What Ifs

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Non-Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: July 16, 2018

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My anxiety and depression never let me do things. The anxiety produces a bunch of 'what ifs', and my depression chimes in with the fact that it would be best to stay on the couch. "But what if I miss out on something good?" I say. "What if you miss out on something bad?" my depression retorts. Anxiety is quick to add that there are so many things that could go wrong, and then it proceeds to tell me all of those things. I want to do things! At night or when I'm using the bathroom or during commercials, or any other time I'm alone without distraction from my thoughts, my anxiety and depression bitch at me about how I don't get things done- about how I'm too fragile, neurotic, and scared to face the world. But whenever I go to do something, they're no longer big talkers. Their slogan is always the same all things considered. 'What if something goes wrong?'  I need to try to remind myself that if I allow the things in my head to keep me from doing something that would otherwise be accomplishable, THAT will be the thing that went wrong today. 

 

 

 

Daytime: Don't do it, something will go wrong and it's not worth the effort to try to prevent that. 

 

Nighttime: You didn't do the thing. You didn't do anything. You let the excuses win. Again.


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