If its love then so be it

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“If its love then so be it” is a story about the difficulties of love that each and every young man go through. Their challenges through the journey of finding love to places of impossibility. The
courage to approach what is seem impossible from a girl. The courage to man up and go speak to a lady instead of waiting for a lady to come speak to them. In a nutshell, the short story encourages
man to leave their comfort zones and be what women want men to be.

Submitted: August 05, 2018

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Submitted: August 05, 2018



  1.  Acknowledgements


I must pause and reflect on those who selflessly and charitably lifted me up to my writings. With the deepest gratitude I wish to thank everyone who has come into my life and inspired, motivated and lifted me up through their presence. I am forever indebted to you.

I would also like to acknowledge and express my sincere gratitude to the following people who encouraged my hobby of writing short stories to be something that can help people learn and go through their challenges peacefully.

For their generosity, I thank: Sandile Mtshemla, Sikhulule Msengana, Johnny Lephalane, Lolwethu Booi, Onakho Gabhayi and everyone who has read and liked the first short story titled “When Life Feels Like A Test You Didn’t Study For”. Most importantly, my family, readers, Facebook friends etc.


  1. Summary

“If its love then so be it” is a story about the difficulties of love that each and every young man go through. Their challenges through the journey of finding love to places of impossibility. The courage to approach what is seem impossible from a girl. The courage to man up and go speak to a lady instead of waiting for a lady to come speak to them. In a nutshell, the short story encourages man to leave their comfort zones and be what women want men to be.









Author: Lindokuhle Ndinisa





It was in the month of February 2015, on a sunny day with a bit of a wind blowing. Three gentlemen by the name of John, Anthony and Philips met in the Auditorium site next to East London Magistrate Court, where they were attending a Law of Persons lecture. The lecture which was postponed due to the inaugural speech of the former Vice Chancellor Dr Mvuyo Tom that was held in Miriam Makeba at the University of Fort Hare in the East London Campus.

The following day, the three dudes went to attend Logic and ethics which was in Collosium 1. A lecture venue opposite Steers in Town. On their way, they met a very humble young man who was wondering and asking around the venue they were supposed to be going to. Luckily, Philips heard him asking and then attended to him promptly.

The young man introduced himself by the name of Samuel, born and bred in Maclear Town. It was clear from the very onset that Samuel was coming from a country side. His accent was so deep like an ancient Xhosa poet (imbongi), he was scared of the cars, scared of everything machinery. He revealed his true self when he couldn’t point out the difference between “logic” and “logistics”. He couldn’t explain the difference and yet he was proud of the way he interpreted words in his own way. [Hilarious isn’t it?]

The rest of the dudes welcomed Samuel with full endorsement, the first dude John who was very quiet and shy shacked his hand and told him he must be brave. University is not a place for the weak, he told him a brief story about him having to quit Bcom General because he didn’t like it and he never had passion for it, and more significantly he illustrated that it was just a waste of his time.




One day John saw a girl and got attracted to her. He did not inform his friends about the girl because he was a shy person. He wrote messages anonymously to the girl and writes love poems quoting Shakes Spear and other well-known authors. The girl enjoyed the poems but didn’t know the secret admirer and his intentions.

As the time goes by, the four dudes recruited a female friend to their group by the name of Pamela. The common thing with the lady is the mind and the drive similar to a guy. She understands guys very well and she is not judgemental nor dramatic. She is a good listener and a secret keeper but her eyes reveals everything about her. In a nutshell, she is an open book.

John went to Pamela to seek advice on how to approach his crush directly instead of continuously sending messages to her and writing poems. Their consultations went on and on until they found a solution. Pamela advised him to approach the girl physically and confess her love to her. John did not do that instead he lost his nerve and kept his feelings to himself. Time flew, the friendship between Pamela and John became so intense and other friends suspected they might be having an intrigue(secret love affair).

Their suspicions were wrong because at that time Pamela did not have time for boys and even her time to be wasted on relationship was very much preserved for important things.

