Chapter 1: Inside The Womb

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Status: In Progress  |  Genre: Literary Fiction  |  House: Booksie Classic

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Comments: 6

The Wailing Satellite 


"How far south can one go?" I have been wondering since the day I met God. 

An answer I want to know not, but I'll tell to you how my Fate was formed if I must.

This is tale of love and hate, of hope and despair; and how I came to be aware that

Faith was something that could have you saved as well as have you destroyed. 

This is not from a person who writes with a Rosy pen, but from a broken bard. 

A story true, though, I must say, despite it may be dark and have you disturbed.

"How far south can one go?" Body Death is far from the worse answer can I go. 

Happy would I be if that was what I had rewarded on the day when I was born! 


1. Inside The Womb

In the deepest dark of a confined space did I float. Warm to the touch but unreal.

Every sound and voice was heard like churning and throbbing drums of storms. 

The beating of the heart, the flowing of blood, the breathing of the lungs and the groans. 

"You are a sinner! I shall not let you live as such. Die you must. But still I love you dear."

From the sky, like a raging belch of a drunk, a voice of bold and haughty howled. 

Throguh womb, a terrific fit of bangs on my head was felt, with what I did not know.

Dig and hide had I tried, but only the dammed wall of the jail would I hit and learn! 

I bent my neck, contorted my limbs, I waited for a sharp knife poked and stabbed,

a forceps gripped and pulled. I cried out a slient scream, which no one had heard. 

Agony was felt, wounds had made. It was the fifth attempted termination of me and all. 

Yet, some unknown strength, perhaps without and within, had me mended and grown.

But it remained a heart grotesquely distorted, both in shape and in essence. 

Being born as a demon as they called.

I was a God's attempted-abort child

whose mother was not Marry but a whore.

A secret He wanted to keep but I would tell.

Submitted: August 08, 2019

© Copyright 2020 Derina Penn. All rights reserved.


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Graphic and disturbing, Derina. I hope this is not too autobiographic! I'm really wondering if there are further chapters and if so, where this is going.

Fri, August 9th, 2019 4:16pm


No, this is not autobiographic. My real mom wan't a whore, and I am not a bastard. But I do like to use "I" in my stories, and they do appear like real, don't they? First person works better for me. I try to weave my ideas into real story formate. This will have my own materials of course.

Yes, they will have more chapters, that is why I entered it as a book. It is a try on my black fountain pen. I don't like being told that I am too rosy and too unreal!! My life wasn't and isn't perfect. But it is not good to dwell upon it. If I want to write about it, I will do my best to wax some colors on it too. It will have all sorts of social ills in it that I know of.

Fri, August 9th, 2019 9:45am

Mike S.

Certainly different, Derina, though excellent!

Fri, August 9th, 2019 6:13pm


Thank you. Milk. Sometimes it is good to be different.

Sat, August 10th, 2019 1:15am


Oh, this is one intriguing first chapter, Derina. Looking forward to see where you take this.

Fri, August 9th, 2019 7:30pm


Thank you Hully. I think I need to be brave to write more.

Sat, August 10th, 2019 1:15am

tom mcmullen

Well written Derina, I'm glad you survived the five attempts of murder, you must be pretty hardy!

Sat, August 10th, 2019 1:50am


Yes, I got a broken heart because of that and many broken body parts too, which you will see later.

Fri, August 9th, 2019 7:07pm


Your best piece so far for me, Derina - the dark, the combination of prose and verse, the womb, made my hair stand on end! Excellent!

Sat, August 10th, 2019 7:27am


Ha! Thank you. I think I am writ with fear. I am backing off to contiune alreay just by thinking what I am going to write next chapter...maybe I should listen to your suggestion.

Sat, August 10th, 2019 1:13am

Joe Stuart

Thank you for telling me that you have written this, Derina. As you know, I prefer to stick to short stories (although I am now reading a few poems as well), so I would have missed this. I'm afraid this chapter is too obscure for me. Who is attempting the abortions? Is it God? Is he the father of a demon whose mother is a whore? The chapter is vividly descriptive but I'm afraid its meaning is lost on me--except that 'you' end up being born a demon. I nevertheless admire your courage for starting a book in this way. You might have to field comments from hard-liners, such as Tom's reference to abortion as 'murder'.

Sun, August 11th, 2019 10:46am


Thank you for reading, it was intentionally written that way for most of book stories, you have to keep reading to find the answer. If you don't like to read, don't bother by it. And I won't ask you again. I am sorry that you felt lost. As this will not be your type of cup of tea.

Who tried to abort me? Only God knows!!! And I am going to find out myself by investigating it and writing this up.

Sun, August 11th, 2019 1:28pm

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