A world of sheep, search for god

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Chapter 1. An exploration of similarities between all religions, riddled with my own personal bias. My opinions, shared with you. I would love to hear everyone else's; in conversation. In peace. Without being defensive or offensive; trying to see the world through eachothers eyes, wear eachother's shoes Try to understand ourselves and how love is everything.

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Submitted: September 08, 2019

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What is creation?Thought is a ball of lightning constantly strobing in the brain.Assume while you read this, that there is SOME natural law. We all have our own morals and values.Try for a short while, to realize everyone is correct.This is a sort of script?or a demo version of what we all have in common.I would love to hear more people's thoughts as well. I have a lot more material as well. Think very carefully.  (Excuse the editing, it changed pasting it here a bit.)
 
Preface
I was raised Catholic, but could never believe. I'm culturally Catholic. I Was raised with said values and I think that there was a lot of good. There was a lot of bad too.Nobody has all the answers:we'll get into that.We were just told to believe, a lot of people did.We are open to suggestion and we all are how we are from early on. We are how we are treated. Thought is contageous and nobody can see everything clearly.
So, I didn't understand at the time.So I was always curious about what other people believed and I tried to compare myself to everyone.  "We have this in common, we are different in this way."I wanted to feel like what it was to be peopleso i analyzed them to death.As a kid I was told to ask fewer questions,but I love thinking about everything and they all ended up rattling around in my brain. So here is a short summary about a few things I think everyone has in commonalong with opinions.I don't intend to upset anyone;i want to know what everybody thinks.I want to understand us.We are all searching for fact. It is easier to accept truths that we agree with. Everybody does that, I think.Maybe a few people don't
 
