Not a Romantic

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I don't know if I would call myself a romantic...

Submitted: August 21, 2018

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I don't know if I would call myself a romantic

I mean, I love the idea of falling in love

Be willing to give your everything for another soul

Yet I don't know if I can ever see myself yielding

In such a way

You see, the thing with being in love is that it leaves you powerless

Everytime I feel lonely and want someone I can call my own

I get reminded a reason not to, people ain't shit

I don't truly understand the idea of love as I pretend to do

I mean how is it you fall in and out love a few times before you find “the one”?

Is it because the ones before truly never loved you?

Or is the fault really in your own hands?

Or how do you deal with the constant skepticism of the fact they only love a part of you

Only love a certain aspect

Maybe they claim to love you because your smile comforts them, keeps them happy and grounded

Maybe they claim to love you because you blame yourself for their own mistakes

Making them feel better about themselves

I stand trying to understand love while also thinking its it's a load of bullshit

I mean, could you blame me?

The whole idea of it seems pleasant, but in real life the same can't always be said.

My indecisive thoughts always keep me wary

Whenever I tread the dangerous line of “do I like him as just a friend, or something more?”

I know if I don't get my own shit together I will wind up hurting people I could've loved

And if I don't get my skeptical ideas of love in order soon

I just might end up fucking myself over even worse

 


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