I'm Numb

I’m numb

I’m tired

Pain doesn’t matter to me anymore

People judging me

I don’t care

It used to hurt so much

but now it doesn’t

I still want to cry all the time

That won’t ever change

But the feeling when I’m outside of my bedroom

They have gone

I don’t know what’s worse

Being immune to all the negativity

Or feeling way too much

I thought I was okay

Why does it have to be this way?

I want to know how it feels to be liked and hated

Not knowing either of them

I’m numb

It doesn’t hurt

It doesn’t feel good either

I feel nothing

Not a single bit of anything

Until I’m locked inside my bedroom

Alone

Free from everything except myself

I am my own enemy

I hate who I have become

Can’t hide my arms since people know to look there

So showing how I feel some place else

Done it twice so far

I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to leave a mark

Sometimes I wish that I let go of that branch

Other times I don’t

I’m numb

I’m tired

I’m sorry

I’m hurting

I’m in a state of constant destruction

Hopefully no one I care about sees this

Unless I show them

But that would be a mistake