A poem I wrote 5 years ago, giving a glimpse into the world of struggling with Anxiety.

In the Silence is when it starts

The creeping and crawling of my darkest most inner thoughts

The echoing suffocating space gets filled with the sound of a million thoughts at once

That are now running and flooding into my mind trying to get to my heart

Taking over my peace and filling my mind with doubts and fears

Some of things I have said today and yesterday even sometimes a couple weeks before

Making me relive past conversations making sure I said everything right

So I don't lose anyone else

I try to swim through my mind to find the good thoughts

The confidence in the things I know I did right

That seem so few

In my heart I know the good outweighs the bad

Then the doubt steps in; “Does it?”

Before the panic digs its claws in any deeper

I try and find an escape

I turn on music, a show, play a game, read a book, try and talk to a friend while doing one, two or even three of those things at the same time

Anything to reassure and distract the thoughts in the negative space in my mind

To keep them at bay

And fill the Silence with better things


Submitted: February 13, 2019

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hullabaloo22

Anxiety like that does not like to be silenced. All those doubts -- very relatable.

Wed, February 13th, 2019 8:07pm

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It really doesn't...

Sat, February 16th, 2019 2:55pm

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