Hurting

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Just need to write today

Submitted: September 04, 2019

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Hey y'all, just needed to write, needed to clear my mind...

 

Has your family ever experienced fueds?

Do you feel like your family has fallen apart?

The ones who used to be the biggest part of your life, including aunts, uncles, parents, cousins, siblings,etc.

Growing up we used to see each other all the time, but once the grandparents weren't there anymore, everything changed.

Everyone eventually grows up and moves away, but not only that I come from a very large family.

My mother was 3rd of 10 kids, 8 are currently alive, and then my dad was 3rd also of a family of 5 , which 4 are alive..

 

Out of these large numbers, you can imagine that I have a LOT of first cousins, but it just seems that both sides are exactly the same.

My mothers siblings don't get along with her and my dad's side do not get along with him.

Mind you my parent's are divorced..

But it has seemed there always were family fueds, but they became more real when my grandparents passed away.

Both my mother and father's parents were the GLUE they held the family together.

Then there's all the he said she said, and then the cousins who were once close, fell apart, I mean  you always are going to listen to your parents,  I mean I do, but it's really heart breaking.

It feels like nothing will ever be the same, and sadly, I believe that's the way it will end.

But I miss them, I miss them so much, and now my cousins have their lives, getting married, and having babies, and I have my life going with my hubby, my job I understand that life goes on, it always has..

But the times i've tried to set anything up, or talk to them I always feel like they don't want anything to do with me, now the ones that live far away, I understand, but the ones who know the way to my house and never ask to visit, or don't want to be apart of my life...

I feel forgotten and pushed to the side

They always say that the true colors show once the grandparents die, and in my case it was true.. on both sides.

I don't know, I just always feel like I'm singled out, because I'll see them hangning out, or talking to other people in the family, some of them even will talk to my older sister, but they won't talk to me. like how am I supposed to feel?

 

I just hope someday things could be different, and we could get along again.


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