 
Spirals
Since before memory; humans have enjoyed facing off on 2 sides.Comunity. Living together facing the outside world.We make eachother enemies; we create demons and torture eachother.  From pre-historicpre-Greek war lines, to firing squads; all the way to football of the world; every sports game...  Down to the duel.How we think and cooperate shows itself in every level of society.How we think and live our lives is a reflection of society.The world we were brought into (culture);our experiences(personal culture).I think all organized religion is good: community. Athiesm is as well:Aristotle wasn't an athiest..but he was pointing at the ground. There are things in every direction.Our minds go, in every direction.If we let them.
  If you abuse a dog, it bites. If you show it love; it loves. All exchanges are equal and oppisite,within the systemand into the universe.This extends to all levels of life. If you love a plant it will grow far taller.Name it. Respect it.To love is not to control.Love is freedom.Love is cooperation.Hate is war. Anger is war. The death of conversation; is war.We are in a state of war; a textual internet war where we share our hate and line up on sides.   We are built to form armies to fight for the right to LIVE HOW WE WANT!  So long as we didn't harm others or take more than we deserved.So long as we didn't let our vices START A WAR.Boom, next paragraph
We all want to live different ways.Before we can heal the evil we perceive in others;we need to heal ourselves.The 'moral' attacking the 'immoral'  just makes the 'immoral' fight back.I think you can use both terms on both sides of every argument.  I know, we need to fight at times.If we agree to live or die; we should be allowed to fight as far as we wish. To death, and beyond.to immortality.through that which is contained in all of us.Every human is a messiah. We persecute eachother. If you are passionate about something; you don't need anger. But it sometimes must come to that.We may spiral into a situation where nuclear war is the only option. That is a very much more than real possibility.And if it happens.Does it matter to you?Are you invested in your life?Or if it's goneyou'll be dead anyway so why would you care?Fuck it.Then we intentionally make mistakes.Or, we don't care. We do silly thingsi am not invested in reality. beep boop.commits a crime.Loses their mind.Tries to control someone else. Physically harms someone else without a prior agreement. A contract, of war. A logical civil system.A simple one, if the people so choose it.Free will. Free will in all things; together.
But we are forced into the world together. "You have to get along!""I don't like what those people are doing. They look and think differently."It is bound to happen in any system. People want to control others.They  do not love others. We can coexist. If we abandon anger. If we forgive the world and society for everything that it 'did to slight us.'We made it that way.Allowing ourselves to drown in anger and confusion..Refusing to get help for things WE KNOW are problems. Being taught to lie to ourselves.Because Society uses our vices for its own personal gain.Putting a bunch of criminals into a small box together makes them all felons.  We need to help people invest in society.They need something to do after we figure out how to treat them.Addiction. It comes in many forms. Some aren't fatal but they do damage you.We all have free will. I don't think anybody should tell anyone how to live;we are all however free to have an opinion.
It is hard to know what you believe unless you find out for yoruself.  It can be hard to see where things begin and end, in a block of text. (I am thinking about my creation.)If someone has to shout and get people riled up; it's war. In anger we are incapable of proper thought. We can only see our hate. We become it.  Our brothers become aliens.I won't throw in any bible quotes.  I read it in school yaers ago.We feel attacked, so we attack.Humans being defensive makes others defensive.We need free will.If we were all able to do what we wanted we could coexist.I don't like thinking like this.There are people who do really bad shit..I feel people should have the right to defend themselves.Children and innocents should be protected from the world.We all have the right to peace.
Life should be a simple place to grow up in where people can get along.The constant anger has driven the world mad. I am a bad person, because I'm not enraged aboutsome news article..  Because I think differently than you, I'm a villain?Because I'm almost neutral one very issuei try to see both sides..... in YOUR PERSONAL WAR, against society, against your parents, your hate directed everywhere and at a loss as to why everybody hates you.You blame others for beating you up.I got into fights. We became friends afterwards.We didn't really hate eachother. We were young dudes all riled up and pissed off. Pecking order. Anger.We have been given eachother as enemies by people in power. By people with closed minds and set opinions.  "It has to be this way.NO THE OPPISITE..... "  Then we call eachother stupid. Then we call everything stupid.Somehow, 'Stupid" has become the most widely used value judgement i've heard in a good long fucking time.Nothing is stupid. You just aren't trying to understand it.You can. Be confidant.
The world needs peace. Piece of mind. We need to calm down and take a step back.Just look at eachother for a moment, and see that we are all creatures of instinct and conscious thought.We are trapped between worlds.We are trying to find ourselves.We can't do that if we are being controlled.Everybody should have a voice; if somebody disagrees they are in no place to have a conversation.Expecting everybody else to do what YOU want makes them want you to do the same.  "Why wont they just do what I want?"We are all our own universe.Every thought, is a galaxy. It is full of different perceptions; other entire worldslooking in. "We are different here""We are different.""We are not the same."Some people like adventure.I want to go EVERYWHERE and eat ALL THE FOOD!buta lot of people just want to live their lives.They want to love who they are.And if everybody gets it their way, the world will end up an ash heap of twisted dreams and the corruption of power.The need to controlthe loss of loveend regression  loveI beg you; please loveput an end to regressionIf we plan regression. If we understand it as a tool for learning, rather than a way of living; the world will be at peace. I am not a beast. I have free will and I choose to try and help the world, even when I can't help myself.It is my instinct. Charity is many things. Doing to assist others.not doing to support others.to want more than you give is the greatest tragedythat is not a part of us. That is not healthy. In every story;gluttony ends badly.  Gluttony of anything.  To take from your neighbor. To kill your fellow man.Love is real.We all love. We are born to live by it. To exist against the outside world in our castles and communities.On the backs of horses; dying for what we believed in. Making martyrs of ourselves, for whatever cause. Now we have learned to exist just to exist. To pass time. To waste away. I have wasted away.yet I know; we are all the next messiah. If we aspire to greater things; if we challenge ourselves and step outside our secluded bubbles of self indulgence.  All nations could work together.We could find a way.Put all hate on pause and we will see a resolution to almost all of the world's problems.   We can nip cancer in the bud after that. Let's do this!You can start without me okay?I need time to work on my life. I want to improve and contribute anything I can.i don't think I have anything left.I need to start other things after I dreamSo now I must take a step back. I need to put this on pause.because i feelblank.and like I had a nice big vomitusbut not a literal one.Just, imagine perfect infinite symmetry.A balance accross the world.We need to take ownership of our lives!Invest in your own home.Use glass; it rocks!p.s.I use a lot of plastic.I don't have the money for decent things at the moment but I am going to have a decent job that pays over inflation.inflation is a black hole. we are spiraling into it.I will be able to make enough to save :)to be able to make money on the interest from my savings. To invest. To start my own business.I lost my love slowly over many years. Not all of it. I was a generally good person, but I explored every part of the mind I could.I think it's important to try and feel everything.I want to know what it feels like to be everybody.  I am fixated on it. I can't focus and I can't think when all the people are angry.I can smile. I can provide customer service.If it's my time, I tell people to get away.
be at peaceCalm down.breathe. Love.I love everyone.they get frusturating.I want to cry sometimes, but I don't often. It is self-indulgent to give your negativity to others, especially if they can't handle their own.It can be hard to work together with a closed mind.Pain closes the mind. Fear. Negativity.
I want to kill sometimes. It's there. I don't think I'd kill anyone who wasn't attacking me.most of us would kill someone who is attacking us. Who declars war on our lives.Being manipulated into a corner.Being treated like an animal; one can't not react. "WHY DID THEY DO THAT? They shouldn't have behaved like that." You fucking made them like that. All of us. Especially me.  I'm not horrible but i'm no fucking saint. I have free will. I think, i've been more good than bad.I have aspired to be, to give more positivity than i do negativity.I don't accept other people's negativity. I try to help. If it is out of my ability I am sorry. I can't help you.You need to find another channel to the answer because;  everyone can. in their own way. Most paths to excess or extreme piouty can lead to extreme behavior in the other direction.Evidence of thisi don't need to cite anything.  "A priest wouldn't do that" "You backed him into a corner with shame.God did not give us shame. We took that.We do not need it.Even the most despicable people; are sick. They are villains. They should be murdered.They are sick.Victims should choose their sentence.Rehabitilate or execute.   A jury of people surely decide on the severity and strength of crimeand someone everyone respects.like a judge but
I want everyone to have more moments of peace :)  and to help others do the same. To find their passion and get lost in it :)people make such beautiful shit.Amidst fuckinghorror beyond comprehension
we do create really cool things.  Anyone can do anything.You just have to want to do something.you need to want it enough and take ownershiplearn to survive while you pursue your passion.  Put in more than you take.Try and find something that you love doingand do that more. We all feel busy.  i dream the world was a business creating businesses. Everyone investing in eachother's passion, with their own free will.Taxation is theft
When things are awful.hell is a state of mind.Everyone says or feels at times like life is hell I think.I hope they don't but i've seen so many bad things happen. That is life.We usually do it to eachother. Reacting.Wanting something from someone else.  Trying to subvert free will.That feeeels evil to me.Trying to manipulate people.This diatribe is full of my personal bias.I can believe in anything anyone says for a moment. I try to.I try to push my mind into theirs, and see through their eyes.I imagine. As hard as I can.My opinions are my own.I would never tell anyone not to speak.I'd love to have a conversation with most people.  I do not argue.My mind is open. I love all of youuu.I believe in you!!Everyone is beautiful. It just gets covered up by their hate.  Beautiful inside.but we get surrounded by negativity.we get lost in it :(Abnormal psychology, biology, religion,everythingstresscauses inflammation. Inflammation rots your brain.Eating stones in the deserts of temptation;processed foods are nasty. my sister is going blind with a 'pseudo tumor cerebri"i wont double chck that namebut she lived on processed foods for a while,and played videogames.She was depressed; she didn't know how to get out of it.Psychiatrists are expensive and most just shove pills down your gutsand take your money  and you lose your mind.My mother was put on an anti-depressant. The shrink didn't say much. She said she was sad. She needed CBT.The reason I love Psychology.CBT.also, mindfullness training is very similiar to a few types of meditation i've read about.  And yoga.
 
