All the Things I Couldn't Say

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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: August 02, 2018

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You walked back into my life, and every memory flooded back like I died all over again. 1. Love is clumsy, it stutters and every day I pray I don't step on your heart. 2. Love is scary. I pray every time I see you I don't become the next star on punked, and I'm scared to even leave my house. 3. Every girl I see has your smile. They have your brown eyes and your dorky dimples whenever you stick your tongue out. Your smile haunts my dreams and sometimes I wish I never wake up. Your hands are the nails that penetrate mine and I wish they never get pulled out. 4. Your voice is the sound I hear when I don't quite know what to do with my heart. Telling me that love is simple, that all I have to do is smile, and hold you, but how do I start to trust this new beginning after I realize you're a new blanket covering up my scars that I'm too modest to talk about? 5. I wake up to your dreaming body, so carelessly lying like an ocean of beauty that rained down on the first day. I bet God cussed after he made you. You are that beautiful. 6. We talk about the present; whoever the hell we are now, like the past few years never existed but what can we do when whenever we part all we can say is "Drive safe.." when the last thing on our mind is goodbye? We lay down together, you using me as your pillow and I pray that this moment lasts forever, that we die here to be reborn and do it all over again. You see, love is clumsy, but I'm okay with tripping into your eyes every day. 7. Who we once were means nothing now because we lived through whoever that was to become what we can be now. I kiss you slow, and hard. I taste the day that I die again when your perfume no longer hinges off my chest. I stare into your eyes for days and when I'm thirsty I drink in your laugh and take in your snort that follows. 8. Every piece of you opening up to me is another sample of stardust that makes me wonder if there really is only 7 wonders of the world. I write about the words I could never say, but one day, I swear I'll say this - Thank God the day you noticed me. Thank God we can never say goodbye and thank fucking everything that you are still on my mind. 9. Being away from you, kills me...slowly. Like your perfection is somehow not meant for me but who can say what happens when you're in love. Love is conditional, love is a new bike and a scar to show you were here. Love is happiness when all I think about is the way your hips sway in that new dress, you see, love is constant. 10. Whenever we feel love, it's true, but false when you first say it. Sure you mean it, but you don't know what it's capable of. Love is forever changing, but it's the recklessness you can't help but have and brush off like you did with everyone else's fingerprints on your heart. 1. I don't know where I'm going with this, and I don't think you do either. I'm going to hold you a little too tight for when the day we're buried we can still feel our embrace until we do it all over again in heaven. I'm going to stop holding it in and just kiss you like I'll lose the feeling of your hair falling on me. 2. You probably think that I don't know what I'm feeling, like I'm just like every other guy and waiting for the sheets to call our name for the thousandth time followed by the door closing behind my heart. 3. It's never true. 4. The day you came back into my life I felt a new sense of happiness, like you gave back my heart after using it as a voodoo doll to see if I told the truth. 5. Days that feel like arthritis in every bone in my body are the days where I feel closest to you. I never want to move away because it's without you that my heart commits suicide. My lungs collapse and all the clatter in my mind goes silent when you're near me. 6. Not a day goes by where I don't think of your smile in every breath. I melt when I'm near you, I can't think and it's just that much more of a perfect moment. 7. When I say I pray, I mean I sell my memories just to make more room for you. 8. Whether you think I'm temporary, or not, just know this. 9. I will never see a moment in your eyes, wasted.


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