One early morning, unexpectedly John bumped to his crush on his way from the library to meet his friends Samuel, Anthony, Pamela and Philips. By the look on his face, he was very nervous he couldn’t even greet. What made the whole situation even more difficult for John, his crush didn’t even look at him. He felt so sad because he is a fat guy and there is a superstition that girls don’t like fat guys and they don’t even look at them. Yet, John was excited by the fact that he saw his crush.

[…at the computer laboratory with his friends]

John: guys can you guess who I have met just a few minutes ago?

Philips: (laughing…) Your granny with a moustache?

John: (smiling…) I am serious Philips.

Samuel: tell us bro, who did you meet?

Anthony: Is your crush isn’t it? You’ve been smiling since you came here.

John: (blushing…) yes, but I don’t know what happened. The moment I saw her I just froze. I think I have fallen in love with her so deep and that worries me.

Anthony: the sad part is that she doesn’t know that she has someone crushing on her. You should man up and go talk to her.

Pamela: (surprised…) Anthony, you are the last person to tell John to man up. You still have an unresolved case with that girl in our class.

Anthony: (upset…) Oh! Shut up Pamela.

[…everyone excited about the news that have just been revealed by Pamela. Everyone start asking questions about who is the girl and how does she look like.]

Samuel: (laughing...) You are always on people’s business. Now it’s your turn to share your story with the crew. Who is Mrs right?

John: yeah! Talk man we want to know.

Philips: (smiling…) tell us dude.

Pamela: (with a big smile…) will you tell them or should I?

[Anthony interceded Pamela promptly…]

Anthony: No, I will tell everyone just relax.


[Anthony telling his friends the story about this girl in his class that he loves and hopes they can be a couple]




It was just before the Easter holidays when Anthony saw this gorgeous young girl in class reading her case law textbook. He couldn’t resist such beauty, such heart touching cologne, smelling on her clothes. He didn’t know how to approach her but he knew he has no other way that is better planned than going and talk to her.

He had several breath-takings before going to her, his knees were shaking and his voice because of nervousness was getting smaller and smaller. Pamela noticed Anthony’s body reaction whenever he is closer to the girl. She would call her while Anthony is close by and pretends that she is just asking a school related question, but Anthony would shake, sweat and act weird. Time passes, Anthony continues playing hide and seek. The girl knew Anthony had a crush but she is indecisive whether to give him a chance or not but she is also confused by the fact that Anthony never said a word to her about his true feelings.

Anthony went to Mr George for advise, he explained every detail to him about this girl and without hesitation Mr George responded thereto without a waste of time, because he saw how in love this young boy was and shared some words of wisdom with him

“Young man, women by their nature do not go to a man and confess their feelings, even those who have the courage are consisted of the minority over the entire population of women. Therefore, I advise you not to think of the worst when you are approaching her, be yourself and go talk to her. Always be yourself and if she does not like the real you then she is not the one for you, in fact it is her loss…”

[Mr George is a cleaner at the campus, he is an old man who is very omniscient in nature. Education wise he is illiterate but in terms of life skills in general, he is an expert and a very good listener and a wise adviser. He is a widower, his wife died in a car accident and he has three children who are also in tertiary level in Cuba doing medical studies]

Anthony took the advice and went to talk to her, he was so nervous to a point that his pants felt so wet as if he has peed himself. With that vibrating voice he stood up straight and with confidence as well. Confidence accompanied by nervousness is a worse combination a man can have at this crucial time. It contains a weird behaviour.

[…by the way the girl’s name is Tembi, a very focused young girl, beautiful, light in complexion and with long natural blond hair and brown eyes. She is a daughter of a well-known politician Mr.Veza in King Williams Town, her domicile of origin.]

Anthony was scrolling down the news feeds on Facebook when he saw Tembi’s post revealing her location “Having lunch at Kennaways Hotel, Steers…”.He did not hesitate and went to Kennaways Steers. He put on his best clothes including a jacket that he bought two days ago at Markhams and sprayed a lot of cologne. He went out so fast that he even forgot to take his wallet with him.

[…at Kennawys Steers]

Anthony: (clearing his throat…) Hi, Tembi.

Tembi: (smiling…) hello, you are Anthony, right?

