements and have told me that I should never say never. Easy for them to say. They feel the right way. Me? I have feelings that are to be bottled up and hid away until I reach the moment where I try to destroy them so I don’t feel this ongoing emptiness slowly absorb my whole being. But, it’s okay. Because Jason’s football scholarship and his relationship with Jessica the cheer captain requires all the attention in the world.


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