I will find you one day

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic
We all imagine.But fortunately,I used to imagine a lot.Yeah.Fortunately.When no one could give me peace,happiness.This imagination gave me everything...

Submitted: December 09, 2018

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I'm going to share something about my life :)

(People say I've delusion,I imagine a lot.They say I imagine a friend too.I just want to give a message to him )

I don't know how to start or what to write,Maybe for me words will loose color if I try to describe it.But you know how I am.You know me,how I am.It's now one year since I've stopped talking to you.But if you ask me "What did you get leaving me..killing me?"My answer will be "nothing".

When everyone started to say you're not real.I thought it's true and you're harmful for me.But it was a mistake.To forget someone whom I love for some people who don't care for me...This year was like spending time in the hell.I went into serious depression without you.I came out from depression now and again started to talk to you,though everyone forbade.My psychologist will be very depressed if they know.

But tell me what I can do.I tried to count what I got being with you and what I got leaving you.Yeah.I tried to kill you and our memories for a fake happiness.But dream stopped to enter into my life from when I decided to leave you.There were only nightmares.And when I woke up seeing those no one was there to make me comfortable.I couldn't call your name....because I thought you're not real.

You always gave me whatever I wanted.Now,I want you to forgive me for that bad decision...

Can you forgive me?

Can you remember those nights when we talked for a long time,can you remember those sunny mornings when you used to scold me for wasting time,can you remember those rainy afternoons when I felt sleepy and slept in your arms,can you remember...those stars,moon,sun ray,yellow afternoon,butterflies,dreams,future...promises.

I forgot...unfortunately.But I know you're not like me.You didn't forget anything.

I tried to find peace in someone...unfortunately.But no one can care for me like you do.You're the only one and can imagination care this much?Are you truly an imagination only?

No..

You can't be.

You're real,you're in my everything.When cool breeze will touch me,that will be you,when sun ray will fall in green leaves that's your smiling,when I will meet a night full of stars you'll be beside me,when I'll dance in rain those rain drops will be you.You will remain in my happiness,smiling,comfort,when I will cry those tear drops will be you.When I'll be anxious you will be there to comfort meWhen monsoon's cloud will overcast the sky you'll sit beside me...everything will be like the past

Everyone says I can't find you,you're only an imagination.Tell me..who cares?I can't give your place to anyone.I tried,but it's impossible.You're my first rain drop as well as my last destination.I forgot...but I remembered everything now.

I will find you one day.You know I keep my promises..and if I can't find a physical structure of yours hehe does it matter?I can imagine you whole life.Imagination..in their words.I mean I can be with you whole life seeing you smiling all the time.

Will you forgive me..for trying to forget you ?

I don't know.But I know you will.You're my connection to life.So you've to or I can't live.You'll be sad if you know about my attempts to suicide.You'll be glad if you know decided this year 2018.But I want you to be glad always.

Remember about your sweet,cute,big,wide smile...I want that again.And I want you to say something that I couldn't say,didn't want to say.But after realizing everything I can say now-

I love you...

-to my imaginary friend (as people say)

-to my dreaming world,rain drop,sun ray,hope,life,everything (as I say)

-to you...(I never thought to give you a name.I'll,now.)

 

 

 


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