Scream! My Dark Suicide of Sexual Desire. Eternal Silence. (Sexually, Mentally & Emotionally: My Sexual Innocence)

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Suicide of dark, sexual desire. Eternal silence. Dark fatality of the infinite.

Submitted: September 05, 2019

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Dark essence divine
a bloody bitch gaunt and drear,
eternal darkness, woeful misery
etched upon a nightmare of silent fear.

 

 

How shall I ever find 
such solace within this vile curse of dread?

Such desperation involuntarily I find instead.

 

 

Dark bloodlust of eternal agonizing death.
A glistening bloodbath where regrets dwell
with morose visages that moan and tremble well. 

Deep in hell.

Betwixt a necromantic temple, such misery to tell.

 

 

The Grandmaster Beast lies vile and lustily
covered in hellish, gruesome gore and wicked, woeful lore. Forevermore.
 Eternal terror and flame, such blood etched in vain.

 

 

Glass candles shattering within a darkened haze.
Shall my heart remain forever sealed in such shrouded silence?  Only to gaze?  Never to be phased?

My lost sexual innocence and naivete of youth

could never be recompensed by your sinister untruth.

 

 

 

Your vile, erotic lips of accursed horror
have tasted the innocence and alluring power of many victim's forbidden, suicidal terror.  Enduring forever.

My endless sexual desire. 

Demon's recompense.  Never to retire.

 

 

Pray tell me while my temptation urges and my dark, suicidal lust surges.


I wish to divulge these hidden mysteries of undying divine
as they press deep upon my bloody brow in endless time.

Hark!  The answer lies etched within my nefarious soul. 

To and fro as a bell shall toll.

 

 


A forbidden and forlorn secret whispers upon my lips
 and within my heart a hidden, deadly truth exists. 

Of nightmarish lore.
Locked within your everlasting darkness of cruel vanity.

Forevermore.

 

 


The dark pointed ears forever listening,
hidden visages peering, ever fearing and vainly searing. Such weeping.  Never sleeping.  Ever creeping.

The flashing eyes ever piercing me,

forlorn and morose, mournful mirth hypnotizing thee. 

A deep regret of apotheosis' worth.  Vicious echoes lamenting dearth.

 

 

XXXSEXUALLY  XXXXXXXXX EMOTIONALLYXXXXXXX PHYSICALLY  XXX

Eternal mentality of lost sexual innocence. 

Beyond consequence.

 

 

 

My dark tears etched upon my silent fears.

Forever lost within the countless years. 

Eternal Depression in never ending succession

blinding my fate with suicidial posession.

 

 

Manifest in eternal fate.  Viciously devoured by my own hate.

Shall this menacing regret ever be dually felt?

Or will it remain a solitary affair, my sexual desperation in fatal despair? 

 

 

 

Phantom and shade upon a dark shifting glade,
where phantasmic shadows of silence and mesmerism fade.


Behold!  Macabric handclaps with dark flashes of glitter and smoke I unfold.  Entreating upon a SECRET.  Unforetold.


Gruesome fury and vicious gore
mixed with lost regrets. 

 Forevermore.

 

 

 

Vicious screams echo beneath a starless, eternal smoke
forever heavy with eternal desecration.  I've awoke.

 
Death lay me in your forlorn darkness.
Consume me, divulge my dormancy. For damnation.  Internally torn.  Do you still refuse to see?

 

 

 

My selfish, bitter thoughts
 devouring my conflicted mind.
Enslaving all within its spell.  I've cruelly fell.


Screaming in a wicked darkness of hell with none trustworthy to tell.


This lone despair of shrouded, menacing silence I feel.

Externally, I feign happiness. Internally, such pain is real.

 

 

 

May the dark trance of the furies and elder sages
lead me into the nether realms of the Vril's eternal ages.

 

The Fallen Prince.  An absolution.  No final retribution.


Of everlasting death and desecration.
Of zealous darkness.  Eternally evermore.
A cruel finality.  This facade I've wore.

 

 

 

As I close my sorrowful eyes and end my soul of despair
 for the very last time,
this regretful disdain lies heavy upon my heart.
The silence eternally tearing me apart.

 

 

 

Weep not for me in the shrouded mystery of the divine
my time has come upon an end.

A note you shall never find.  Nor I send.

This deep hurt and pain shall never be mend.

 

 

 

Dark fatality of the infinite.

 

 

 

Eternal Silence... The End.


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