Somber Reminisce

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Romance  |  House: Booksie Classic

Submitted: March 10, 2019

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How should I start this? I don’t want this to sound like some sort of diary or some shitty essay that you got stuck with to write.I just want this to be a simple story. A story that has no happy ending though and where everyone doesn’t live happily ever after like a fairy tail. Sadly for this story it’s a tragic end that will forever be part of me. 5 years ago, I was in high school doing regular things what a normal 16 year old would do. In school I was just trying to finish yet I made wrong choices and it all went downhill. This was the time that I guess I was young and rebellious if that’s how you want to call it. I had cared too much about school growing up and I realized that it’s too much and I began to care less and less. My intentions weren’t to fail school although it seemed like it. I didn’t want to be like the rest where they decide to drop out and work painfully their whole life. This was a big part of my life at the moment but this is not what I want my story to be about. I met this one girl who In the beginning didn’t seem much interest to me. I was a type of person that at a young age didn’t really care about girls or money I basically just wanted to live life and play games which I now realize it was childish. I somehow started communicating with this girl and as we talked more and more I became interested. Interested in a friendly way because I had no intentions of becoming more than a friend with anyone before. This girl started becoming a part of my life as we spoke basically everyday and to me it was fun texting her all the time. I had never had such communication with a girl like this before. In a way I started to develop some sort of feeling you can say. Days,months, and years went on and on as we kept our communication strong. sadly I didn’t get to see this girl as often as I wanted to see her. To make it worst every time I would actually get the chance see her my nerves would kick in and they would kill me. I could hardly speak and with my sweaty palms I felt like I was melting. These were such awkward moments that I wish I could of changed. I wanted to spend all the time I could with this girl but because of these nerves I was such a wimp. As our friendship continued I could say I was actually feeling such things for this girl but I felt like if she were to ever find out she would end up wanting to just be friends so I kept in silence. I could call this girl my best friend. Kinda seems odd for someone who had no such interactions with girls and all of a sudden have a female best friend huh? Well it just happened. As regular friendships there’s always good moments and bad but what I enjoyed the most that at the end of the day Savannah and I would always come together. Savannah and I built something that I believed could never be destroyed. After a while savannah gave me a chance and I felt complete. I had never spent such better and amazing days than I did during the time we spent together. The bad side about this is we were still young and had no experience which was kinda hard to do what a regular couple should do. I would hold her hand with such awkwardness and hug her like if I was hugging my mother. We spent some time together until savannah decided that it was better to remain as simply friends. This tore a part of me but I realized we were young and not experienced so In a way it would be right. The thing savannah didn’t know is that the feelings I felt for her never went away. The friendship continued but I pretended like nothing just to be tough knowing I was dying inside. As we both grew I feel we started to drift away although it’s something I never wanted. Savannah grew older and so did. I started to realize that this  world is full pain and agony and the things you are longing for the most can never be kept within your grasp. This girl that has been so special to me has start to drift away and as I sit desolate I begin to ponder how better things would be if I had savannah with me by my side. No such person exists that has had such connection with me as I feel with savannah. I grew up into something that I never imagined I would be. Not only did savannah drift away but In a way I believe I pushed her away too. All the great memories I shared with her are the best I’ve had.savannah always wanted to be there for me and I know I became a fool and ignored that. As my life continues I always think of savannah even on the busiest days at work or in the long boring schooling I take. I manage to still keep in touch with savannah even after all this but it all fell completely apart not too long ago. In a way I could say savannah managed to replace me or just found someone better. By this I mean she eventually found...........


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