Anthony: (excited…) in a matter of fact yes I’m Anthony.

Tembi: you look energetic today, what a lovely jacket by the way?

Anthony: (hallucinating…) [he lost it, he imagined himself kissing and hugging Tembi. Because of the love he had for Tembi, he couldn’t pretend more but to act according to his thoughts. Everyone at Steers noticed his bizarre behaviour and others understood he is in love but others were perplexed thinking he is going mad.]

Tembi: (surprised…) Anthony, what is wrong with you?

Anthony: (embarrassed…) I’m…(bend down his head)

Tembi: (scared…) this guy is weird.


[Tembi took her order and went to a nearby table and sat down. Took out her cell phone and started typing….]

Cashier at Kennaways Steers: Can I assist you sir?

Anthony: (still embarrassed about what happened) he began to search his pockets so ad nauseum that he ended up looking like an idiot. Then he remembered, he left his wallet back home when he was expeditiously in a hurry leaving his room rushing to Kennaways Steers.

[Tembi looking at him and shaking her head. Anthony noticed that Tembi saw him and he convinced himself that she thinks he does not have money to buy. He then went out of Steers in a rush, unexpectedly so and in the weirdness way no one has ever seen].

[On his way, Anthony bumped into two beautiful girls who were taking selfies with an I Phone, using a selfie stick. He almost broke the cell phone when he bumped into the girl who was holding the cell taking pictures]

Girls: (screaming…)

Anthony: He quickly apologised and he was still thinking hard about what had happened at Steers. He continued acting weird as if he is being chased by a lion on a dessert with no place to hide. He was moving from north to south and from west to east like a headless chicken.

Girls: (ran to the nearby store, Kennaways Steers…)

[The two girls are Tembi’s cousins from King Williams Town. They shared the awful experience they encountered a few minutes ago about “this mad man”; Anthony’s weird behaviour made him named a “mad man”. They laughed about it and Tembi also shared her side of the story, the incident that happened inside the shop. They had a good time together as family, they laughed and laughed, took selfies and posted on social media, both Facebook and Instagram]


Anthony arrived at his home, his self-esteem is very low because of what happened at Steers. In the evening that day, he decided to visit his social media accounts to refresh his brain from the traumatic experience he encountered. He had a mini heart attack when he saw the two girls he almost broke their cell phone while they were taking selfies tagged in the same photo with Tembi. With a caption “Day well spent with my cousins after a terrible experience #MadMan”.

He drew some inferences about the hash tagged(#) term “MadMan”, and he reached a conclusion that the term refers to him. He then connected the dots between the two girls and Tembi and it clearly made sense to him that they possibly have told each other about the unfortunate events that happened today.




Anthony decided to move on with his life and tried to bury the crush he had over Tembi. He began approaching other girls to make himself feel better, luckily he did not get any rejections this time, perhaps it is the fact that he does not look needy. Apparently, girls do not like guys who are needy, it scares them and chases them away. A guy must look tough, knowing what he wants, cares a lot and be a good listener. Anthony had those qualities but the type of girls he dates did not meet any of the observations he conducted on Tembi. Tembi was a powerful girl, full of life(adventurous), respectful, not in competition with anyone, minds her own business, loves to help needy people(on vacation she assists in orphanage homes around the Eastern Cape), lastly, she is a God fearing person.

Anthony got a job at Spar Supermarket as a packer, he had moved on from the drama that happened at Kennaway Steers, he is living a normal life and has made a vow to himself that he will never ever in his life approach a girl who by their looks is a “slay queen” (…definitions of a slay queen differs, for the purpose of this story, “a slay queen” is a girl coming from a rich family and has expensive materials such as an I’Phone, weave and the modern trending outfits etc).

According to Anthony, Tembi was a slay queen. He had convinced himself that guys like him can never date girls like Tembi because of levels. Be that as it may, Tembi do not have taste on guys, she can date any guy who deserves her, whether poor, rich etc it does not matter to her. Anthony did not know that, he continued convincing himself that he is not Tembi’s type.