All knowledge is connected and it lends to itself.it's a swirling mass; an endless spiral where bright ideas get corrupted by large masses and it tumbles to the center.  a civilization of nomadic horseman, all stampeding to the glue factory.Where are we spiraling?We are searching for complexity.Maybe the simplest answer is ideal.We don't need complicated laws.We have 10 simple rules that people have been talking about for ages.We also have Hamurabi.We fight for softnessthen violence spirals out of controlit's a rubber bandwe need to meet in the middle.I used to really like, "The Pit and the Pendulum"
 
Alright, so I love thoughty videos.  I reccomendEskify"; weird lists and interesting stories
Kurgeshadt  i didnt spell that right "In a nutshell""Kings and Generals"any documentary. (Check the facts. They lie in them; irving something, and arcs. Im rly tired. Cafe de olle 
 
I've spent a lot of time waiting for my life to happen..I watched film after film after series. I analyzed and idk.  I searched for good and evil as a spectator.  I felt like an anthropologist as a kid,living my life as an observer..Simple is best. Always."Dont be an asshole."Don't control eachother. Love.Violence is okay; so long as both parties agree.A spit handshake should be enforced by law. Contracts are bullshit.Taxes are low. People can choose to contribute to the programs they desire.We elect scientists. We focus on education and getting everybody's ideas out there.We can all be heard.We need businesses starting businesses.And large companies not trying to control the world.You need to grow. I understandbut.Stop trying to control the world.We fucking see you.We all deserve free will.We all deserve privacy andwe all need to love. 


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