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Status: Finished  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic

What I want, when I want

Fuck tomorrow, wanna feel better now,


Act when a signal, hits the orbitofrontal cortex.


Dopamine and me, relationship status complex,


Getting what I want, when I fucking want it.


Emotions in the driver's seat, just a passenger,


Gut says 15 South, brain is filled with doubt.


15 North was needed, absent of hesitation,


I’ve decided, my actions won’t have cessation.


Levees broken, the beginning of a flood,


Breaking point, too much on my shoulders.


Skin and muscle peel like an onion, layer by layer,


Down to the bone, to please corporate shareholders.


Forethought called out sick, so whim got called in,


Ends justify the means, wanna feel better now.


Hope for the best, but always prepared for the worst,


Having a Plan A to a Plan Z, lowers my anxiety.


Stress and snow both build slowly and silently,


Give into the electric signals, firing in my brain.


Fuck tomorrow, wanna feel better now,


Act when a signal, hits the orbitofrontal cortex.


Submitted: March 12, 2019

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I can relate so much to this, MW. Excellent lines, I wish wounds wouldn't take so long to heal.

Tue, March 12th, 2019 12:57pm


I've got quite the impulsive nature, so I focus on short term rewards instead. One of my flaws is not looking at the bigger picture/the future, but I'm only worried about how I'm going to be feeling right now. Thanks for reading, love, I appreciate it :)

Tue, March 12th, 2019 9:50pm


Sometimes emotions have to beat rationality, and for better or worse impulsiveness wins. The lines have a kind of manic desperation to them that really illustrates that knife-edge feeling.

Tue, March 12th, 2019 8:45pm


I tend to be an extremely emotional person, and there are times where my emotions explode all at once. That knife edge feeling is awful, it's something that is made more aggressive and painful when you involve drugs and other personal issues. Thanks for reading Hully

Tue, March 12th, 2019 10:02pm

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