(On a weekend…)

It was on Saturday evening, an hour before the end of business at Spar. Tembi’s male cousin who is a chattered accountant in Pretoria had a business trip to East London, after business he went to see Tembi before he report back to Pretoria on Sunday morning. He had booked at ICC Hotel and he is more of a traditional type of a guy who does not like hotel food and prefers home cooked meal like samp and lamb stew, so he called Tembi to accompany him to a near shop where he can find the type of food he wants. Tembi suggested they go to Spar.

(An unexpected heartbreak…)

Tembi and her cousin entered Spar all happy and smiling, holding hands since they last saw each other in two years, the were excited to see each other. They did not see anything wrong by holding hands because they are family. Anthony saw them and his adrenalin was so high, his heartbeat was fast as if he saw a ghost, we thought he had moved on completely from Tembi but he did not realise he was just in a healing process. He looked at Tembi’s cousin, he noticed the way he dressed that he is wealthy and is a working class. He thought that Tembi has a blesser/sugar daddy. He started hating that and went to approach the cousin and confronted him for taking advantage of a tertiary student.

(…another embarrassment breakdown)

Anthony: (with force…) grabbing Tembi’s cousin’s hand, untying it to Tembi’s hand since they were holding hands in tandem.  

The cousin: (shocked…) Geez! Man what is wrong with you?

Anthony: (shouting…) You are asking me what is wrong? Can’t you see what you are doing is erroneous and embarrassing. You are sleeping with students.

Tembi: (perplexed…) Excuse me?

Anthony: (trying to calm her down…) I know men like this one, they always take advantage to students because they are vulnerable.

(The whole stuff at Spar came out in numbers to see what was happening.  The manager was so disappointed and embarrassed by the behaviour of one of his stuff members [Anthony]. The manager instructed the Security guard to escort Tembi’s cousin from that awful experience and also apprehend Anthony for his reckless and unmannered behaviour.)


  1. [John’s Story of the crush that never knew was a crush. Continuation…]


John has a lot of similarities with Anthony, maybe it is the fact that they are friends and they share the same experience of finding it difficult to communicate without being nervous with the opposite gender. Their lack of experience with interacting with girls makes them fall into a nightmare of the fairy-tale love.

(…the nightmare of the fairy-tale love)

After John saw his crush on campus he was always day dreaming about that experience. He was getting so obsessed with being in an imaginary relationship with the girl. In the evening, John decided to take a walk alone to the beach to have his own time to think deeper about this imaginary relationship he is trapped into, which he wishes it can turn into a real relationship. The problem with turning the imaginary into reality is the lack of guts, insecurities and low self-esteem. As he was walking, he saw a couple holding hands, smiling and enjoying their ice-cream. He imagined himself with his crush doing the exact thing at the exact place and in the exact moment.

John woke up from that day dream when he was greeted by a photographer who was passing by the beach advertising his business. The photographer noticed the strange behaviour from this young man and decided to leave quickly since he thought maybe John is a maniac. John sat down and started throwing little stones to the water while the waves were going back and forth, birds singing a melody and the sun shines very bright; it was a beautiful day.

John started hearing a weird sound of something falling, he looked back and there was his crush, wearing a short, vest and sun glasses. It was her cell phone falling and the screen was broken. Before John even stood up and go check on her, a young handsome Indian guy who was driving a Golf GTI parked near the beach went to her rescue first; the guy offered to replace her screen if she does not mind. She smiled but said “No thanks”, then she left. Leaving an Indian guy who was trying to help stranded and disappointed with the response from an exquisite young girl.

It was John’s happiest moment of his life when he saw that happening. He realised from that moment that he needed to approach the girl expeditiously and without any further ado.

(The name of the girl is Mbali, a very talented Tennis player. She is a sport person, very strict in diet and adores jogging in the morning)

John is so in love with Mbali and he knows that if he takes time to talk to her, other guys might get that opportunity and use it wisely. He then ran to her after she had turned down the Indian guy.

(…breathing high and sweating since the weather is hot and John is an obese person; started greeting her. John does not realise that Mbali likes jokes and she has a sense of humour)

John: (sweating and tired from running…) Hello! I’m John.

Mbali: (smiling…) Hi, I’m Mbali.

