journal's journey

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Poetry  |  House: Booksie Classic
“journal’s journey” is a compilation of poems and prose written by vermouth rum. it is her first compilation, and most poems were written way back in 2015.

poems and prose in this compilation are not just about the author, but the people she’d met, the things she encountered in most of her journeys, the thoughts along the way and wanderings, and those who inspired her to write those poems.

such topics and themes as love, lost. grieve, memories and struggle. taking a step forward, betrayals, and society are the main subjects of her poetry.

Table of Contents

note

Submitted: March 17, 2019


most works were from 2015, some were from 2016---so, bear with me
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sleepless night

Submitted: March 17, 2019

here i am again tonight, asking when i will see light. just tired of those days of fight, guess, another sleepless night. burie... Read Chapter

t.s.

Submitted: March 17, 2019

i never met her, nor seen her personally; but she’s taught me how to be fearless and happy. not to be afraid of expressing my feeli... Read Chapter

friend

Submitted: March 17, 2019

among thousands, millions of people, there’s one person out there who you call when something good or bad happens to you, and kno... Read Chapter

hold on

Submitted: March 17, 2019

hold on, hold my hand. i’d just step on a new land. i’d be gone for a moment, but this isn’t a “goodbye” yet. nothing... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: March 17, 2019

choosing between people is just awful. you might hurt the other one. you know that feeling when you’re not chosen and it’s so disap... Read Chapter

losing grip

Submitted: March 17, 2019

he’s not a stress giver, he’s the one who’s stressed. other people’s problems’ analyzer, but he, himself, is depressed. ... Read Chapter

never come back

Submitted: March 17, 2019

i was already happy until you came again, and brought those feelings that i thought were long-forgotten. i’ve moved on but you brou... Read Chapter

shadow

Submitted: March 17, 2019

a shadow copies who it’s following, it follows and always does cling. vanishes when the day comes, like a beast; as if it doesn... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: March 17, 2019

i used to know everything about you, now i'm clueless about you. ... Read Chapter

reckless words

Submitted: March 17, 2019

without thinking, we say reckless words, hurtful terms that are beyond the border. and those are like swords, they can push people ... Read Chapter

that's when

Submitted: March 17, 2019

those emails i used to receive, the letters you used to give. the things you said to me, the secrets we kept together. the sweete... Read Chapter

bond

Submitted: March 17, 2019

i don’t know how it feels like to be a part of a band. to ride with them using a bike, and make a castle out of sand. to be w... Read Chapter

to my old companions

Submitted: March 18, 2019

to my old companions,   back then, i was the one who you wanted to talk to everyday. if something happened, whether a smal... Read Chapter

choices

Submitted: March 18, 2019

most of the time, we call people "unfair" because they don't give back the treatment we give to them. but we can't force them, ... Read Chapter

they know nothing

Submitted: March 18, 2019

i know you, more than just your story--- but the saddest part of it's that, they know nothing about us. i wish they could know what... Read Chapter

left behind

Submitted: March 18, 2019

auburn already has her own--- a person who she talks to on the phone. the one who talks to her in a sincere tone, which causes her ... Read Chapter

what am i to you?

Submitted: March 18, 2019

we know each other very well, both there when one fell. you mean a lot, together, we sat. but it’s your bio where their nam... Read Chapter

eremophobia

Submitted: March 18, 2019

i fear growing up with no one who’d pick me up; who’d give me that tea cup, and smile, saying “what’s up?” i fear gro... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: March 18, 2019

i wish that this will be the beginning of something different. ... Read Chapter

the day you wake up

Submitted: March 18, 2019

maybe the day you wake up from the fact that i was there, is gonna be the day i wake up from the fantasy that i used to think---that i ... Read Chapter

forgotten

Submitted: March 18, 2019

those daydreams and little things we did, we’re together even when our hearts bleed. the promises we made a few years ago, i wond... Read Chapter

plastic

Submitted: March 18, 2019

you got that mesmerizing eyes, smile that causes these stomach butterflies. the way you sing to me---it could kill; are you even re... Read Chapter

part of you

Submitted: March 18, 2019

what is this feeling? my heart's aching. when i see you with another person, it makes me wanna cry every dawn. what is this thi... Read Chapter

wounds

Submitted: March 18, 2019

it's hard to walk across the path when you have deep, bleeding wounds. but you continue walking and you try hard to cross the stree... Read Chapter