John: (with a big smile…) I’m going to the same direction, can we walk together and chat if you don’t mind?

Mbali: Of course, I thought you wanted tips on how to lose weight. (she began laughing. John was offended by what Mbali said but he laughed too because he loves her)

John: That would be lovely, you know.

Mbali: (excited…) Good. I always needed a jogging partner. I jog every morning at 06:00am.

John: (surprised…) 06:00am?

Mbali: Do you have a problem with that?

John: No, not at all. (…in fact John had a problem with that, he has sleeping problems and they are the result of his body gaining so much fat because he eats and go to sleep. His entire body system struggles to digest food faster than a normal person. Most vitally, he was worried that he might disappoint Mbali since he is suffering from this unusual “learnt habit”).

John made sacrifices for Mbali, he started doing things he never done before. He began to acclimatize to Mbali’s strict diet. He lost a lot of mass not weight. (According to physics, there is somehow a difference between a mass and a weight. When someone is gaining a lot of fat we sometimes refer to that person as “gaining weight” which is erroneous. A mass is an amount of matter in the body whereas a weight is a downward pull between an object and the Earth which is caused by a force of gravity).

John has impressively succeeded the goal of losing weight and be what he always wanted to be. His friendship with Mbali was very tight but he had to confess his love for him.

John: (Confessing his feelings to Mbali) “Mbali I have always loved you, no one else but you. Maybe we can just drop this pretence of acting like we don’t want each other and honestly speaking about how we feel about each other. Mbali I love you!”.

Mbali: (wiping tears of joy in her chicks) “Wow! John, I have never experience such truth. You are a good person, a pleasure to have around. I have gained trust in you and it made me fall in love with you. I love you too John.”

The relationship between Mbali and John became a partnership. None of them expected the impossible from each other, they understood their backgrounds and supported each other in every way possible. They always kept in mind the fact that they are students and their relationship was not a first hand priority in their list priorities; they respected each other’s space and even when they go out, they spend as little as possible since they were students and do not afford an expensive lifestyle.


  1. (The beginning of the end: Continuation of Anthony’s story)


Anthony was fired at Spar after the drama he committed to Tembi’s cousin. He was so stressed and he ended up having depression. His friends advised him to go see a therapist Dr Maka.

(Dr Maka is a specialist in helping people with depression to be better. He just graduated from a Medical School in Cuba. Apparently, Dr Maka’s father is Mr George the Campus cleaner. His father used to tell him about Anthony and his crush. Dr Maka was familiar with cases of this kind and luckily Anthony knew his father in a personal level).

Anthony finished all the sessions with Dr Maka and felt better than he was before. He started gaining self-esteem, his confidence was on the peak, his law of attraction tactics were extraordinary; he was like a born again Christian.

Everyone was shocked with the way Anthony does things, he was so respectful, kind to people. He never thought he could love someone let alone Tembi. He had someone crushing on him so much. It was Pamella his female friend, it was a shocking experience to him.

To be frankly, male friends have a habit of ruining friendships by approaching their female friends first and confess their feelings to them. This time, it was the other way around. Respectfully, Anthony didn’t care about Pamella’s beauty, caves and cute smile; if a man does not want you, he does not want you, not even a king nor a queen can change that. Anthony decided without a doubt to cut ties with Pamella, it was not because of what she did but how she took advantage of his healing process. At this stage, Anthony was on an assessment to evaluate himself whether he can survive the reality of this world after what had happened to him. He suffered from a severe obsession with high levels of insecurities; his situation was similar to the one of a man who is jealous of someone, a complete pure egocentricity.

Tembi heard people talking good things about Anthony, she sees the pictures and videos that he post of social media are more educational and simple. She noticed that Anthony lives a simple life, a life of no trends and impressions. She started developing feelings and interest to Anthony’s work of uplifting himself to great towers. She tried and tried to be closer but was rejected by Anthony. She started losing her mind and dated older guys who promised her the world then disappoint her multiple times. She lost and undermined a heart of a loving man, Anthony. Her last words before she committed suicide were “If its love then so be it”.

[ The End]








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