for you, it's so easy

Submitted: March 18, 2019

you mean everything to me, i meant everything to you. you're important to me, i was important to you. you turned your back, i l... Read Chapter

this time, i will

Submitted: March 19, 2019

the worst part of all is reminiscing, those unforgettable memories and the songs we used to sing. remembering just makes me sad. do... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: March 19, 2019

you won't be needing to ask me to leave again, 'cause i'll go. i'll leave now. ... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: March 19, 2019

sometimes the person we thought who would be there  for the second time is now the reason why we're shattered.   ... Read Chapter

you changed me, yet you hurt me

Submitted: March 19, 2019

i was always holding back my fears 'til you came, you cared about me, and so i did the same to you. i wish you'd go back, so that thi... Read Chapter

what's with you?

Submitted: March 19, 2019

i don’t get this world’s cruelty, full of envy and dishonesty. people knock off others’ feet, so many unfair people who don... Read Chapter

memory

Submitted: March 19, 2019

i accidentally saw an old picture as i scroll down through my gallery. one thing’s for sure--- it’s a wonderful memory. i s... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: March 19, 2019

we’re completely different. i never imagined that i’d need you, and that you’d be there. then time changed everything. the ... Read Chapter

come back

Submitted: March 19, 2019

i know you for so long, i even wrote you a song. you know what the real “me” is, i really can’t believe this. that there ... Read Chapter

stay

Submitted: March 19, 2019

don’t leave, please. i don’t care if you always sneeze. let’s share some more teas, i don’t mind if you want to tease. ju... Read Chapter

what a poet hides

Submitted: March 19, 2019

feelings, emotions. thoughts and frustrations. confusion, jealousy. sadness or when she’s deeply wounded. rage and pain. emot... Read Chapter

you're not the one i once knew

Submitted: March 19, 2019

whenever you call me, i feel sad. when i talk to you, i feel lonely. because i remember the changes in you and me. you once m... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: March 19, 2019

how could you stay with a person who's not even proud to call you a part of their life? ... Read Chapter

love that's gone

Submitted: March 19, 2019

i still remember the words you once said when i texted you as i was lying on my bed. “no, we’re not going to separate.” you s... Read Chapter

strangers

Submitted: March 23, 2019

we met as strangers who definitely hate each other. can’t agree with some matters, that’s what we were. then we talked and ... Read Chapter

closure

Submitted: March 23, 2019

it's been a year and my heart's still burning, it's living inside me, the fire's raging. i remember all of what've happened, i don'... Read Chapter

closure

Submitted: March 23, 2019

you know you want to distance yourself from everything when you just want to stay away even from the people you love. even though you c... Read Chapter

red rose

Submitted: March 23, 2019

love. care. passion. attention. that’s what you gave to me together with that red rose. we used to breathe in the same surr... Read Chapter

roberia

Submitted: March 23, 2019

i hate you. i hate you not because you didn’t keep your words, but because you forgot them. i hate you not because you left, bu... Read Chapter

daria

Submitted: March 23, 2019

from passion to desolation, from desolation to hatred. and now, betrayal. you were the daria that once grew in front of my house. ... Read Chapter

stupidity

Submitted: March 24, 2019

“i can't understand why people nowadays are like this. are they out of their minds? i don't get the point why they keep drinking... Read Chapter

her

Submitted: March 24, 2019

he loves me, he loves me not. he loves me, we talk about the stuff we like. he loves me not, he never opens up to me. he love... Read Chapter

poison

Submitted: March 24, 2019

you're a poison that couldn't get out of my body. and i think, would never get out of my heart, 'cause you've been a part of my who... Read Chapter

reasons

Submitted: March 24, 2019

you've got so many reasons. reasons to love me, reasons to have me. reasons to fix this, reasons to stay with me. but the worst... Read Chapter

seventeen

Submitted: March 24, 2019

maybe it's when i was four, i didn't crave for more. all i gave were tears of joy, 'cause mom bought me a new toy. or maybe it'... Read Chapter

e.s.

Submitted: March 24, 2019

you are ed sheeran, and i'm taylor swift. you write and i do, too. we put our souls into what we write. you know me just like how... Read Chapter

she doesn't

Submitted: March 24, 2019

she doesn't look at you the way you look her. she doesn't mind if you don't answer her questions. she doesn't see your existence, but... Read Chapter

go back

Submitted: March 24, 2019

i want to go back to those days, when school was our happiest place. there wasn't that much case, i didn't need to run for this rac... Read Chapter

stand up

Submitted: March 24, 2019

if you're shattered, don't expect others to fix you. they might just break you even more. if you fell down, don't wait for someon... Read Chapter

amnesic

Submitted: March 24, 2019

can’t make it through the day, i’m running out of words to say. i wish i’m still a kid who could play, there’s nothing i ne... Read Chapter

lies

Submitted: March 25, 2019

you said we'd go to some places, but it's just one of your broken promises. i thought we'd run the same races, now, i'm in such emp... Read Chapter

delusion

Submitted: March 25, 2019

she wakes up every morning, with your face in her mind. thinking of what surprise you might bring, dreaming of the mysteries you tw... Read Chapter

evil

Submitted: March 25, 2019

in this void wherein you're the villain, monsters, they are living in vain. people are used to bearing all pain, 'til they wash it ... Read Chapter

falling apart

Submitted: March 25, 2019

change was never easy. it's easy to change yourself, yes. but to deal with the changes around you, no. you might be okay today, then to... Read Chapter

red light

Submitted: March 25, 2019

it's another sleepless night, again, i saw the red traffic light. the light that wants to guide me, as i walk through the street an... Read Chapter

a favor

Submitted: May 21, 2019

do me a favor. forget what i was like in the past. ... Read Chapter

still waiting

Submitted: May 21, 2019

how i wish you're still mine, because my heart's still yours. do you wonder if i'm doing fine, or think if i'm running outdoors? ... Read Chapter

a different kind of apology

Submitted: May 21, 2019

we say sorry as we part ways. and the moment we say that, i know i won't be able to see you again, never again. i'll never hear y... Read Chapter

sign

Submitted: May 21, 2019

in my dream, you were there. we had a little conversation. there, i asked you to stay. you said no, and i woke up. i tried to s... Read Chapter

unsaid

Submitted: May 21, 2019

words behind my back, words inside my head. "i'm sorry." terms that won't come out, terms i want to say. "i love you." ... Read Chapter

decision

Submitted: May 21, 2019

it's either you face them and prove something, or live a whole new life without those people who'd been a part of your dark pas... Read Chapter

answer

Submitted: May 21, 2019

sometimes, we’re looking for an answer. one specific answer that would help us. most of the time, we don’t find even one, or ... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: May 21, 2019

the more we talk, the more i fall, the more it hurts.   ... Read Chapter

gone

Submitted: May 21, 2019

memories of me and you will vanish, until in the sea, there lives no fish. even the best ones will disappear, and there's no chance... Read Chapter

betrayal

Submitted: May 21, 2019

i want to tell them a story, a story 'bout how you said you were sorry. how you cried and made me worry, you needed help and i was ... Read Chapter

secrets

Submitted: May 23, 2019

i am full of secrets i wonder why life's full of regrets i hear the angels' cry i see them fight to live or die i want people not... Read Chapter

to my man

Submitted: May 23, 2019

to my man, thank you for knowing me. for loving me back. for being here during the worst times. for believing in me. for taking... Read Chapter

4 am

Submitted: May 23, 2019

you're telling me to sleep, i say i can't sleep. the real thing is, i'm sleepy. i just don't want our conversation to end. 'cau... Read Chapter

an island

Submitted: May 23, 2019

they say no man is an island, but i guess i am an island. people might come to me when they're lost in the sea, and leave when they... Read Chapter

winter wind

Submitted: May 23, 2019

i couldn’t feel the pain anymore, it’s the pain that caused me to stay up ‘til four. the pain from winter, it’s when they all... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: May 23, 2019

never say something that might be used against you, or to weaken you. ... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: May 23, 2019

“i miss you,” he said. “no, you don’t need me. you don’t need my stories,” i answered. ... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: May 23, 2019

you loved my eyes, they looked so much like hers. my smile, it made you forget the pain she brought. my shoulders, for you coul... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: May 23, 2019

he was from north. she’s in the south. she fell in love with a man she never met. the worst part’s that--- he forgot about he... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: May 23, 2019

“you made them look bad.” “nope. that’s what really happened---a scene they never revealed.” ... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: May 24, 2019

letting someone go doesn’t mean that they don’t mean to you anymore. sometimes, it’s just that, they bring more than enough impac... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: May 24, 2019

not everyone can accept the fact that you’ve changed. those who stay and welcome the “new you” are indeed, true. ... Read Chapter

untitled

Submitted: May 24, 2019

i rarely leave a person but when i do, they’ll never know the reason why i left.     ... Read Chapter